stressed.

stressed.
i wanna scream!

promise of a lifetime -kutless

I have fallen to my knees
As I sing a lullaby of pain
I'm feeling broken in my melody
As I sing to help the tears go away

Then I remember the pledge you made to me

[CHORUS:]
I know you're always there
To hear my every prayer inside
I'm clinging to the promise of a lifetime
I hear the words you say
To never walk away from me and leave behind
The promise of a lifetime

Will you help me fall apart
Pick me up, take me in your arms
Find my way back from the storm
And you show me how to grow
Through the change

I still remember the pledge you made to me

[BRIDGE:]
I am holding on to the hope I have inside
With you I will stay through every day
Putting my understanding aside

And I am comforted

my thoughts

fever - 38. 7 degrees
had diahorrea 19 times.
my throat hurts bad.
i cannot speak.
i cannot sleep.
if i do, i get nightmares.
i wake up every hour.
i am sick.

sorry to those whose phonecalls i did not answer and those whose messages which i did not reply to.





why are things this way?

reached!

Boy, am i glad to reach Singapore alive!

india

its been one heck of a night.
was stressed so much.
hid was there with me.
and most importantly,
HE was there with me.
Thank you many many for that.

Thank all u guys.
gonna be missing u like so much.
and yes, goodies from india will reach u when i arrive.
HEH.

Bye Singapore.
Hi India!

boo.

heya meena =)

how have you been lately? hope your job is heading in the right direction and you are having fun with the tots. i am busy with computer courses and driving lessons. i know what you are thinking.... i have not run over anyone yet...i am too scared of indian jails to do that. might be stopping over in singapore for a while on 25th. will as soon as i land. my mom misses me too much...haha. it won't be for long just 1 week. that is all happening here awaiting your reply.

loads of love n hugs,
nithya anguraj.


and yes it is. my bestie emailed me. so damn sweeeeeet of her. gosh. i feel damn touched man. its these little things that really makes me smile. gosh. i miss her so much. come back soon okays. =) smileys all the way.

switchfoot- awakening

i love this song. switchfoot - awakening

nice stuffie!

random

i am like really bored. therefore this post. hidayah n i were like really bored on one of our bus rides. so we snapped many random pictures n made a story out of it. this is my edited version.


once upon a time, there was a small village.

one of the houses in the village caught fire on a perfectly normal monday.

panic was everywhere and people wondered if it had something to do with the shell station located near the village.

there was a suspicious character close to the petrol station. he was wearing shades prolly to hide his identity.

there went an unsuspecting victim. and we wonder what happened to her.

dark clouds were gathering. the lady in black rushed home afraid of what lies ahead.

and she disappeared without any warning. could it have something to do with the power of the pink light?

and suddenly, another lady in black emerges out of nowhere! it has to be the power of the pink light. could it have something to do with the fire?

people feel insecure. they run to their homes for cover.

everybody is running for safety. there are only 2 people in the bus itself. thats how deserted the place has become.

the mystery remains.
what caused the fire?
who is the guy in shades?
what happened to the lady in black?
its all left untold.




hahahahahaha. gosh! thats how bored i am.

yippe

yipeee!!

attachment is good so far. the kids are nice children. but are damn irritating at times. i shouted once today. i was like '' shhhhh! can u just keep quiet!!?!'' then there was like absolute silence and the kids were like sitted so neatly. HAA!

and oh, the best part is that i can sleep when the children are asleep which is from 1 to 3pm. so i get to rest man. i slept today and it felt so good. and the children were like so sweet to allow me to sleep on their mattresses. and before i slept i was like sitting alone at the entrance cause i really needed to get some sunlight. at that point of time, teacher ram came back and she was like giving me a motherly look and asked '' waiting for ur bf is it? u seem very eager.'' heh. all that i was doing was to stone at the entrance and i seem eager to meet this new found bf? weird people i tell u!

and guess what, we are going to the discovery centre tmr for fieldtrip. so its gonna be fun and i can bet with every cent i have that we are all gonna sleep when we are back at the centre. heh. and i guess we have to meet up to do assignments after that as well. this is really tiring!

and before i forget, i have wish my dearest fazzie..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAZZIE DEAREST!


special thanks to vin, liz and jes raj.

stye in the eye

had this really huge stye in my eye. its damn painful. i could barely open my eyes during the attachment. went to see doc after coming home.

doctor saw my eye and said '' haio! this is have to go for operation. i do for u.'' but, my mother said no. when i asked her the reason why, she said '' dad will ask why i having a bandage over my eyes and then the india trip will be cancelled.''

i cannot believe it man. my eyes are in serious pain and the only thing u can think about is HIM HIM and HIM. is HE like ruler of the world or what? i cannot believe it man. everything has to be as HE says. what he says goes. and then of course i asked the doc is i could just simply take medication. she said yes, but she was like giving me double dose of everything. and she told me to whack the medicine as in really take double the dose so that i can get better because the condition of my eye was like really bad. well, i guess i have to tell her to say that to my DAD.

and so we came home. i went straight to my room emo-ing. i felt so hurt. seriously man. the doc said my eye was in such a bad condition that i needed a operation and all that my mother could say to me was about '' DAD DAD DAD'' URGH!! and then i cried. i tell u, it felt like a thousand pins were like poking my eyes but i could not take it, i had to cry. i would much rather suffer physical pain than any emotional stress.

now, i just applied the cream on my eye and i can barely see a thing. my eye is like covered by some gel la. and i cannot open the infected eye. i am typing this with only one eye open and the words appear blur. whatevs! not that anyone cares.

i hate this feeling that i have inside of me.

boohoo

i like it when things are settled.

1.ben is feeling better now.

2.i think vending machine person is my friend.

3.i took holy communion.

4.attachment starts tmr.
am excited.

but there are also many things left unsettled. mostly assignments. and guess what, we are like prolly gonna meet up everyday this week in woodlands to complete the work. woodlands to bb is far. at least to me lah. but what to do, its the decision of the people. so yea. assignments are a headache. i think having common tests are like so much better. urgh!

to be?

to be or not to be, that is the question!

oo la la

went to visit my granny and aunts.

since we are like leaving for india nex week,
its gonna be some time till i see them again.

and as usual, they always advise to pray hard.
study hard, work hard.
and they always ask me to eat more.
i need that really. =)

and oh, aunt jay said i very dark.
and she also said she really wonders
how more dark i will be after i return from india.

haha. hope it aint THAT bad.
from what i hear its like 40 degrees.
is that considered bad?
i don't quite know.

and oh. there is a stye in my eye.
urgh! i hate it man.
damn painful. i can't even open my eyes properly.
URGH!

random pics.

saw this in the first cubicle of canteen one girls washroom.


HAA!

random

okay. we were like supposed to meet at ten to do assignment. hid and i reached at 10.10. and we waited and waited in the canteen. and more of our people came. so after tat, we went to the lib to discuss our assignment. once we were there, we switched on our lappies and that was it. We were like surfing the net and were in our own worlds for as long as i could remember.

then, hid,pink and i went to meet jaime baby over at canteen 1 to collect the construction paper from her. and then , it was down to having our mini break there. pink was so damn sweet to make us breakfast. she made us some something which was supposed to be shepherds pie and hid named it Pink Jones Pie. and we also ate her corn cup/cup corn. whatever it is. super yummy i tell u.

and i a lil pissed today. the ice over the the gassy drink stall was like so rotten la. its not good ice. not clean. urgh! i dunno how to say but it just was not nice. only the dessert shop has nice chewable ice. not huge ones which takes ages to melt. heee. and oh, we accidentally purposely sat near to shingo's table. hahahhaa. and he talked to us. LOL. super funny.

then the three of us headed back to the library to once again discuss our work. but then we were all so busy doing our own stuff in the net. it was like nearing two and we had to leave to go for lesson. but then, we did not quite feel like going, so me, pink and hid decided not to go for class. and so, pam and fazzie left for class. and it down to three of us. we were like transferring photos, laughing at stupid things and even snapping photos of random things and people.

and then since we have done alot of werk, we were like so hungry and we headed to canteen 2 to eat. trust me, but we did not enjoy the meal at all. not worth it man. and we saw umar and raj. we wished umar happy belated birthday. he was like so nice to come and talk to us. his jokes are like so random.

then we headed back to library to combine forces with syahira, pam and faz to discuss our assignment. and then we once again side tracked to the photos and many other stuff. and finally, we all were like loking at the 2005, 2006 and the 2007 photos that we have taken together. it was hilarious man. damn funny. never knew we looked so different.

and so, the day ended when we decided to just go home at ard 7.30pm. and so if u calculate tat up, u will realised that we spent 9 hour plus doing absolutely nothing. we did NO assignment. and the thing is we did not even go for class. that is total slacking man. hahaha. but we loved it tho.

and i am so gonna miss school. it is like the last friday today. after this, attachment startswhich is like next monday. and then after attachment, it is like two months break. and then it is the final semester! gosh! its all happening tooo fast. i don't wanna graduate yet. not just yet. i wanna be a girl running ard school having fun. i don't wanna grow up yet. i am so gonna miss the school and the people in it. =)

- i'm just a kid and life is a nightmare-

and heres picture from the pink and faz bd celebration..

pardon!

pardon the previous entry!