bad bad day

bad bad day!
went to NUH. wasted trip.
took cab. met Jason. took bus with him.
both of us rushed for class.
class extremely boring.


only good thing for the day: meeting zara and my BR babes! =)

forced

i just hate it SO SO SO SO SO SO much when i am forced to do something.
ARGH!!
DONT FORCE ME!!

thursday ah!

today is a good good good day! class was only from 9 to 11.
Kelly and i went to have lunch together.
and so we headed to amk hub.
and yes, i still do get lost in there. heh.
we ate at new york new york.
yummy yummy food i tell u.
bbq spare ribs was delicious.
it was really so nice to meet kelly and talk about things.
i mean there was a solid conversation.
we both talked about our lives and all.
i felt so much at ease that i talked about my life.
i swear i dont talk about my life to just anyone.
i love kelly so much and i trust her.
i really enjoyed the conversation and the time spent with her.
thanks babe!! =)


then i went to chill with the monyet king himself.
and since i had bought a woodcraft thing that i saw at amk hub,
we both decided to fix it while waiting for the monyet prince to come.
and we nearly spent 2 hours fixing that thing
cause it was like so tough man.
it was alot of fun tho.
figuring which piece should go where.
and after we fixed it, we felt so happy and satisfied.
heh. i cannot forget the look on iqbal's face.
so anyways, vin came with ben, manda and shu yuan and iqbal's ''girlfriend''.
and that was it. we got high on air.
we had alot of fun.
and then of course i got tired and came home.
and here am i typing this out.
i love my friends. =)

the woodcreft thing which took hours to make.

oh, and teacher ram invited me to her house today.
i wanted to go but i could not cause i had stuff to do.
hope the rest of the teachers have fun tho.

disaster week

last week was very tiring. aunt was admitted in hospital. she had brain cancer. so since doctors had already given her 3 months to live, she went with her daughter and nephew to china i think. and when she came back, she had a fall and got admitted into the hospital. visited her on sunday. i just hate to go into the icu rooms. i hate to see people fighting to live. i hate to feel death lingering in every corner. and so i did see her. she was on the life support thing. which means that without the machine thing, she was dead. so it was a matter of time she passed away. i felt to bad for her children. then of course we did a little prayer in the icu room. then i went off to church to many questions on my mind. i know that i have no idea to ask why things happen this way but i am only human and i was really confused and began to ask questions. so church was like all so bad for me that day. i was like crying non-stop asking stupid questions and demanding answers from God.

monday was like no better. wanted to visit aunt but mum said it was really way too crowded there and thus i did not go to the hospital. i had a restless heart. i felt like i had lost something. tuesday, grandma had to go to hospital for checkup. again had to go to the hospital. and my aunt passed away.
wednesday was all about preparing for hids birthday. went to the bottle tree park to check out the place and then went to school and headed back home for a proper rest. but again, i was not allowed to rest as i had to plan many things.
thursday was hid's birthday. had a few quarrels with friends cause i hated it when i had to clean up the mess when things go wrong. and i really lost my temper. but it was good fun when cara and elaine and the rest of BR with Pam. and thursday was also my granny's major operation. i could not go because of the bd celebration. and after the bd celebration, when i wanted to go to the hospital, mummy called me and asked me to go home instead.
friday, funeral for aunt. i refused to go. many said i was stubborn not to go and pay my respects. but i knew myself and i knew i could not go. i was not at peace. if i were to go there, know i will make a mess up. i will begin to ask questions and i will lose faith. so i did not go there. and i went home with a unsettled mind and i tried to keep my mind on happy things but failed miserably. i was almost torn apart by friday cause i had so many things going on around me and i had no one to tell it to. so i told it to the one who always listens. i poured my heart inside out and i felt better. like so much better.

thank God saturday and sunday were like much better.

u who knows best.

its not for me to question.
but i cant help it.
why things happen in a certain way?
i shall just leave it to you who knows best.

thanks to iqbal who knew something
was wrong with me the moment i picked up the phone.
gotta be telepathy man.
thanks for the small yet really
uplifting chat.

first day of last sem

first day of second semester, the final semester. was good. sukuna is now back to her normal cheerful self. so good to see that. so glad to see my besties. and of course, there are the classmates.

and oh, fazzie is so pretty with her permed hair. so so gorgeous. totally suits her. she looks like a princess in some fairyland. and pam is like a rockstar with red highlights. cool stuff eh. Pink, Allyssa, Hid and i have not much changes tho.We are so the same-old-brand-new-us.

and and and i called India today! yes ah. okay. actually i only called someone in India. and that person is nithya. heh. so exciting siah. i love to talk.had a really good chat with her. loves.

and oh, i found my old diary. i was reading thru it and it found it to be so interesting. it was mostly written during upper sec. when i was like so stressed and feeling so stupid. and as always, i never say my problems to anyone. it was all like written in the diary.

so nice to read man. i jotted down stuff like when nithya/ naz/ vanessa/ sockpeng/ fattanah and basically anyone helped me. because i had this thing since young that i must never forget those who helped me. even if it was a small help, it meant the world to me.

and i realised that after secondary school, i had this diary but i rarely wrote on it.and there were like so many empty pages.and i really cant recollect what had happened from the time of graduation from bvss to now.

so, i have decided to have another diary. gonna write all my stuff in there. all my problems, my happiness will be like written down. and in a few years time, i can read back at it and have a good time looking back.

gotta sleep now. really tired.
goodnite mates! =)

hidayah heal fast

hidayah and her adventures gone bad once again.
she hurt her foot and i saw those pics in her blog.
bad stuff i tell u.
and to think she still sounded so cheerful on the phone.
gosh, she is like strawberry la.
i have no idea why i said that.

and so, i really hope her toe heals.
and after all these accidents that are taking place,
i think BR should just rename ourselves as
WD or something. and oh, WD is for walking Disasters just in case u dint know.

i want school to start. i want to meet all my friends.
i also want to meet my schoolmates,
random people whom u dont know but have seen ard in school
and of course the lecturers.

the last semester is here. so i should really enjoy my time in NP.
i meant work hard for the final sem. heh.



to my babe!

another day another experience

i saw my darling germaine and her sister and of course the hot dad. heh.
i miss them so much la.
they were like screaming ' teacher meena teacher meena!!'

we chatted in the playground for around 10 minutes and it was so much fun.
the girls had ALOT to tell me and i was more then happy to listen.
and the dad was very nice to join us in the small talk we were having.
then of course i had to leave.

went to woodlands mac to teach rachel maths.
and maths is so nice to do i realised.
like sec 2 work is much fun.

headed home soon after the tuition. was tired.
and tmr going out with the allyssa and hidayah.
hope its fun. neh. it will be fun!

goodnite mates! much loves! =)