went to lil india today. LOL. super funny man. the moment i got off the bus, guess who i saw? SHENTIL MORGAN!! yes. thats ryte. senthil murugan! actually he is an actor from one of the singapore drama called thirai and he acted in one of episodes as an indian guy who action mama dont mix with indians all but actually he is a Typical indian. lol. he acted very well in it. my sis and i were so shocked to see him. lol. cause we actually had casually remarked on the day we saw the drama that if we ever saw him, we should salute him fer his acting! lol. and he was standing ryte in front of us. we just smiled to ourselves man.
then i whispered to my sis saying '' i thought u said u wanna salute him fer his acting?'' then she said '' dont want! wait he thinks we have a thing fer him. u know indian guys... thiink too high of themselves!'' lol. i couldnt agree more man. so we just smiled to each other and that was it.
and oh another person i saw was Subramani!! goodness i love that small boy! this indian fella who is sooo young acts damn well and he is so cute. he acted in Subramani and friends and now there is a new series called subra and friends 2! lol. must see!! i called out '' Subramani!'' without even knowing if thats his name. and he turned and smiled and waved back when i waved at him. LOL. he is so cute.
o0o0o and i ate at komalas. oh wait! issit komala vilas? eh. should be one of them. dunno which one i actually ate at. had the batura as always. lol. i dont usually eat anything else when i go tekka. dunno why also. hee. then shopped ard. bought the clothes fer deepavalli. lol. not that i celebrate it. but well we have to go to my father saide grandparents house every year on deepavalli. they are hindus.
yep. i was damn tired just now after all that walking. but now, i am fresh again.. lol. tmr is Holy communion! must go do my reflections man. hees. oh yah. i totally forgot! met jenn! had loadsa fun wit her!! man. crappiness is so our thang! heeeeeeee..
Saturday, September 30, 2006
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
wednesday
went to werk. went fer tuition.
giovanni drew something fer me. in it, he wrote, ''now i know what it is like to love.'' and '' i love meena. she is kind'' LOL!
wonder where he copied that from!! hees. but its sweet none the less. i love giovanni man! my 7year old friend!!
replies to tags:
lav: heee! heya babe.. miss ya much..
minnie: exactly! thanks man.. and i give it all to Him who knows all.=)
vin: i want i want!!! gonna be super drama!!
hidayah: i cant see u online too. man. why is it that way? tho we see each other everyday, it is just not enuf issn't it?
replies to tags
Tiff: hee. so glad to see u can.. like its been ages since we met up!! oh and u looked gorgeous babe!
Naz: LOL. thank you so much babes! just felt emo. thats all. am back on my feet again. my emo-ness will never last more than a few hours.. and man. serious ah. meet up soon. got alot of things to say. munks4eva babe! =)
Bala: lol. thanks ah fer passing it down to me. and u know what. so much fer ur bragging when u tagged the same message twice. i BET u forgot and clicked twice! so much fer saying u are better now!!!
Hid: lol. just not meant to be!!
Vin: thanks man fer everything. appreciate that bro! =)
Den: i am free? gotta be kidding me.. i sure am NOT!
Naz: LOL. thank you so much babes! just felt emo. thats all. am back on my feet again. my emo-ness will never last more than a few hours.. and man. serious ah. meet up soon. got alot of things to say. munks4eva babe! =)
Bala: lol. thanks ah fer passing it down to me. and u know what. so much fer ur bragging when u tagged the same message twice. i BET u forgot and clicked twice! so much fer saying u are better now!!!
Hid: lol. just not meant to be!!
Vin: thanks man fer everything. appreciate that bro! =)
Den: i am free? gotta be kidding me.. i sure am NOT!
Monday, September 25, 2006
my life.
vin's sentence about my life really got me thinking.
i remember when i was around 14 years old. a pastor prophesied that i have gone thru alot in my past and my future will be better. i thanked God fer it. i mean i feel like my childhood sucked. why could i not be like everybody else? happily living with both parents who were understanding? why must my family have to go thru this. ? bet most children my age will not even have known what is a court. a family court. but i knew exactly what it was and went there often with no where to og.why why why were all the questions in my mind. then again, God had his purpose.
i remember when i lived with my grandparents for like 3 years, in ang mo kio. looking at my grandfather who was a stroke patient, i often used to wonder what sort of a father he might have been before he got the stroke. looking at his children taking good care of him, i definately knew that he had been a good father. He believed in Jesus and followed him. God took care of him. i wished i had a father like him. again, God had his purpose.
When i was 16, i cried alone often at home. was going thru so much. but i could turn to none. i was afraid of my father. i cant say a werd to him. i mean what was our relationship? i admit i was jealous this once when naz's dad was talking to me n her. they were talking like friends. they shared feelings. and who could i turn to? none. my mum was always busy. no point telling my feelings to her. how about my friends then? i did not trust them enuf to tell them. seriously. when people take normal werds from u fer granted, do u think they will even bother about what u are going thru?then again, God had his purpose.
these made me turn to Jesus. My saviour. for without him, i could NEVER had made it this far. He was there all along. when i felt that i had no where to go, he was there all along waiting fer me to talk to him. He carried me when i was too tired to walk my life. He loved me. and i only love him because he first loved me. That everlasting love which i keep drowning over and over again.
and now, i thank God fer my life. my childhood. my pain and suffering. my family. my friends. they are gifts from God. and i treasure them. this is also one of the reasons why i do volunteer werk at the salvation army. a listening ear to these broken children will not hurt. knowing that there is someone who will listen to them will definately touch the people i meet. and this is also the reason why i keep asking my non-christian friends to follow me to church. cause i want them to know that someone cares fer them.
and i am very glad that Naz now knows that there is someone who cares fer her. hope u get what the pastor meant. =) THERE IS SOMEONE WHO CARES FER YOU AND ME. care to taste his goodness?
random
'why is ur life so easy? so smooth sailing?'
vin asked me this today. let me tell you that no ones life is smooth sailing. everyone has problems. its about how they handle it. and as for my probs, i give it to the One above me. fer him to handle.
no werk today. i can finally rest man. and oh. i totally fergot to mention this yesterday. i saw a drug transaction. so cool can. i mean that place is known fer these type of things but it was my first time seeing that. saw an indian guy walk to a chinese fella. the chinese fella gave the indian guy a a cig. then lighted it fer him. then the indian guy gave the chi guy his own cig that the indian guy had in his bag. then. they exchanged a pouch. the chinese guy then went to sit in the bus stop while the indian guy smoked and then walked off 2 minutes later. after walking a distance, he turned and saw the chinese guy. and that was it. dealing done. they had not even spoken a word to each other. haio.
actually i pity drug addicts. its just an obsession they have no control over. i mean all they did was to try the drug once and they hooked fer like forever. there goes their life in just the very second that they take the first drug in their life.
saw this video in youtube. was nice. enjoy!! =)
Sunday, September 24, 2006
sunday
slept at 3.30 am. woke up at 8.20 am. hee. got ready fer church. combined service today. the english songs were dead. seriously man. dunno what happened. everyone was standing still. none was moving. i could not even see people swaying a lil. LOL!!! the sermon was very nice tho! i loved it. very meaningful.
then ate nasi lemak. gosh. same as yesterday. i love nasi lemak! then we, SS, discussed what to do fer one of our Church member who is leaving singapore fer good and never coming back. we decided on some performance and pot luck. its gonna rawk man. then after the discussion, we left to slack.
sharon came up with the idea of watching movie. shahirah came up with the idea of going library. but well, aaron , me and sis were going easy. so we decided to all just go and check out the movies in the theatre. OMG! the place was like filled with indians. come one man. its yishun anyway. what can ya expect? Then aaron began his influencing. he said the movie ' sillunu oru kadhal' was nice. i was like !@#$#%@. i mean like hello. church was just over. and what the heck were we doing trying to watch a tamil movie? in theatre? man. somehow it did not sound right. but after playing scissors paper stone, the decision was made.
and we bought the tix to watch the movie. somehow we all felt damn guilty. it was like the first time fer ALL of us except sharon to watch tamil movie in theatre. i mean it felt funny. Like never have i seen a tamil movie in a theatre full of indians. just not right. movie started. was nice at first. then suddenly came in the comedy parts and man. the jokes were all so vulgar. i mean. just so not nice. felt guilty again. then suddenly the screen read 'interval'.. lights were turned on. we were like ' whats going on?' LOL. some people moved from their seats to go to the washroom while we just stared wondering what exactly we were supposed to do. then before we knew it, the lights were off and screen came back on.
the movie had so many twists can. so much drama. like really man. indians can come up with so many twists and turns. wonder how they do it. and oh there were sexual scenes too. again felt guitly. i mean somehow it did not feel right. if it was aenglish movie, i will not really care two hoots. but we, indians, have culture. i mean felt disgraced when indian actresses act with lil clothes on and doing all those sexual scenes. lets keep to our culture. better that way. then after all that drama, movie ended.typical ending. =)
came out and felt guilty again. dont ask why man. just felt guilty. then went with sis to to ang mo kio. add at KFC. and then walked around and headed to salvation army. we were early fer once. then had small group session with my people. the 4 guys who are quite very annoying did not come today fer my lesson. they were runninf and playing. and seriously, i was not in the least interested to call them to join in. i see no point in forcing them to listen when they are not in the mood to listen. jeremy was not there today. he went on home-leave. sad man. he is the one soul who always listens and ask alot of questions. very enthusiastic and eager to learn. loved that in him. then dismissed the people. and went to join my sister's cell group. the girls were like asking alot of questions. good interaction. better than having guys running here and there or touching you while they speak. LOL.
then headed home after salvation army. am bloggin now. i am tired. i dont wanna work tmr. i need sleep. =)
then ate nasi lemak. gosh. same as yesterday. i love nasi lemak! then we, SS, discussed what to do fer one of our Church member who is leaving singapore fer good and never coming back. we decided on some performance and pot luck. its gonna rawk man. then after the discussion, we left to slack.
sharon came up with the idea of watching movie. shahirah came up with the idea of going library. but well, aaron , me and sis were going easy. so we decided to all just go and check out the movies in the theatre. OMG! the place was like filled with indians. come one man. its yishun anyway. what can ya expect? Then aaron began his influencing. he said the movie ' sillunu oru kadhal' was nice. i was like !@#$#%@. i mean like hello. church was just over. and what the heck were we doing trying to watch a tamil movie? in theatre? man. somehow it did not sound right. but after playing scissors paper stone, the decision was made.
and we bought the tix to watch the movie. somehow we all felt damn guilty. it was like the first time fer ALL of us except sharon to watch tamil movie in theatre. i mean it felt funny. Like never have i seen a tamil movie in a theatre full of indians. just not right. movie started. was nice at first. then suddenly came in the comedy parts and man. the jokes were all so vulgar. i mean. just so not nice. felt guilty again. then suddenly the screen read 'interval'.. lights were turned on. we were like ' whats going on?' LOL. some people moved from their seats to go to the washroom while we just stared wondering what exactly we were supposed to do. then before we knew it, the lights were off and screen came back on.
the movie had so many twists can. so much drama. like really man. indians can come up with so many twists and turns. wonder how they do it. and oh there were sexual scenes too. again felt guitly. i mean somehow it did not feel right. if it was aenglish movie, i will not really care two hoots. but we, indians, have culture. i mean felt disgraced when indian actresses act with lil clothes on and doing all those sexual scenes. lets keep to our culture. better that way. then after all that drama, movie ended.typical ending. =)
came out and felt guilty again. dont ask why man. just felt guilty. then went with sis to to ang mo kio. add at KFC. and then walked around and headed to salvation army. we were early fer once. then had small group session with my people. the 4 guys who are quite very annoying did not come today fer my lesson. they were runninf and playing. and seriously, i was not in the least interested to call them to join in. i see no point in forcing them to listen when they are not in the mood to listen. jeremy was not there today. he went on home-leave. sad man. he is the one soul who always listens and ask alot of questions. very enthusiastic and eager to learn. loved that in him. then dismissed the people. and went to join my sister's cell group. the girls were like asking alot of questions. good interaction. better than having guys running here and there or touching you while they speak. LOL.
then headed home after salvation army. am bloggin now. i am tired. i dont wanna work tmr. i need sleep. =)
sentosa on sat =)
had loadsa fun at sentosa. everyone was late as always. that included me. and oh, we saw zaed!! werking hard siah.. hee. had fun crapping with caili angeline davio jeremy and jason. gosh they were high on the peach snapple and vodka. even offered us can. thanks but no thanks ah. then hid and i went to 7-eleven to buy drink. then we used our mandarin skills and guess what. some chinese guy camE and talked to us. actually and i were discussing about which food to choose. then he came and offered an idea which was to buy both. LOL. we smiled politely obviously NOT taking his idea. hee. then headed back.
volleyballed. Pink was lost. gave her directions to come to the place that we were at.. then greg was there with his uncle Sammy joke. LOl. super funny man. u ought to hear it from him. and then there was hidayat!! adding more humor to pink's situation by bombarding her with questions. Pink finally arrived. we slacked further and went off to bathe.and i am so not gonna say what happened in the washroom. embarassment yet again!!then finally came out of the toilet to find the whole group waiting fer me and hidayah!! LOL. arent they fast? then pink said he liked a guy (ang moh) in yellow. and i actually said out loud ' what? where got guy in yellow?' and guess what? he was oni behind me. haio. wth.
continued our journey on and we saw the yellow guy again. pink was blushing can. haio. drama. then hid and i were like yellow shirt pink likes u. then guess what. his friend actually turned and smiled. lol. they were friendly. the other ang moh guy was like 'call anytime' and doing the handsign fer calling. lol. cute can. then they even thanked us fer the compliments and bid us goodbyes. hees. pink and robert had to go off. Eugene, Jon and allyssa joined us fer dinner. went to pastamania.
ate there and chilled. and i was like got twice using my indian accent oni to realise there were indians around. OMG! thats like putting myself into grave danger. hee. joked around with the people and had fun as always. then allyssa went off while the rest of us went to chill instead. were lepaking and then one by one people started to leave. soon, there were oni Micheal, Gilbert, Greg ,Hidayah and me. lol. 5 losers lepak core! talked nonsense and some sense as well. was really damn fun and i just could not control the snots can. until the tummy so painful and gilbert said we were gonna give birth. LOL. passer-bys would be thinking the hid and i were in labour if not fer the not-so-round tummy..
then went to Timbre with them. and Russel joined us. hahahaha.. he had the werd "f*ck'' in like every sentence he spoke. LOL. so damn funny can. then after a while Hid and i decided to leave. and we oni realised that the time was 11.15 pm when we were at the bus stop. hee. took 77 back home. reached home ard 12.10am i think. hee. got scolded by mum. Typical can. so ya. haha. i had a fun day man. not gonna be down fer a scolding.. hee. cant wait fer next lepak core meeting. =) i love amber!!
here are just a few pics of today. more to come. =)
Greg, Michael and Mark!
Michael and me
me, gilbert and robert
the girls.
volleyballed. Pink was lost. gave her directions to come to the place that we were at.. then greg was there with his uncle Sammy joke. LOl. super funny man. u ought to hear it from him. and then there was hidayat!! adding more humor to pink's situation by bombarding her with questions. Pink finally arrived. we slacked further and went off to bathe.and i am so not gonna say what happened in the washroom. embarassment yet again!!then finally came out of the toilet to find the whole group waiting fer me and hidayah!! LOL. arent they fast? then pink said he liked a guy (ang moh) in yellow. and i actually said out loud ' what? where got guy in yellow?' and guess what? he was oni behind me. haio. wth.
continued our journey on and we saw the yellow guy again. pink was blushing can. haio. drama. then hid and i were like yellow shirt pink likes u. then guess what. his friend actually turned and smiled. lol. they were friendly. the other ang moh guy was like 'call anytime' and doing the handsign fer calling. lol. cute can. then they even thanked us fer the compliments and bid us goodbyes. hees. pink and robert had to go off. Eugene, Jon and allyssa joined us fer dinner. went to pastamania.
ate there and chilled. and i was like got twice using my indian accent oni to realise there were indians around. OMG! thats like putting myself into grave danger. hee. joked around with the people and had fun as always. then allyssa went off while the rest of us went to chill instead. were lepaking and then one by one people started to leave. soon, there were oni Micheal, Gilbert, Greg ,Hidayah and me. lol. 5 losers lepak core! talked nonsense and some sense as well. was really damn fun and i just could not control the snots can. until the tummy so painful and gilbert said we were gonna give birth. LOL. passer-bys would be thinking the hid and i were in labour if not fer the not-so-round tummy..
then went to Timbre with them. and Russel joined us. hahahaha.. he had the werd "f*ck'' in like every sentence he spoke. LOL. so damn funny can. then after a while Hid and i decided to leave. and we oni realised that the time was 11.15 pm when we were at the bus stop. hee. took 77 back home. reached home ard 12.10am i think. hee. got scolded by mum. Typical can. so ya. haha. i had a fun day man. not gonna be down fer a scolding.. hee. cant wait fer next lepak core meeting. =) i love amber!!
here are just a few pics of today. more to come. =)
Greg, Michael and Mark!
Michael and me
me, gilbert and robert
the girls.
Friday, September 22, 2006
Friday freak out!!
Werk was extremely boring today!! was so looking fwd to when it will end!! and yes it ended pretty soon. Kevin was back around 5.30pm. poor him! was really looking exhausted. and he had not eaten! and i suggested to Hid to go n buy bread fer him. we wen to cold storage and bought him bread and wer back up in a jiffy. He thanked us many and said he was touched!HEE!
Met Allyssa at orchard mrt. gosh she looked tired. poor her! we went to eat at taka mac. then three malay guys came and were always looking out direction.. wat to do? got a babe like Allyssa sitting opp me!! hee. they were like holding up cameras in our direction can!! haio. losers..then again, cant blame them. Allyssa is gorgeous!! =) and and and.. we saw Wawa. lol. ran after her and she gave a one tight hug!! man. miss her can.. hais. cant wait to be back in school with all the stress aside of course!!
after dinner, Allyssa and me headed to esplanade to lepak. saw alot of malays!! loads of them. haa. sat down at the far end . chatted with Allyssa about alot of stuff. enjoyed it man. saying out the feelings inside.and listening to her speak.man. can say abit emo. hee. and then guess what saw a group of four to five people performing at the waterfront.. it was the band that had taken part in superband.. all malay guys harmonising and singing so so well. man. Allyssa and i were like stunned. really man. they were good. loved it.
then Allyssa babe and i went off home. Man. it was a tiring day. one day in the whole weekdays where i can enjoy. i have no tuition on fridays. enjoy!! heee. and i read finished tthe storybook 'Bindi and Brides.' by Nisha Minhas. gosh she writes well. damn good. love the humor so much to the extent that u can see me giggling or even laughing out loud in the mrt while reading the book. haa..
and before i end off, I love my mummy. she is so nice to me can. oh. she is this nice at times only. enjoy it while it lasts!!! =))
Met Allyssa at orchard mrt. gosh she looked tired. poor her! we went to eat at taka mac. then three malay guys came and were always looking out direction.. wat to do? got a babe like Allyssa sitting opp me!! hee. they were like holding up cameras in our direction can!! haio. losers..then again, cant blame them. Allyssa is gorgeous!! =) and and and.. we saw Wawa. lol. ran after her and she gave a one tight hug!! man. miss her can.. hais. cant wait to be back in school with all the stress aside of course!!
after dinner, Allyssa and me headed to esplanade to lepak. saw alot of malays!! loads of them. haa. sat down at the far end . chatted with Allyssa about alot of stuff. enjoyed it man. saying out the feelings inside.and listening to her speak.man. can say abit emo. hee. and then guess what saw a group of four to five people performing at the waterfront.. it was the band that had taken part in superband.. all malay guys harmonising and singing so so well. man. Allyssa and i were like stunned. really man. they were good. loved it.
then Allyssa babe and i went off home. Man. it was a tiring day. one day in the whole weekdays where i can enjoy. i have no tuition on fridays. enjoy!! heee. and i read finished tthe storybook 'Bindi and Brides.' by Nisha Minhas. gosh she writes well. damn good. love the humor so much to the extent that u can see me giggling or even laughing out loud in the mrt while reading the book. haa..
and before i end off, I love my mummy. she is so nice to me can. oh. she is this nice at times only. enjoy it while it lasts!!! =))
Thursday, September 21, 2006
what to say of you?
i am disappointed man.
do i look like someone who finds pleasure getting angry with every action of urs?
i am not!! definately not!!
i understand the situations people go through.
i am not unreasonable to always having it my way.
after all these times,
if i can hear u say things like that,
i am at a complete loss of what to say of people like you.
i am flexible if you will tell me nicely about the situation.
i would really.
do i look like someone who finds pleasure getting angry with every action of urs?
i am not!! definately not!!
i understand the situations people go through.
i am not unreasonable to always having it my way.
after all these times,
if i can hear u say things like that,
i am at a complete loss of what to say of people like you.
i am flexible if you will tell me nicely about the situation.
i would really.
how can u know me so well
and yet not know me at ALL?
another issue! GUYS!
just what is up with them?
just looking at girls brings them immeasureable pleasure?
gosh! get a life to all those type of guys.
i know not all are like that.
which actually is a total relieve that good guys exist!
perhaps i should just lower my expectations of ALL you people. save me a whole lot of disappointment!!! argh!!
another issue! GUYS!
just what is up with them?
just looking at girls brings them immeasureable pleasure?
gosh! get a life to all those type of guys.
i know not all are like that.
which actually is a total relieve that good guys exist!
perhaps i should just lower my expectations of ALL you people. save me a whole lot of disappointment!!! argh!!
quiz
some quizzes i did.
| You Have A Type A- Personality |
| You are one of the most balanced people aroundMotivated and focused, you are good at getting what you wantYou rule at success, but success doesn't rule you. When it's playtime, you really know how to kick backWhether it's hanging out with friends or doing something you love!You live life to the fullest - encorporating the best of both worlds |
| Your Personality Cluster is Extraverted Intuition |
 A true wordsmith - a master of wordsOriginal, spontaneous, and a true inspirationHighly energetic, up for any challengeEntertaining and engaging, both to friends and strangers |
| You Communicate With Your Ears |
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Tuesday, September 19, 2006
grades
i forgot to say about my results!!! i did well. amazingly, i got Bs fer most of the modules and i got a D+ fer my Financial Management. LOL. at least i passed!! i slacked-core this semester and i still did well. Thank God!! but i will take it fer granted and will do my best next semester.. and to all those whom i know are waiting fer my downfall.. i have to say that you can wait fer all u want , but i do not plan to fall. cause i have someone to hold my hand and He will lead me on. so, happy waiting? Oh and btw, when is School starting? i seem to have no idea on that. somebody tell me please?
Monday, September 18, 2006
weakends
sat: finally youth rally is over. tho the turn-up was below expectations, the people who came were blessed. its true. and i hope hidayah naz and sock peng were touched. naz was like what it means ah. and when i explained it to her, she was like nodding her head agreeing. lol. cute can. and hidayah understood what the pastor had said. and sock peng being the bright spark of course got the meaning of the prophesy. hees. thanks fer coming babes. =)
sun: sun was tiring. headed to granny's place in the morning. sis kena scolded and she blasted the family upside down. lol. emo time fer us. then went to church. i just couldnt sing during the worship practice. felt like crap man. i mean God had said that i will sing like a dove and all fer his glory. but man. people just put me down can. say cant hear. that i must sing loud and this and that. then i begin to think can i really sing? and then God answers me. ' dont look down on myself and allow me to give it all up to God.' man. i am really very crushed now. but, i still choose to leave it to the One who knows it al.
then was service. Pastor Reginald gave a message which was short and sweet. then me and sis rushed to pray. God spoke to me saying that i am a person who prefers to look at logical reasoning. i will think about what people say. makes sense out of it. ponder and then come up with my own thinking. things have to make sense to me. if not, i will not agree. and he also said that i have a lot of qns that i ask. and he prayed that God will answer them in his time after i leave the church. as in go home from church. NOT leave the church fer good. hee.
it was raining heavily outside. with one umbrella my sis and i shared it and waited fer a cab. i was like totally wet in my attempt to keep the birthday girl dry. then went to granny's again. washed up and felt more fresh. and guess what. my nightmare. dad walked in. granny was like giving me big chunks of gold to wear. and i had to tie my hair as my dad will be pissed if my hair is not tied up. what logic siah. does not make sense ryte. THIS is what gets me angry. no logic no reasoning. hais. then had to wear a bracelet, two big chunks and i mean real chunky gold chains. looked so awful. i looked much better with my silver accessories i tell u. then had to post fer photos with those gold. eew. what to do. respect the elders. do what they say. no questions asked.
nothing to do with the events now. I MISS AMBER!! i do the ' i say u say i say' at home and my family members stare at me. apa sial. lol. cant wait fer sentosa. =)
sun: sun was tiring. headed to granny's place in the morning. sis kena scolded and she blasted the family upside down. lol. emo time fer us. then went to church. i just couldnt sing during the worship practice. felt like crap man. i mean God had said that i will sing like a dove and all fer his glory. but man. people just put me down can. say cant hear. that i must sing loud and this and that. then i begin to think can i really sing? and then God answers me. ' dont look down on myself and allow me to give it all up to God.' man. i am really very crushed now. but, i still choose to leave it to the One who knows it al.
then was service. Pastor Reginald gave a message which was short and sweet. then me and sis rushed to pray. God spoke to me saying that i am a person who prefers to look at logical reasoning. i will think about what people say. makes sense out of it. ponder and then come up with my own thinking. things have to make sense to me. if not, i will not agree. and he also said that i have a lot of qns that i ask. and he prayed that God will answer them in his time after i leave the church. as in go home from church. NOT leave the church fer good. hee.
it was raining heavily outside. with one umbrella my sis and i shared it and waited fer a cab. i was like totally wet in my attempt to keep the birthday girl dry. then went to granny's again. washed up and felt more fresh. and guess what. my nightmare. dad walked in. granny was like giving me big chunks of gold to wear. and i had to tie my hair as my dad will be pissed if my hair is not tied up. what logic siah. does not make sense ryte. THIS is what gets me angry. no logic no reasoning. hais. then had to wear a bracelet, two big chunks and i mean real chunky gold chains. looked so awful. i looked much better with my silver accessories i tell u. then had to post fer photos with those gold. eew. what to do. respect the elders. do what they say. no questions asked.
nothing to do with the events now. I MISS AMBER!! i do the ' i say u say i say' at home and my family members stare at me. apa sial. lol. cant wait fer sentosa. =)
Friday, September 15, 2006
the guy
i so have to say this. i left home feeling excited about today's worship practice. i walked towards the traffic light and i saw a good looking chinese guy ard my age coming towards me. i turned away. but i realised that after walking past me . he turned and walked behind me following me until i reached the other side of the traffic light. then..
the guy: hello
me: hi?
the guy:are you stephanie?
me:err.no?!
the guy:so sorry. i thought u were my friend. really sorry.
me: no.its okays.
the guy: anyway, my name is mark.
me: err. okaay.. bye!
and i walked quickly to the bus stop. LOL.
so somewhere out there i know a stephanie looks like me. that is if the story the guy told was true.
the guy: hello
me: hi?
the guy:are you stephanie?
me:err.no?!
the guy:so sorry. i thought u were my friend. really sorry.
me: no.its okays.
the guy: anyway, my name is mark.
me: err. okaay.. bye!
and i walked quickly to the bus stop. LOL.
so somewhere out there i know a stephanie looks like me. that is if the story the guy told was true.
some photos taken at camp. more to come.
here are some photos taken at camp. more to come. =)
me and allyssa slacking in school before camp.
drawing on our shirts.
BR with hid's hair
BR
Thursday, September 14, 2006
camp
back from camp. Black Rouge who were supposed to be together was apart with allyssa, hidayah and me in AMBER, and pink in rebels. well, of all the four days that we spent together, i fell that the third day was the best. dont ask why. just felt that it was the best. hee. well, on the first day, booked in around 8. then got to know our group mates a lil and then before we know it we had to bathe and were off to bed. we were supposed to be asleep by 11.30pm. but well, i knowing that we were gonna wake up at 3am in the morning, just could not get to sleep. was awake all night looking at the girls sleeping. it was quite very entertaining given the situation. then 3am came and lights were turned on. so yep. we aligned ourselves in the tracks and were paired up with another person of the opposite sex fer 'nite walk'. i knew nothing will happen. but somehow given the darkness and the stories i heard recently and the chinese month and all just gave me the shivers. my partner was jerry. i can only say 'poor him'. i mean i knew i was an irritant at that time but i was really scared. i actually crashed him onto the refrigerator. LOL. and he talked about the girls from NP all chio ones. thats the reason he goes to canteeen 1 often i guess.
anyway, just in case you thought we had slept after that, let me tell you that NO, we did not sleep after that. we ate food from last night's. then we rehearsed our skit with the theme 'survival'. it was funny how Gilbert, came up witht he idea of the cockroaches and the lizards fighting. and since our group was lazy to think of another storyline, we all agreed on it which worked out very well. i was part of the lizard clan which Gilbert said very well suited me and him for obvious reasons. LOL! then Jonathan had to leave. it was really very sad to see him go can. like suddenly hidayah, allyssa me and diana were like so lifeless. it was not as though Jonathan took our lives away with him but well, we just felt so different without him, our leader.
then Greg was now our leader and i think he did a great job at that. moving on to what we did after the skit. we had pool games. hidayah and i did not participate as we gave the chances to the freshies instead. it was their camp anyway. we were just there to assist. after pool games, we went to bathe. after that we played we played baseball in the sports hall. and yet again baseball and us just dont. alyssa diana hidayah and i were slackers. then it was time to watch click in the lecture theatre. before that, we ate our lunch. i was so hungry after all that slacking!
well, i did not quite watch the movie 'click' as i was in lalaland by the time the 'habibu' part came. slept through the movie. then we played the nite catching. haio. daym tiring siah. i ran like no ones business. lol.and thanks to fabian who was bent on slowing me down, i had to run dunno how many stairs all on my own. and then saw diana who came to the rescue and we finally became supermans and ran to our superman home. LOL. dumbness. after that, we went to bathe. felt so fresh can. like we are cleansed once again. then learnt some of the cheers from our very own robert. was fun. then came our supper. we had cheng teng (if thats how u spell it.) and egg tarts. i drank the cheng teng. so delicious can. it so reminded us, dravidas of Eddy and Gerad(ignore spelling again). then went to bed and this time i forced myself to sleep as i knew that unless i really try, i cant get to sleep. and so i slept. felt to good to rest after a whole night and day of activity.
the third day we felt much better after the rest. we had mee siam fer breakfast. so much food that the girls could not finish it. and this Emarican, Michael, ate up the food so fast lah. cute can. we then played games. Red indian. LOL. super fast can the game. Syahirah's partner fer the night walk just made the game end end in 2 minutes. and to think we waited so long fer the game to start. so damn funny. then we had another game where the guys were to make a stretcher and then carry 4 different people. lol. i was carried can. the stretcher they made were very durable indeed. and we came in first. cool can. then had to run all. so tiring. well, after the games, we went to bathe and assembled and then ate our dinner. then we practised our skit again and did our cheers and song. it was fun. the 'nong nong nong' language spoken by the lizard leader, Gilbert, and the cockroach leader, Michael, was so funny. then was camp fire. we watched some people doing the drums thingie. it so rocked. was really good and i enjoyed it. was fun watching the different groups perform. then sang campfire songs. then camp fire came to an end. we proceeded to another room fer our supper which was cakes and ice cream. the lychee tongue ruled the nite. we saw almost all the guys and girls giving it a try. it was disgusting tho. haas. then came the long awaiting dance nite. people were crazy in the room. all were like going wild and dancing crazily. hidyah and i danced and then took a mini break and went back to dancing. then we lepak-ed at the supper room and went to the sports hall after that. at first we wanted to go back up to the hall to slack. but decided to bring our sleeping bags to the tracks. saw Dennis and he actually warned me against sleeping. i was like i too tres iah. cant take it. and so we BR were slacking at the tracks.we saw Fabian and he came and slacked with us telling us his experiences in his work. so cool can. soon, more people came and joined us. but as usual, i gave in to temptation and laid down on my 'blown-up' pillow and before i knew it, i was entering the unknown. felt something on my hand. woke up to see Zaid scribbling on my hand. well, i was too tired to retaliate. went back to sleeping.
and the best part is when we woke up in the morning ard 9 i think. we saw people jogging around us. and we got weird stares from them. like what were we doing in the middle of the tracks at around 9 in the morning?? LOL. got up and washed up and went to eat breakfast. then played many games with amber. was so fun can. had photo taking later. took dumb shots. then had prize giving ceremony. ate the snacks and then we parted ways. some of us went to mac to slack more. hee. was fun. crapping away. something we were good at. then headed home and was supposed to sleep but well, i had to say these things can. haa. now, i guess i will go and sleep. =)
anyway, just in case you thought we had slept after that, let me tell you that NO, we did not sleep after that. we ate food from last night's. then we rehearsed our skit with the theme 'survival'. it was funny how Gilbert, came up witht he idea of the cockroaches and the lizards fighting. and since our group was lazy to think of another storyline, we all agreed on it which worked out very well. i was part of the lizard clan which Gilbert said very well suited me and him for obvious reasons. LOL! then Jonathan had to leave. it was really very sad to see him go can. like suddenly hidayah, allyssa me and diana were like so lifeless. it was not as though Jonathan took our lives away with him but well, we just felt so different without him, our leader.
then Greg was now our leader and i think he did a great job at that. moving on to what we did after the skit. we had pool games. hidayah and i did not participate as we gave the chances to the freshies instead. it was their camp anyway. we were just there to assist. after pool games, we went to bathe. after that we played we played baseball in the sports hall. and yet again baseball and us just dont. alyssa diana hidayah and i were slackers. then it was time to watch click in the lecture theatre. before that, we ate our lunch. i was so hungry after all that slacking!
well, i did not quite watch the movie 'click' as i was in lalaland by the time the 'habibu' part came. slept through the movie. then we played the nite catching. haio. daym tiring siah. i ran like no ones business. lol.and thanks to fabian who was bent on slowing me down, i had to run dunno how many stairs all on my own. and then saw diana who came to the rescue and we finally became supermans and ran to our superman home. LOL. dumbness. after that, we went to bathe. felt so fresh can. like we are cleansed once again. then learnt some of the cheers from our very own robert. was fun. then came our supper. we had cheng teng (if thats how u spell it.) and egg tarts. i drank the cheng teng. so delicious can. it so reminded us, dravidas of Eddy and Gerad(ignore spelling again). then went to bed and this time i forced myself to sleep as i knew that unless i really try, i cant get to sleep. and so i slept. felt to good to rest after a whole night and day of activity.
the third day we felt much better after the rest. we had mee siam fer breakfast. so much food that the girls could not finish it. and this Emarican, Michael, ate up the food so fast lah. cute can. we then played games. Red indian. LOL. super fast can the game. Syahirah's partner fer the night walk just made the game end end in 2 minutes. and to think we waited so long fer the game to start. so damn funny. then we had another game where the guys were to make a stretcher and then carry 4 different people. lol. i was carried can. the stretcher they made were very durable indeed. and we came in first. cool can. then had to run all. so tiring. well, after the games, we went to bathe and assembled and then ate our dinner. then we practised our skit again and did our cheers and song. it was fun. the 'nong nong nong' language spoken by the lizard leader, Gilbert, and the cockroach leader, Michael, was so funny. then was camp fire. we watched some people doing the drums thingie. it so rocked. was really good and i enjoyed it. was fun watching the different groups perform. then sang campfire songs. then camp fire came to an end. we proceeded to another room fer our supper which was cakes and ice cream. the lychee tongue ruled the nite. we saw almost all the guys and girls giving it a try. it was disgusting tho. haas. then came the long awaiting dance nite. people were crazy in the room. all were like going wild and dancing crazily. hidyah and i danced and then took a mini break and went back to dancing. then we lepak-ed at the supper room and went to the sports hall after that. at first we wanted to go back up to the hall to slack. but decided to bring our sleeping bags to the tracks. saw Dennis and he actually warned me against sleeping. i was like i too tres iah. cant take it. and so we BR were slacking at the tracks.we saw Fabian and he came and slacked with us telling us his experiences in his work. so cool can. soon, more people came and joined us. but as usual, i gave in to temptation and laid down on my 'blown-up' pillow and before i knew it, i was entering the unknown. felt something on my hand. woke up to see Zaid scribbling on my hand. well, i was too tired to retaliate. went back to sleeping.
and the best part is when we woke up in the morning ard 9 i think. we saw people jogging around us. and we got weird stares from them. like what were we doing in the middle of the tracks at around 9 in the morning?? LOL. got up and washed up and went to eat breakfast. then played many games with amber. was so fun can. had photo taking later. took dumb shots. then had prize giving ceremony. ate the snacks and then we parted ways. some of us went to mac to slack more. hee. was fun. crapping away. something we were good at. then headed home and was supposed to sleep but well, i had to say these things can. haa. now, i guess i will go and sleep. =)
Monday, September 11, 2006
JESUS I LOVE YOU
it is my sister's birthday today..
happy 21st birthay dearie.. i love you.thanks fer being a understandong sis.thanks fer bearing with me . =) loves..
Pastor Reginald is in Singapore!! and he prayed fer me. went like this..
he prayed that i will not be VULNERABLE in any way in any form. he also said that in the recent months, within myself,there has been some attacks which has been taking place.he also prayed that i must not put myself down. i must not look down on myself as God will want to reinstate me for his purpose and glory. also went also saying that i am a person who does not want to talk alot about things. extremely reserved quiet n silent to myself. but that i think and calcualte and work out things within my spirit. and when i confess it to God, he will erase all my weaknesses which taunts me. and God is reshaping me.also said that i will no longer be in the corner but God wants to make me a chief cornerstone. and that People will not miss me but see there is something new in my life.
MAn.. i love Jesus so much. when no one knows whats wrong with me, he just says the right things and even corrects me along the way. he moulds me into who he wants me to be. so that i can be more and more like him. i love him yes i do. and about me being extremely reserved quiet, its so true. i NEVER EVER tell my deepest thoughts to anyone. i mean its not as if its being valued. oni GOD values them tho i must say. Even my besties dont know about me. thats one thing i'll say. so the reserved thing applies to my deepest thoughts which i will say to only those i can really really trust. cause many have broken my trust and i really am not sure who i should trust. hee.
i really hope that those whom i have invited to the youth rally will come and be blessed. remember its solely fer your own benefit that i am calling you..
conerstone:
1.a stone uniting two masonry walls at an intersection.
2.
a stone representing the nominal starting place in the construction of a monumental building, usually carved with the date and laid with appropriate ceremonies.
3.
something that is essential, indispensable, or basic: The cornerstone of democratic government is a free press.
4.
the chief foundation on which something is constructed or developed: The cornerstone of his argument was that all people are created equal
he prayed that i will not be VULNERABLE in any way in any form. he also said that in the recent months, within myself,there has been some attacks which has been taking place.he also prayed that i must not put myself down. i must not look down on myself as God will want to reinstate me for his purpose and glory. also went also saying that i am a person who does not want to talk alot about things. extremely reserved quiet n silent to myself. but that i think and calcualte and work out things within my spirit. and when i confess it to God, he will erase all my weaknesses which taunts me. and God is reshaping me.also said that i will no longer be in the corner but God wants to make me a chief cornerstone. and that People will not miss me but see there is something new in my life.
MAn.. i love Jesus so much. when no one knows whats wrong with me, he just says the right things and even corrects me along the way. he moulds me into who he wants me to be. so that i can be more and more like him. i love him yes i do. and about me being extremely reserved quiet, its so true. i NEVER EVER tell my deepest thoughts to anyone. i mean its not as if its being valued. oni GOD values them tho i must say. Even my besties dont know about me. thats one thing i'll say. so the reserved thing applies to my deepest thoughts which i will say to only those i can really really trust. cause many have broken my trust and i really am not sure who i should trust. hee.
i really hope that those whom i have invited to the youth rally will come and be blessed. remember its solely fer your own benefit that i am calling you..
conerstone:
1.a stone uniting two masonry walls at an intersection.
2.
a stone representing the nominal starting place in the construction of a monumental building, usually carved with the date and laid with appropriate ceremonies.
3.
something that is essential, indispensable, or basic: The cornerstone of democratic government is a free press.
4.
the chief foundation on which something is constructed or developed: The cornerstone of his argument was that all people are created equal
Saturday, September 09, 2006
i was pranked
I WAS PRANKED!!!!
it started like this. i was actually on the phone with pink. then i had to put the call on hold to attend to the request of my bro which was to make a cup of his muscle gain powder thingie. while doing so, my sister came home and was sharing some news which i still do not have any idea about. then came a phonecall to my hp. Knowing me, i cant multitask that very well. so i pasued everything and talked to the guy who was practically slurring while talking. he said he was some guy fromdunno what sky tutors or something like that.. my attention was divided between listening to him and making my bro the cup of his energizer. and he guy on the phone explained he was someone from sky.. and asked if i was willing to be a teacher there.. well, i was not interested. so i hung up. turning down the offer nicely i think. i cant recall that part at all. so after making the glass of drink fer bro, i got back to the convo with pink on the phone. then my sister cut in between and said she wanted tuition. so guess what. i had to end my conversation with pink. and i also had to call the number that was used to call me just now. i am so dumb can. it was a handphone number. HOW COULD I, the great prank-er, have fallen fer the tuition thingie. i actually called them back and asked how they got my number. he said he got it thru contacts or contracts. couldnt hear properly. then he was talking and then the phonecall ended. gosh! and i was DUMB enuf to call back thinking i was the one who ended the call by mistake. mann.. i was so dumb can. then the person said what. he knows i am meena melanie and what frenster pic ad what crap.. GOSHHH>>> i felt so what cann... i felt so dumb. how could i ever fall fer it.. its like almost a disgrace to the Prankster association.. How am i ever gonna lift my head up high again!! LOL.. i really felt pranked, i think i went like '' ahh.. whatever.. okie.. bye.. '' HAA! dumbness. but well, if the prank caller were to present himself infront of me, i will really salute him. i mean just imagine ME falling fer a prank like that.. He deserves it.. HAA.. salutes mister!!
Thursday, September 07, 2006
work life
i love my job.. damn funny can the response of people.. to name a few..
1. what? what CPF? i am 75 years old. NO CPF!!
2. Do i owe u money?? -sounds disturbed-
3. is this a loan agency?
4. i dont have money lah fer all this. if u got money, then u lend me laa..
5. NOT INTERESTED!!! ( most typical answer)
haa. been great fun werking with meiting and hidayah. i mean we take breaks like nobody's business. it IS nobody's business anyway!! hees. dunno what to tell han nee about my camp stuff.. i will surely blabber over the phone fer sure.. hee. expected. gonna be using the net till late and wake up late then go fer werk!! =)
selfish
everybody looks out for themselves. selfish beings.
are we all like that?
cause i feel that we lack the ability to share.
i want to share.
will you allow me to?
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
Werk
i so have to blog about this. comeon man. cant we girls live without guys ?? i mean seriously. every girl seem to be talking about some guy. if it is about some guy , then its quite ok. but if its some guys, then there is a big problem. i mean. somehow everyone wants to be attached. when they are attached, they totally ignore their friends. then when they break-up with their bfs, they come back to their friends. so irritating man.
but i do respect those who are in a relationship and yet do pay attention to their friends. i mean friends are always there for you. but bfs. i cant say the same. in this case, i must say mei ting is a good example of how to be in a relationship and yet value ur friends. she ate with hid and me and then headed to see simon. how sweet ryte. she could have just gone off turning down our offer to have dinner together. BUT! she actually came with us and then went to see her bf. i appreciate that.
and man. now talking about work. boy i have to say i talk to a whole bunch of weird people everyday. i mean people slam down the phone, scold us. while some are just dearies so polite and nice. and yes. i have to say about this one guy who is 33 years old. he so reminded me of zaed. dont ask me why. i also dunno . he was like SS!! hahahaha.. he was cracking jokes and checking every once in a while whether my name was actually meena (minah). and he was like crapping away on the phone with me like i was his long lost friend. man.. and i was laughing at his every joke cause they were funny.. LOL. wonder what the others in the compay would have thought. haha. but man. that guy was damn funny i will say.
after werk headed to causewaypt to have dinner at Long John Silvers. yum yum. but could not even finish one meal BECAUSE hidayah and me were found to be snacking every once in a while we were working and taking short breaks when necessary. or to simply put it, whenever we wanted to. hee. headed home after dinner. and came home to find my granny and ruban at home. lol. Ruban had mat hairstyle. While questioned, he said it was just normal. wonder what he meant. Hee. anyway. loved my day man.
but i do respect those who are in a relationship and yet do pay attention to their friends. i mean friends are always there for you. but bfs. i cant say the same. in this case, i must say mei ting is a good example of how to be in a relationship and yet value ur friends. she ate with hid and me and then headed to see simon. how sweet ryte. she could have just gone off turning down our offer to have dinner together. BUT! she actually came with us and then went to see her bf. i appreciate that.
and man. now talking about work. boy i have to say i talk to a whole bunch of weird people everyday. i mean people slam down the phone, scold us. while some are just dearies so polite and nice. and yes. i have to say about this one guy who is 33 years old. he so reminded me of zaed. dont ask me why. i also dunno . he was like SS!! hahahaha.. he was cracking jokes and checking every once in a while whether my name was actually meena (minah). and he was like crapping away on the phone with me like i was his long lost friend. man.. and i was laughing at his every joke cause they were funny.. LOL. wonder what the others in the compay would have thought. haha. but man. that guy was damn funny i will say.
after werk headed to causewaypt to have dinner at Long John Silvers. yum yum. but could not even finish one meal BECAUSE hidayah and me were found to be snacking every once in a while we were working and taking short breaks when necessary. or to simply put it, whenever we wanted to. hee. headed home after dinner. and came home to find my granny and ruban at home. lol. Ruban had mat hairstyle. While questioned, he said it was just normal. wonder what he meant. Hee. anyway. loved my day man.
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