hiiiiiiii

its a new year. its a good time to leave unwanted things behind and move on with life.things may not have gone my way. things may have been different from what i have thought. i have mishandled some situations. but its all over. i pray that the Lord will also lead me in the coming year like he always does. =)

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! =)

scream!

it makes me wanna scream!

brothers

brothers can be so nice at times. my brother just cooked me maggi wit prawns and meatball. SWEEEEEEEET man. and its like 12.40am. these brothers ah. so damn sweet la. i love brothers. wish i had around 10 or something. LOL.

blessed!

you are a blessing to me. thanks! =)

whatever whatever seriously

i hate how i cant even have a proper conversation with my dad. i actually cried while talking to him. goodness. i am such a loser. i am so scared to talk to him la. i should just go bang myself against a wall or something.

happy burthday

i realized that sometimes, i just cant be bothered to feel certain emotions. for example, when sean accidentally deleted all my photos and all my songs from the lappie while trying to change some of my settings, i was in no mood to get angry. haha. but the look on his face was funny tho. and sometimes, some of the jokes that people say are funny and it tickles me but i no mood to laugh. and sean was telling me that i am the one who needs to be configured and not my lappie. ahh whatevs!

THURSDAY Was SYAHIRA's Birthday! haha. it was so much of fun surprising her at her home. haha. we took many photos also. but i am just too lazy to upload. some other time i guess. and i love people who are born in this week. =)

Happy Birthday SYAHIRA, AUNT MARY, PANDIJI! =)

tired of it.

did not go to school today for lessons. but i still did go to school to see the children of caterpillar cove having a full dress rehearsal for their graduation concert.it was really good. had fun with pink. then i headed to lil india to meet my akka cause she wanted to go for threading and to buy her friend a gift. so we went and got her friend a perfume. and i still think that men perfume smell so much nicer than ladies ones.

and i really cannot take it anymore. why do problems come together all at once? i am tired of fighting it. tired of feeling it. i am just so tired. =(

from the inside

i hate this moment.
i really wanna scream.

bloody hell.

never in all my life have i ever felt so left out.
i cant believe they had to speak mandarin for the whole bloody discussion.
and they dont even realise not everyone is involved.
if u dont wanna compromise, im sorry but i am
just not interested to contribute even a single idea for the discussion.
i have been compromising all my life.
and i dont intend to keep doing that.
goodbye to you if u dont wanna compromise.

jason birthday

saturday was tiring. first had to go to school for EOP test. so stupid. i left the moment they said we could leave. then hidayah, pink and i headed down to PS to celebrate jason's birthday with grace. and so we bought brownies as a substitute for a birthday cake. heh. and so, we all headed for lunch and had lots of fun. and hidayah had to leave after lunch. so, jason, pink,grace and i headed for the arcade. i only played the shooting thing which i love so much. i hate hate hate the driving thing. i cant control anything man. maybe that is the reason why i refuse to take a car license although my daddy said that he will sponsor me. it was fun day with them.

and then i headed home to get ready to go to my sister's friends house for deepavalli. and i saw my ex-schoolmate vanessa. not cheena babi but another vanessa. what a coincidence man. she was the ex-colleague of my sister's friend. heh. small world eh. then of course we chilled and talked and then ate to our hearts content and left for home soon after. it was a tiring day but i had fun! =)

the people


the brownies


grace and me


jason.


jason 2.

deepavalli boredom

Deepavalli is really a tiring day for me.
its tiring cause there is nothing to do at all at my hindu granny's place.
its exhausting to sit and act like i am such a homely person.
omg. its insane. and then they all have weird conversations
going on and i have like almost NOTHING to say at all.
and i cant like talk much to my guy cousins cause they are guys.
and actually, i got nothing to talk to them also.
the only guy cousin i can talk to is like ruban.
and i have this aunt who keeps asking me to wear the shawl thing
in such a way that it covers my whole front and thus
hiding the whole design in the front.
for goodness sake, i aint wearing anything which is obscene.
its a punjabi suit for heavens sake.
and the food is like briyani with chicken and mutton yet again.
am so bored of all these yearly stuff.
so so so so so boring. it drives me insane.
thank God this years deepavalli is over. for me at least.


keertana and me

da jie and me

good times rool

Good Times

Put down the magazine and get off the phone
Cuz theres a place I wanna show u and it wont take long
Take a ride
Take a ride

Its lookin like we're getting there
Over here, comin clear
Place that has no rhymes, or times, or crimes
Just good times
Just good times

Take me away
To a place where the good times good times roll
Don't let me stay
In a place where this hate can steal my soul

Got myself worked up over nothing today
All this trash in my head I gotta throw it away
Its alright
Its alright

Its lookin like we're getting there
Over here, comin clear
Place that has no rhymes, or times, or crimes
Just good times
Just good times

Take me away
To a place where the good times good times roll
Don't let me stay
In a place where this hate can steal my soul

This is it, I'm finally here
And all the blurry lines are clear
And everything that I cant see
Seems to make more sense to me
Why the hell cant I just let it go, let it go, yeah

Take me away (away)
where the good times good times roll (roll)
Don't let me stay (stay)
where this hate can steal my soul

Let the good times roll
Let the good times roll (take me away)
Let the good times roll (take me away)
Let the good times roll

bad bad day

bad bad day!
went to NUH. wasted trip.
took cab. met Jason. took bus with him.
both of us rushed for class.
class extremely boring.


only good thing for the day: meeting zara and my BR babes! =)

forced

i just hate it SO SO SO SO SO SO much when i am forced to do something.
ARGH!!
DONT FORCE ME!!

thursday ah!

today is a good good good day! class was only from 9 to 11.
Kelly and i went to have lunch together.
and so we headed to amk hub.
and yes, i still do get lost in there. heh.
we ate at new york new york.
yummy yummy food i tell u.
bbq spare ribs was delicious.
it was really so nice to meet kelly and talk about things.
i mean there was a solid conversation.
we both talked about our lives and all.
i felt so much at ease that i talked about my life.
i swear i dont talk about my life to just anyone.
i love kelly so much and i trust her.
i really enjoyed the conversation and the time spent with her.
thanks babe!! =)


then i went to chill with the monyet king himself.
and since i had bought a woodcraft thing that i saw at amk hub,
we both decided to fix it while waiting for the monyet prince to come.
and we nearly spent 2 hours fixing that thing
cause it was like so tough man.
it was alot of fun tho.
figuring which piece should go where.
and after we fixed it, we felt so happy and satisfied.
heh. i cannot forget the look on iqbal's face.
so anyways, vin came with ben, manda and shu yuan and iqbal's ''girlfriend''.
and that was it. we got high on air.
we had alot of fun.
and then of course i got tired and came home.
and here am i typing this out.
i love my friends. =)

the woodcreft thing which took hours to make.

oh, and teacher ram invited me to her house today.
i wanted to go but i could not cause i had stuff to do.
hope the rest of the teachers have fun tho.

disaster week

last week was very tiring. aunt was admitted in hospital. she had brain cancer. so since doctors had already given her 3 months to live, she went with her daughter and nephew to china i think. and when she came back, she had a fall and got admitted into the hospital. visited her on sunday. i just hate to go into the icu rooms. i hate to see people fighting to live. i hate to feel death lingering in every corner. and so i did see her. she was on the life support thing. which means that without the machine thing, she was dead. so it was a matter of time she passed away. i felt to bad for her children. then of course we did a little prayer in the icu room. then i went off to church to many questions on my mind. i know that i have no idea to ask why things happen this way but i am only human and i was really confused and began to ask questions. so church was like all so bad for me that day. i was like crying non-stop asking stupid questions and demanding answers from God.

monday was like no better. wanted to visit aunt but mum said it was really way too crowded there and thus i did not go to the hospital. i had a restless heart. i felt like i had lost something. tuesday, grandma had to go to hospital for checkup. again had to go to the hospital. and my aunt passed away.
wednesday was all about preparing for hids birthday. went to the bottle tree park to check out the place and then went to school and headed back home for a proper rest. but again, i was not allowed to rest as i had to plan many things.
thursday was hid's birthday. had a few quarrels with friends cause i hated it when i had to clean up the mess when things go wrong. and i really lost my temper. but it was good fun when cara and elaine and the rest of BR with Pam. and thursday was also my granny's major operation. i could not go because of the bd celebration. and after the bd celebration, when i wanted to go to the hospital, mummy called me and asked me to go home instead.
friday, funeral for aunt. i refused to go. many said i was stubborn not to go and pay my respects. but i knew myself and i knew i could not go. i was not at peace. if i were to go there, know i will make a mess up. i will begin to ask questions and i will lose faith. so i did not go there. and i went home with a unsettled mind and i tried to keep my mind on happy things but failed miserably. i was almost torn apart by friday cause i had so many things going on around me and i had no one to tell it to. so i told it to the one who always listens. i poured my heart inside out and i felt better. like so much better.

thank God saturday and sunday were like much better.

u who knows best.

its not for me to question.
but i cant help it.
why things happen in a certain way?
i shall just leave it to you who knows best.

thanks to iqbal who knew something
was wrong with me the moment i picked up the phone.
gotta be telepathy man.
thanks for the small yet really
uplifting chat.

first day of last sem

first day of second semester, the final semester. was good. sukuna is now back to her normal cheerful self. so good to see that. so glad to see my besties. and of course, there are the classmates.

and oh, fazzie is so pretty with her permed hair. so so gorgeous. totally suits her. she looks like a princess in some fairyland. and pam is like a rockstar with red highlights. cool stuff eh. Pink, Allyssa, Hid and i have not much changes tho.We are so the same-old-brand-new-us.

and and and i called India today! yes ah. okay. actually i only called someone in India. and that person is nithya. heh. so exciting siah. i love to talk.had a really good chat with her. loves.

and oh, i found my old diary. i was reading thru it and it found it to be so interesting. it was mostly written during upper sec. when i was like so stressed and feeling so stupid. and as always, i never say my problems to anyone. it was all like written in the diary.

so nice to read man. i jotted down stuff like when nithya/ naz/ vanessa/ sockpeng/ fattanah and basically anyone helped me. because i had this thing since young that i must never forget those who helped me. even if it was a small help, it meant the world to me.

and i realised that after secondary school, i had this diary but i rarely wrote on it.and there were like so many empty pages.and i really cant recollect what had happened from the time of graduation from bvss to now.

so, i have decided to have another diary. gonna write all my stuff in there. all my problems, my happiness will be like written down. and in a few years time, i can read back at it and have a good time looking back.

gotta sleep now. really tired.
goodnite mates! =)

hidayah heal fast

hidayah and her adventures gone bad once again.
she hurt her foot and i saw those pics in her blog.
bad stuff i tell u.
and to think she still sounded so cheerful on the phone.
gosh, she is like strawberry la.
i have no idea why i said that.

and so, i really hope her toe heals.
and after all these accidents that are taking place,
i think BR should just rename ourselves as
WD or something. and oh, WD is for walking Disasters just in case u dint know.

i want school to start. i want to meet all my friends.
i also want to meet my schoolmates,
random people whom u dont know but have seen ard in school
and of course the lecturers.

the last semester is here. so i should really enjoy my time in NP.
i meant work hard for the final sem. heh.



to my babe!

another day another experience

i saw my darling germaine and her sister and of course the hot dad. heh.
i miss them so much la.
they were like screaming ' teacher meena teacher meena!!'

we chatted in the playground for around 10 minutes and it was so much fun.
the girls had ALOT to tell me and i was more then happy to listen.
and the dad was very nice to join us in the small talk we were having.
then of course i had to leave.

went to woodlands mac to teach rachel maths.
and maths is so nice to do i realised.
like sec 2 work is much fun.

headed home soon after the tuition. was tired.
and tmr going out with the allyssa and hidayah.
hope its fun. neh. it will be fun!

goodnite mates! much loves! =)

Get well soon syahira!

Thank God syahira is okay.
she got into this minor accident and her knee is like swollen.
and not forgetting the arm which is like numb.
Thank God she is alright.

so that means that all my close friends who have bikes have gotten into accidents.
scary man.
it reminded me of the time when i and my aunt got into an accident.
scary stuff.

i hope syahira will get well like real soon. =)

happy!

i am so happy.

tired and tired

i am so very tired.
the only thing i am looking forward to is the youth bbq.

booohooo.
my cousin/nephew is in nickeash production.
some indian dance group.
so weird man. he used to be an adorable kid.
now grown up and dancing. lol.
but thank god, he does not know me.

i realised that these people who dance really think that they are oh-so-cool.
but in actual fact, they are not.
they are just like anyone.
and sometimes, it gets to me when i see indian girls going
' so cool la he. he dance on vasatham central la'
i mean, SO? so what?

and many a time, they get mixed up with the talent and the looks.
they will say someone dances well if he looks good.
its bad. look or talent man.


and i feel like a bad bad friend to boy.
its long since i contacted boy. heh.
i really really hope to contact him before the 22nd.
please God, let me by any chance remember his number.

i love you jesus! =)

challengers 07

camp was great.
special thanks shall go to :
jaime.lina.grace.jason.syaz.kid who hanged out alot with us.
nice time with everyone =)

allyssa.pink.meena

pink.meena

blurred hid.meena

pink.meena

monyets rule. lina.meena

liz.meena

black rouge

syahira.meena

retard

boo and hoo

meena linache

chek whye.hid.meena.syahira.grace

check this out.

BR with gracie =)

yeah!

three.

gracie and jason. people whom we love.

the people.

last nite. meena.syahira

us.

yoohoooo

i am really tired and i want to sleep.

but i have to blog about this man.

went to the concert and Pastor Alvin Thomas was real good.

two thumbs up.

he was really funny and his voice was really superb man.
i was really touched by God.

it was so nice. gosh. the people were like really dancing and jumping.

so cute lah.
and i felt a change and i know i have to change some things.

touch some lives.

so i will be a irritant in some people's eye from now.

cause i will be pestering you. yoohoo.


and i love my Him so. =)

happy birthday.

its boy's birthday tmr!
but i cant wish him cause i lost all contact ever since i lost the hp number.
it was dumb of me, i know.
anyways, i shall wish him here for my own contentment.


Happy Birthday Boy! =)

mua and mua

vin and meena are the ugly ducklings in town.
yeap. we did it all for fun.
and as usual, it was disasterous.
one is bald and the other is i-dunno-how-to-describe-it.

i wish i could put a photo of the baldie here.
but of course i cant.
cause someone thinks that their identity should be kept a secret.
ooooo. thats right. a secret.

heh. and here are some photos of one of the ugly ducklings. meena is her name.=)

welcome to the corporate world.


allyssa and mua


syahira shakira.

fireworks

i just realised that i have lost the hp numbers of many friends when i transferred the numbers from my old hp to my new one. and now i feel so disconnected from them. its like altho theres like friendster and msn, it feels so different. so if you happen to be reading this, just message me your numbers guys. =)

and now, let me say about yesterday which is friday. it was a fun day at work. had some partying going on and the rest had drinks. of course i didnt. heh. and then they got high and they were talking all the adult stuff. so, hid and i quietly took our leave as we did not want to be there to hear that kinda talk. heh. slacked the day. and now i feel bad.

went to taka with hid to return books after werk. then we headed to watch the fireworks. we stood at the same spot for like 2 hours. and then it finally started. it was awesome man. really damn nice. and it was very windy too. the feeling was great. no wonder i love the place. and then of course we headed home. and i was so very tired i bathed and just slept without dinner. vin found the part where i slept without dinner to be really surprising because he said that i am like always eating and when i sacrificed the food for sleep, it felt really weird. heh.

and now i am kinda sleepy. i had gone to tekka in the morning. mummy and sis dragged me there. had to alter the indian suits that we sew in india. the fellas there are damn bad at sewing. they should just rob a bank if they need money instead of stealing money from us man. its insane! urgh! watevs man.

heh. but no use getting angry now. gosh my eyelids are getting heavy. i better take ma leave!
goodnite mates!

blablabaybehbla

okays. so the phone at home rang.
and i picked it up.
and instead of saying 'hello'
i said,
' hi, good morning, this is meena calling from...'
and then i realised this was the house phone
and i was not at work.
so dumb la.

and again, brother was at the door.
so i opened it.
and instead of opening the lock,
i smiled and said 'hello'.

like something is so wrong with me la.
i am like so confused man.

random things which happened today.

1. got a few really sweeet messages from friends. really made my day.
2. ate seafood banmian which tasted awesome. banquet rocks big time.
3. got a call from iqbal around 1 plus and it was because he was somewhere near city hall and was wondering if we could have lunch. Super nice rights. heh.
4. got a call from raj/taj. have no idea who.
   
5. the peeps at the office were like all sharing food during tea break. it was alot of crackers and titbits. hahaha. and it was nice to eat them. Hid had the most fun in this man. Heh.
6. i bought shampoo. yeahs.
7. this chinese boy aged maybe 4 ran up to me in the park and tapped my leg and smiled and said 'hello!' to me. i also do not have any idea who he is. but he was lovable.
8. i called this company in singapore and there was like bangra music as call waiting and then a chinese man who sounded like an ah-peh picked it up 'ALO..'
   
   
   
   

dream of everything

i had another weird dream.
was in a gig.
and of course i had to fall.
halim came to help me up.
all of people man.
HEH.
then, suddenly it was early morning.

vin, iqbal and i , hid and some other people were walking near esplanade.
and we saw many people who were wasted.
like so totally drunk was pink.
so stupid la. pink does not even drink can.
and also she was like dressed as if she went clubbing.
then we had to wake her up and we moved further on.
and this time i saw bala and hid.
i dunno how hid was with bala.
she was like with me and the clique a few moments ago only.

it was damn weird.
too weird for the weird meena to handle.
so she just woke up.

boohooyoohooo

the indian nus show was awesome.
it was damn funny and entertaining.
and oh there were like so many parts when they danced.
it was so cute.
and there was a meaning behind it.
Thats NUS for u.

and of course it is the first day at work today.
was okay i guess.
there were times when i really wanted to sleep.
and there were times when i was laughing non-stop.
i had to make calls to many countries.
and i have to admit the indian and japanese ones were the funniest.
gosh. i really giggled to myself in my seat.

and oh, having more hair is better than having little hair.
HEH.
someone is bald. BOO!

callout

and i dont understand why u choose to be so uncontactable.
appearing offline, not messaging. not calling.
does not prove a thing.

but it really makes me wonder how u can still contact all the rest
when u are like so out of my world.
whatever it is, i still love and miss you my friend!
hope ure doing good babe! =)

under my umbrella

under my umbrella.
went to padang to carry umbrella.
to supposedly make the largest flag.
heh. it was fun but it was hot.
and it so reminded me of the song by rihanna.

No clouds in my storms.

Let it rain, I had this game in a fame, coming down to the Dow Jones.
When the clouds come we gone
We roc-a-fella, we fly higher than weather and G 5's are better.

You know me, an anticipation, for precipitation, back chicks in the rainy day.
Rain man is back, with little miss sunshine, Rihanna where you at?

You had my heart.
And we'll never be world apart.
They be in magazines.
But you'll still be my star.
Baby, cause in the dark.
You can see shiny cars.
And that's when you need me there.
With you I'll always share.
Because…

When the sun shines, we'll shine together.
Told you I'll be here forever.
Said I'll always be a friend.
Took an oath, Ima stick it out till the end.
Now it's raining more than ever.
Know that we'll still have each other.
You can stand under my umbrella.

These funky things.
Will never come in between.
You're part of my entity
If for infinity.]
When the world has took us part.
When the world has done its cause.
If the hand is hard.
Together we'll mend your heart.
Because…

aisha and yours truly.

hand?

heh.

last day of attachment

today was the last day of attachment.
it ended so fast.
i really enjoyed all the times i spent there.
the kids were such darlings.
they were clinging on to me
and some asked
'u mean u will never ever come back here?'
'but i will miss you leh!'
'i give you my daddy number. u call can?'
'teacher meena, can u give me ur number?'
'can you come my house for my birthday?'

it was so cute lah.
and of course the bf was so affected by it.
i could see tears in his eyes when i was leaving.
and he gave me a kiss on my lips.
he is so gonna break many girls hearts when he grows up.
heh. Azym is so hot. heh.

photos. =)

the bf and me.

kelly and me =)

azym.

azym and ezzat. mixed kids are the coolest thigns ever.

every hottie needs his rest.

.........

F.O.P was just so awesome. i really enjoyed it man. went with sista, sharon and zara. total coolness. could feel God moving amidst the crowd. loved it so so much.

sunday was not a blast. i felt tired i guess. after church had to head to granny's. We went there to convince her to go for a op which she simply refuses to go. Hope she will change her mind. She has to.

stayed up the whole night to do the portfolio. was so stressed and gastric pain was killing me. but i had to go on. Finally, reached school and alot of drama happened which i cant possibly write here. Many people helped me today for the assignment. One such person was Shan. she was really helping me to put my portfolio in order. was kinda touched by it. I was going blank due to stress.

and of course, it was over once we handed in the werk. i vommited about 4 times. suddenly got sick and i felt horrible. Really like my whole stomach was going insane. i really really need to thank LIZ, PINK and FAZZIE for like taking care of me and bearing with me. i was such an ass i know. but they were so damn sweet la. thank u so much babes. i really from the bottom of my heart value ur time with me.

came home and puked and then slept for like 7 hours. i think i was too stressed that i could take anything anymore. which is why my body went haywire and i needed to charge my battery. HEH.

i am only going to spend two more days with the kids. i am so gonna miss them once this ends.

F.O.P

so what if u are a dancer?

so what if girls are after you?

so what if you yourself think so highly of yourself?

i dont feel like adding a moronic person like you.

and there is nothing that can change my mind.

now that i have it off my chest,

let me say about my happenings.

well, its just a week more to go before attachment ends.

and i am so gonna miss my kids.

i am looking forward to Festival of Praise.

WOOHOOO!

and yes, it was a tough decision to make.

to go F.O.P or to BAYBEATS which i have been like

waiting a whole year for.but well,

nothing can beat the presence of God.

so, i am going F.O.P.

gonna have a rocking time with THE MAN. =)

schoool is so cool!

school is cool!

had fun with my babes.

hang out at bukit panjang plaza.

and the three nerds;

meena, syahira and pink,

had a exciting time taking the LRT.

we were so lost.

but it was fun.

we then headed to marina sqare.

and pink did her usual shopping

on ear accessories.

it was a fun time.

i love my babes!

and i have to go to school tmr again.

to return the o.v.e.r.d.u.e book.

i am so sorry fazzie.

=(

and of course, i need to do my research

on the whatever thing that i need to do

for my portfolio.

so much of work.

and i really miss my kids alot.

just one day without them feels weird.

heh.

and i also miss

ZARA
IQBAL
VIN
JENN
BEN
NURUL
AMANDA

meet up soon boys and girls! =)

NP

i miss my friends.

but i get to see them on monday.

i have to go NP and again, its exciting.

HEH.

but i also have to hand in some DAC assignment.

that is the thing that is depressing la.

anyways, NP here i come baybeh!

indians rule

i am like super pissed.
why do i hear people calling indians as 'anneh'?
anneh in tamil means brother.
so are all indians brothers OR WHAT?
so.pissed.off.

Please learn to use the proper terms.
We are indians not some 'anneh' like you claim.

and if u dont know how to use the tamil language,
please dont use it.
dont try to create ur own words and pretend it out to be tamil.
cuz it aint tamil. and its definately not funny.
its not something u can make fun of and laugh it off.
its a LANGUAGE.

and lastly, i have to say that i am proud to be an indian.

i love jesus!!

i was listening to Neerae yen thanjam (a tamil christian song). i was so touched by it. tho its a song which is mellow and about worshipping the lord, i got so reminded of my past. my past which no one knows except my family and my Lord. there is a reason for everything, yes. But i was too young to understand and even now, i dont. and i had cried so many times 'why me?'. in all those times, i knew He was with me. When NO ONE else knew what i felt, he could just tell me so gently that things are happening for a reason and i could feel his embrace and his hand in mine every step of the way.

i truly love you Jesus. I wanna give my everything to you. Lead me where you want me to be. =)

bla joke bla

How many beds did you lay inyesterday?
* one.

What color shirt are you wearing?
* some ugly blue shirt. heh.

Name one thing that you do everyday?
* breathe.

Whats the color of your bedroomwalls?
* i dunno man.

How much cash do you have on you rightnow?
* none. i dont need cash when i am at home.

You cant wait till..?
* i go to my home.

Who got you to join friendster?
* i dunno man. it was ages ago.

What did you have for dinner lastnight?
* i forgot. heh.

Look to your left. Whats there?
* my parrot. oowhee!!

Where are you now?
* my hall.

Whats the last piece of clothing youborrowed from someone?
* i dont borrow clothing. heh.

What website do you visit the most?
* my hotmail and friendster i guess.

Do you have plants in your room?
* neh.

Does anything hurt on your body rightnow?
* my eye?

What city was your last taxicab ride in?
* eh. the beautiful singapore.

Do you own a picture phone?
* Yup.

Whats your favorite starbucks drink?
* Caramel cream base. -slurps-

Recent time you were really upset?
* i forgot. heh.


was bored. so the post. and oh, my mummy called me melanie like trice today. LOL. it was so funny lah. and i really cant wait to be 21 man. =)

and oh i so need to thank meiting. she is so sweet to message me to wish me all the best for my assessment and also to ask how i did. so damn sweet. love u baybeh!! =)

another day is past

okay. my day is like so unexpected. i was suddenly asked to go to the changi airport as a field trip for the toddlers since the theme was on transport. and yeah, it was fun i guess. the day was spent with ezzat ( this hottie who is chinese and malay mixed. )we kissed each other like dunno how many times man. i cant wait for him to grow up. HEH!

and then there was marx ong. he was like so close to me. there was once when there were police walking by and he cried and cried and all of the teachers, he ran to me crying out '' teacher meena!!! i scared..police..'' it was so adorable man. and he like kept holding on to me. haio. such a darling!!

so that was in the morning and in the afternoon, it was fun. i managed to make wei keong( indo hottie) sleep. okay, he is one of the naughtiest boys. but every teacher just keep scolding him. poor him. and i talked to him nicely and i patted him to sleep. he was asleep within 2 minutes la. damn fast. i think no one has been nice enought to tell him things nicely, so he tends to rebel. but when i told him nicely, he actually listened to what i had to say. sometimes, i wish teachers will not shout at the kids. =(

then after work, i rushed to meet hidayah baybeh. and it was laughing non stop all the way. there were so many things we did. heh. it was awesome. totally awesome!! and of course the cute guy who happened to be chinese and indian mix was one of the awesome things that happened to us. HEH. WHEEEE!!

fweeet

yeahs. i will be meeting hidayah and pink tmr..

WOOOHOOO!!

and it has been so long since we went to eat the banquet. and then we are going arcade. typical us. we need fun in our lives. its gonna be fun baybehs. but i end at 5 and it will take some time for me to travel all the way. so we are meeting at 6 and gonna be like havoc all the way.

and guess what, even then we will go to the library at least for a while to find any related books on the theme for the kids at the centre. we are such nice teachers. HEH!

and man, i cant wait for next wednesday when i will get assessed by my mentor and then i can work on my portfolio and do all the rest of the major stress work. i am like so stressed la but three people whom i chatted with last week and this week could actually ask me '' eh, u so free everyday ah. lucky siah!''

and i was thinking ''yeah RIGHT!''
when u are stressed, u dont need to whine and whine and do the job, i believe you can still get it done with a smile on ur face. =)
(i so deserve a star for even mentioning this!)

vin iqbal

some people are just so clever.
they try to help you solve the lappie's problem.
but end up making matters worse.
HEH!
and after doing all that crap,
smile so innocently.
i am supposed to be pissed but i find it just so cute!
monyets all the way dudes!!

thanks babes!!

and all the best for Hidayah who is gonna get assesed today!!!! =)

jesus u are my best friend!

yeah baybeh yeah! its over!
WHEEEEEEEEE!!!!

and i have to thank my bestest bestfriend for it. i was so scared before the assesment. then just a small chat with him and i was so calm. i knew i could do it. and yeah man, i got a high good from PHILIP. his expectations are high. and i got a high good. that is awesome news for me.

i really thank God for it. i could never have done it on my own. Thank you JESUS!! =)

and now that philip's assesment is over, its time for my supervisor, Teacher June to asses me. and i need to like prepare another new lesson for her. i hope it will be good. well, actually i know it will be good. HEH! its all the confidence i get from the verse ' i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.' -power verse.

and lastly, all the best for the rest of my dearies who are yet to be assesed. and of cuz, thank u hid for personally calling me so many times just to ask me how i did. really sweet of u. =)

jesus christ take my life

it just feels so good when He sees right thru you and He knows just what to say to strengthen you. Lately, i have been grumbling alot about the assignments and the whole attachment as a whole. BUT, He said that in everything i do, i have been doing it without complaning and grumbling and that He will grant me anything that i ask of him.

SWEEEEET!! gosh, i love him so much man. and there are times when i just smile to myself because i feel SO loved. its a great feeling.

and how can i stand here with you and not be moved by you

yeah its stress out

been receiving really weird calls.
dont wanna elaborate.
i just hope it stops.

life has been just fine.
been like doing the learning corner materials.
and philip is coming on tuesday to assess the three of us.
thats like really fast man.
and i pray it will go on fine.

been dreaming non-stop about many things.
when i wake up, i find is easy to recall some
and there are also some which are real tough to remember.

and after 17 july, its like fun all the way i hope.
please ask me out after the 17th!!
i wanna chillout and relieve myself of the stress i have inside.

i kept using woohoo with my kids.
and now, everyone is woohoo-ing in my class.
so damn cute siah.

and there is this teacher who commented
that my madarin is superb!
HEH! she praise dunno how many times already siah.
power max uh! =)



with Christ in the vessel you can smile at the storm.

WOOOHOOO!
church rocked big time.
LOVED the service.
and oh, there was an external pastor today.
He is from the Great India.
He was so funny man.
gosh. i was like laughing so loudly at all his jokes.
heh. not like a girl at all.
awesome day!

tmr going NP. yeah baby yeah!
then can meet my dearies and have all the fun i have missed out on.
and can see tons of eye candies as what Hid said! HEH.
class ends at 11 plus but we are gonna stay longer in school.
all for the sake of those people who drive u crazy.
heh. Hidayah oh Hidayah!
gonna have lots of fun baby!!

Whole day was spent at the hospital.
the service is bad man.
why is it that the waiting time has to be 2 to 3 hours?

Gosh! thats alot of time being wasted.
and my granny, aunt and ruban came too.
and oh, the nurses took mum away.

poor thing la she!

was all alone in some room for so long.
only after a few hours were we even allowed to see her.


i really pray that she gets better!

and i know she will. heh. =)



and some uncle of mine is in NUH.
bike accident.
in some terrible state.
smashed rib bone or something.
gosh. its some scary stuff going on man.
bikers are like always at risk.
hmph.

ah yes. tmr is SUNDAY!!
most prolly the youth are going to swensens to eat!

yeah baby yeah!
and oh, i ate lamp chop today. yum yum.
satisfying food! =)

dirty liar

You Never Satisfy Me
Avril Lavigne

Excuse me sir, do I have your attention,
there's something if you don't mind I'd like to mention,
so open those ears, sit your butt down and shut your mouth
I'm aware that it's hard for you to do that,
all I ask is lay down, put your feet up
now soak in, pay attention, learn a lesson loud and clear

Hey, you're a dirty liar,
you wronged me out for something I thought was right,
I wanted to be left alone,
not shown around like your golden prize
oh, I looked around, look what happened,
you found out you never satisfy me

Never trusted anyone in the first place,
you turned me up, your disgusting anyway hear that music,
crank it up, is there something familiar in the singers voice
turn it down, now listen to me,
what made you think you were my authority I'm awake, finally,
I'm able to move on (just gotta tell the truth)

Now do these word stick to you,
hope they do think about it, think about it stick to you like superglue,
keep you from the things you do

another day at another month

slept ard 5 or 6 yesterday.
mummy is sick. really sick.
i was so scared for her.
i really really hope she feels better soon.
i know she will.
She has backing what. heh.

work was tiring today. i was the only one in charge today.
it was tiring shouting at the kids.
but at the end of the day, they were all so nice to me.
there was this girl, xue wen.
she came up to me and asked,
'' teacher meena, why are u so nice to us?''

and all i could say is that
'' haha. thank u xue wen for saying that.

its because u are nice children. so i am nice to you okie?''
and she hugged me tightly and said '' i love u teacher meena!''
gosh! love them man.

and oh, i stayed one more hour with the children cause

the kids wanted me to stay longer with them. heh.
and when i went outside of my centre after work,
i saw my friends!!
surprise it seems. damn sweet!
thank u so much man. really perked me up!



this note is for someone. i dunno if u will see this. but i hope u do. there is nothing for me to hide. if u wanna doubt me, go ahead. i will not defend myself. and besides, u are not a good friend urself. you who come to me only for help. dont call me paranoid. i know what i say and i mean it.

what goes around comes around

yes ah!

whooo! i am like super awake now.
and jenn left like tons of msgs in my inbox.
damn sweeet. thanks woman!
and vin entertains latenights when i cant sleep.
so the very sweeet. thanks man.

and i am gonna spend like my whole monday with my babes!
rocking eh.
i am going to NP!!
gosh. this is like the most exciting thing
that is happening to me now.

HIP HIP HOORAY!



i feel so fresh, i wanna do my assignments!

=)

and so someone is jealous of another someone.
this is ultimate cuteness.
you dont have to be jealous u monyet!
you are my buddy and thats it.
love u berries and pie!

stress!

i cant believe myself. i spent the whole day planning and doing some of my learning corner materials. like i am so stressed man. i spend every time i have trying to think of ideas and just thinking about my stuff. gosh! its been a while since i was this hardworking. but i like it tho. makes me feels responsible eh. heh. and oh i think i need to go to the NP tmr. i miss the place so much la. but whats the point of being in the place if ur friends are not there right. but i have no choice i need to go do my work. hai. STRESS ah.

and oh, 5 people have so far told me that i sound different.and they are my close buds. i guess its because of the stress. some say i am no longer the bubbly self, some say i got mood swings, some say i have become more harsh. really sorry but i am really not strong at this point in time.

i promise i will be better. i need time =)

heh. thanks for the concern babe!

murali.

i found someone in friendster who looks just like jun wei. and he is from np too. weird eh. but its nice man. and after viewing him, i got reminded of this small lil boy in india. his name is murali and he is such a monkey. i miss him ah. booo.

sunday church

and i always am uplifted whenever i go to church.
i was like so confused and miserable the whole week.
i was messed up, really.
i felt lost.

but God totally removed that feeling.
when i was praying after the service, GOd spoke to me.
He said that i have alot of desires.
He said that i also have alot of problems.
and he said that these are the things that i dont tell anyone.
Anyone but Him. and he appreciates that.
and he said He will grant them.

My God is so sweeeet.
i am like always melting at his love for me.



mould me into who i am supposed to be.

stressed.

stressed.
i wanna scream!

promise of a lifetime -kutless

I have fallen to my knees
As I sing a lullaby of pain
I'm feeling broken in my melody
As I sing to help the tears go away

Then I remember the pledge you made to me

[CHORUS:]
I know you're always there
To hear my every prayer inside
I'm clinging to the promise of a lifetime
I hear the words you say
To never walk away from me and leave behind
The promise of a lifetime

Will you help me fall apart
Pick me up, take me in your arms
Find my way back from the storm
And you show me how to grow
Through the change

I still remember the pledge you made to me

[BRIDGE:]
I am holding on to the hope I have inside
With you I will stay through every day
Putting my understanding aside

And I am comforted

my thoughts

fever - 38. 7 degrees
had diahorrea 19 times.
my throat hurts bad.
i cannot speak.
i cannot sleep.
if i do, i get nightmares.
i wake up every hour.
i am sick.

sorry to those whose phonecalls i did not answer and those whose messages which i did not reply to.





why are things this way?

reached!

Boy, am i glad to reach Singapore alive!

india

its been one heck of a night.
was stressed so much.
hid was there with me.
and most importantly,
HE was there with me.
Thank you many many for that.

Thank all u guys.
gonna be missing u like so much.
and yes, goodies from india will reach u when i arrive.
HEH.

Bye Singapore.
Hi India!

boo.

heya meena =)

how have you been lately? hope your job is heading in the right direction and you are having fun with the tots. i am busy with computer courses and driving lessons. i know what you are thinking.... i have not run over anyone yet...i am too scared of indian jails to do that. might be stopping over in singapore for a while on 25th. will as soon as i land. my mom misses me too much...haha. it won't be for long just 1 week. that is all happening here awaiting your reply.

loads of love n hugs,
nithya anguraj.


and yes it is. my bestie emailed me. so damn sweeeeeet of her. gosh. i feel damn touched man. its these little things that really makes me smile. gosh. i miss her so much. come back soon okays. =) smileys all the way.

switchfoot- awakening

i love this song. switchfoot - awakening

nice stuffie!

random

i am like really bored. therefore this post. hidayah n i were like really bored on one of our bus rides. so we snapped many random pictures n made a story out of it. this is my edited version.


once upon a time, there was a small village.

one of the houses in the village caught fire on a perfectly normal monday.

panic was everywhere and people wondered if it had something to do with the shell station located near the village.

there was a suspicious character close to the petrol station. he was wearing shades prolly to hide his identity.

there went an unsuspecting victim. and we wonder what happened to her.

dark clouds were gathering. the lady in black rushed home afraid of what lies ahead.

and she disappeared without any warning. could it have something to do with the power of the pink light?

and suddenly, another lady in black emerges out of nowhere! it has to be the power of the pink light. could it have something to do with the fire?

people feel insecure. they run to their homes for cover.

everybody is running for safety. there are only 2 people in the bus itself. thats how deserted the place has become.

the mystery remains.
what caused the fire?
who is the guy in shades?
what happened to the lady in black?
its all left untold.




hahahahahaha. gosh! thats how bored i am.