schoool is so cool!

school is cool!

had fun with my babes.

hang out at bukit panjang plaza.

and the three nerds;

meena, syahira and pink,

had a exciting time taking the LRT.

we were so lost.

but it was fun.

we then headed to marina sqare.

and pink did her usual shopping

on ear accessories.

it was a fun time.

i love my babes!

and i have to go to school tmr again.

to return the o.v.e.r.d.u.e book.

i am so sorry fazzie.

=(

and of course, i need to do my research

on the whatever thing that i need to do

for my portfolio.

so much of work.

and i really miss my kids alot.

just one day without them feels weird.

heh.

and i also miss

ZARA
IQBAL
VIN
JENN
BEN
NURUL
AMANDA

meet up soon boys and girls! =)

NP

i miss my friends.

but i get to see them on monday.

i have to go NP and again, its exciting.

HEH.

but i also have to hand in some DAC assignment.

that is the thing that is depressing la.

anyways, NP here i come baybeh!

indians rule

i am like super pissed.
why do i hear people calling indians as 'anneh'?
anneh in tamil means brother.
so are all indians brothers OR WHAT?
so.pissed.off.

Please learn to use the proper terms.
We are indians not some 'anneh' like you claim.

and if u dont know how to use the tamil language,
please dont use it.
dont try to create ur own words and pretend it out to be tamil.
cuz it aint tamil. and its definately not funny.
its not something u can make fun of and laugh it off.
its a LANGUAGE.

and lastly, i have to say that i am proud to be an indian.

i love jesus!!

i was listening to Neerae yen thanjam (a tamil christian song). i was so touched by it. tho its a song which is mellow and about worshipping the lord, i got so reminded of my past. my past which no one knows except my family and my Lord. there is a reason for everything, yes. But i was too young to understand and even now, i dont. and i had cried so many times 'why me?'. in all those times, i knew He was with me. When NO ONE else knew what i felt, he could just tell me so gently that things are happening for a reason and i could feel his embrace and his hand in mine every step of the way.

i truly love you Jesus. I wanna give my everything to you. Lead me where you want me to be. =)

bla joke bla

How many beds did you lay inyesterday?
* one.

What color shirt are you wearing?
* some ugly blue shirt. heh.

Name one thing that you do everyday?
* breathe.

Whats the color of your bedroomwalls?
* i dunno man.

How much cash do you have on you rightnow?
* none. i dont need cash when i am at home.

You cant wait till..?
* i go to my home.

Who got you to join friendster?
* i dunno man. it was ages ago.

What did you have for dinner lastnight?
* i forgot. heh.

Look to your left. Whats there?
* my parrot. oowhee!!

Where are you now?
* my hall.

Whats the last piece of clothing youborrowed from someone?
* i dont borrow clothing. heh.

What website do you visit the most?
* my hotmail and friendster i guess.

Do you have plants in your room?
* neh.

Does anything hurt on your body rightnow?
* my eye?

What city was your last taxicab ride in?
* eh. the beautiful singapore.

Do you own a picture phone?
* Yup.

Whats your favorite starbucks drink?
* Caramel cream base. -slurps-

Recent time you were really upset?
* i forgot. heh.


was bored. so the post. and oh, my mummy called me melanie like trice today. LOL. it was so funny lah. and i really cant wait to be 21 man. =)

and oh i so need to thank meiting. she is so sweet to message me to wish me all the best for my assessment and also to ask how i did. so damn sweet. love u baybeh!! =)

another day is past

okay. my day is like so unexpected. i was suddenly asked to go to the changi airport as a field trip for the toddlers since the theme was on transport. and yeah, it was fun i guess. the day was spent with ezzat ( this hottie who is chinese and malay mixed. )we kissed each other like dunno how many times man. i cant wait for him to grow up. HEH!

and then there was marx ong. he was like so close to me. there was once when there were police walking by and he cried and cried and all of the teachers, he ran to me crying out '' teacher meena!!! i scared..police..'' it was so adorable man. and he like kept holding on to me. haio. such a darling!!

so that was in the morning and in the afternoon, it was fun. i managed to make wei keong( indo hottie) sleep. okay, he is one of the naughtiest boys. but every teacher just keep scolding him. poor him. and i talked to him nicely and i patted him to sleep. he was asleep within 2 minutes la. damn fast. i think no one has been nice enought to tell him things nicely, so he tends to rebel. but when i told him nicely, he actually listened to what i had to say. sometimes, i wish teachers will not shout at the kids. =(

then after work, i rushed to meet hidayah baybeh. and it was laughing non stop all the way. there were so many things we did. heh. it was awesome. totally awesome!! and of course the cute guy who happened to be chinese and indian mix was one of the awesome things that happened to us. HEH. WHEEEE!!

fweeet

yeahs. i will be meeting hidayah and pink tmr..

WOOOHOOO!!

and it has been so long since we went to eat the banquet. and then we are going arcade. typical us. we need fun in our lives. its gonna be fun baybehs. but i end at 5 and it will take some time for me to travel all the way. so we are meeting at 6 and gonna be like havoc all the way.

and guess what, even then we will go to the library at least for a while to find any related books on the theme for the kids at the centre. we are such nice teachers. HEH!

and man, i cant wait for next wednesday when i will get assessed by my mentor and then i can work on my portfolio and do all the rest of the major stress work. i am like so stressed la but three people whom i chatted with last week and this week could actually ask me '' eh, u so free everyday ah. lucky siah!''

and i was thinking ''yeah RIGHT!''
when u are stressed, u dont need to whine and whine and do the job, i believe you can still get it done with a smile on ur face. =)
(i so deserve a star for even mentioning this!)

vin iqbal

some people are just so clever.
they try to help you solve the lappie's problem.
but end up making matters worse.
HEH!
and after doing all that crap,
smile so innocently.
i am supposed to be pissed but i find it just so cute!
monyets all the way dudes!!

thanks babes!!

and all the best for Hidayah who is gonna get assesed today!!!! =)

jesus u are my best friend!

yeah baybeh yeah! its over!
WHEEEEEEEEE!!!!

and i have to thank my bestest bestfriend for it. i was so scared before the assesment. then just a small chat with him and i was so calm. i knew i could do it. and yeah man, i got a high good from PHILIP. his expectations are high. and i got a high good. that is awesome news for me.

i really thank God for it. i could never have done it on my own. Thank you JESUS!! =)

and now that philip's assesment is over, its time for my supervisor, Teacher June to asses me. and i need to like prepare another new lesson for her. i hope it will be good. well, actually i know it will be good. HEH! its all the confidence i get from the verse ' i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.' -power verse.

and lastly, all the best for the rest of my dearies who are yet to be assesed. and of cuz, thank u hid for personally calling me so many times just to ask me how i did. really sweet of u. =)

jesus christ take my life

it just feels so good when He sees right thru you and He knows just what to say to strengthen you. Lately, i have been grumbling alot about the assignments and the whole attachment as a whole. BUT, He said that in everything i do, i have been doing it without complaning and grumbling and that He will grant me anything that i ask of him.

SWEEEEET!! gosh, i love him so much man. and there are times when i just smile to myself because i feel SO loved. its a great feeling.

and how can i stand here with you and not be moved by you

yeah its stress out

been receiving really weird calls.
dont wanna elaborate.
i just hope it stops.

life has been just fine.
been like doing the learning corner materials.
and philip is coming on tuesday to assess the three of us.
thats like really fast man.
and i pray it will go on fine.

been dreaming non-stop about many things.
when i wake up, i find is easy to recall some
and there are also some which are real tough to remember.

and after 17 july, its like fun all the way i hope.
please ask me out after the 17th!!
i wanna chillout and relieve myself of the stress i have inside.

i kept using woohoo with my kids.
and now, everyone is woohoo-ing in my class.
so damn cute siah.

and there is this teacher who commented
that my madarin is superb!
HEH! she praise dunno how many times already siah.
power max uh! =)



with Christ in the vessel you can smile at the storm.

WOOOHOOO!
church rocked big time.
LOVED the service.
and oh, there was an external pastor today.
He is from the Great India.
He was so funny man.
gosh. i was like laughing so loudly at all his jokes.
heh. not like a girl at all.
awesome day!

tmr going NP. yeah baby yeah!
then can meet my dearies and have all the fun i have missed out on.
and can see tons of eye candies as what Hid said! HEH.
class ends at 11 plus but we are gonna stay longer in school.
all for the sake of those people who drive u crazy.
heh. Hidayah oh Hidayah!
gonna have lots of fun baby!!

Whole day was spent at the hospital.
the service is bad man.
why is it that the waiting time has to be 2 to 3 hours?

Gosh! thats alot of time being wasted.
and my granny, aunt and ruban came too.
and oh, the nurses took mum away.

poor thing la she!

was all alone in some room for so long.
only after a few hours were we even allowed to see her.


i really pray that she gets better!

and i know she will. heh. =)



and some uncle of mine is in NUH.
bike accident.
in some terrible state.
smashed rib bone or something.
gosh. its some scary stuff going on man.
bikers are like always at risk.
hmph.

ah yes. tmr is SUNDAY!!
most prolly the youth are going to swensens to eat!

yeah baby yeah!
and oh, i ate lamp chop today. yum yum.
satisfying food! =)

dirty liar

You Never Satisfy Me
Avril Lavigne

Excuse me sir, do I have your attention,
there's something if you don't mind I'd like to mention,
so open those ears, sit your butt down and shut your mouth
I'm aware that it's hard for you to do that,
all I ask is lay down, put your feet up
now soak in, pay attention, learn a lesson loud and clear

Hey, you're a dirty liar,
you wronged me out for something I thought was right,
I wanted to be left alone,
not shown around like your golden prize
oh, I looked around, look what happened,
you found out you never satisfy me

Never trusted anyone in the first place,
you turned me up, your disgusting anyway hear that music,
crank it up, is there something familiar in the singers voice
turn it down, now listen to me,
what made you think you were my authority I'm awake, finally,
I'm able to move on (just gotta tell the truth)

Now do these word stick to you,
hope they do think about it, think about it stick to you like superglue,
keep you from the things you do

another day at another month

slept ard 5 or 6 yesterday.
mummy is sick. really sick.
i was so scared for her.
i really really hope she feels better soon.
i know she will.
She has backing what. heh.

work was tiring today. i was the only one in charge today.
it was tiring shouting at the kids.
but at the end of the day, they were all so nice to me.
there was this girl, xue wen.
she came up to me and asked,
'' teacher meena, why are u so nice to us?''

and all i could say is that
'' haha. thank u xue wen for saying that.

its because u are nice children. so i am nice to you okie?''
and she hugged me tightly and said '' i love u teacher meena!''
gosh! love them man.

and oh, i stayed one more hour with the children cause

the kids wanted me to stay longer with them. heh.
and when i went outside of my centre after work,
i saw my friends!!
surprise it seems. damn sweet!
thank u so much man. really perked me up!



this note is for someone. i dunno if u will see this. but i hope u do. there is nothing for me to hide. if u wanna doubt me, go ahead. i will not defend myself. and besides, u are not a good friend urself. you who come to me only for help. dont call me paranoid. i know what i say and i mean it.

what goes around comes around

yes ah!

whooo! i am like super awake now.
and jenn left like tons of msgs in my inbox.
damn sweeet. thanks woman!
and vin entertains latenights when i cant sleep.
so the very sweeet. thanks man.

and i am gonna spend like my whole monday with my babes!
rocking eh.
i am going to NP!!
gosh. this is like the most exciting thing
that is happening to me now.

HIP HIP HOORAY!



i feel so fresh, i wanna do my assignments!

=)

and so someone is jealous of another someone.
this is ultimate cuteness.
you dont have to be jealous u monyet!
you are my buddy and thats it.
love u berries and pie!

stress!

i cant believe myself. i spent the whole day planning and doing some of my learning corner materials. like i am so stressed man. i spend every time i have trying to think of ideas and just thinking about my stuff. gosh! its been a while since i was this hardworking. but i like it tho. makes me feels responsible eh. heh. and oh i think i need to go to the NP tmr. i miss the place so much la. but whats the point of being in the place if ur friends are not there right. but i have no choice i need to go do my work. hai. STRESS ah.

and oh, 5 people have so far told me that i sound different.and they are my close buds. i guess its because of the stress. some say i am no longer the bubbly self, some say i got mood swings, some say i have become more harsh. really sorry but i am really not strong at this point in time.

i promise i will be better. i need time =)

heh. thanks for the concern babe!

murali.

i found someone in friendster who looks just like jun wei. and he is from np too. weird eh. but its nice man. and after viewing him, i got reminded of this small lil boy in india. his name is murali and he is such a monkey. i miss him ah. booo.

sunday church

and i always am uplifted whenever i go to church.
i was like so confused and miserable the whole week.
i was messed up, really.
i felt lost.

but God totally removed that feeling.
when i was praying after the service, GOd spoke to me.
He said that i have alot of desires.
He said that i also have alot of problems.
and he said that these are the things that i dont tell anyone.
Anyone but Him. and he appreciates that.
and he said He will grant them.

My God is so sweeeet.
i am like always melting at his love for me.



mould me into who i am supposed to be.