MOnday

sch was to start at 9. was waiting in the BB interchange fer Hid. missed two bus. then came Michael. when i say michael, i remember midori. haa. thank God, i had him to accompany me till HId turned up. and u know what the queue was so freaking long. and gues who we saw? Malcolm!! LOL. and i bet he acknowledged us oni because he wanted to cut the queue by standing with us. LOL. what a swift move! haa.. then he waited fer mathan instead. i still dunno if he manged to get on the bus ornot. haa.

Crapped with michael until school. then headed to class. lecture boring as usual. and oh! HIDAYAH had loadsa to say abt her weekend. and we talked some PERSONAL stuff. lol. i love talking these to her. andoh i bet she loves it too!! haa.. Then headed to Students Union to print our project together with yana, tiffany and joyce!! saw danny and timon!! then printed and went fer ITA lecture.

After that, ate with mark, michael, midori, russell hid and pink! haa.. then mark, Hid, PInk, michael and me went to library. in the end, pink, HId and me ended up watching '' meet the parents'' while mark was watching his whatever anime in his lappie and michael left fer class. haa.. Hid and i went off after movie and went home..

Good day afterall! =)

replies:

split persona a.k.a pandiji - haaa. one look and i know its u!!

naz: hello there spilt persona a.k.a pandiji a.k.a naz, haaa..LOL. and sorry din come ur house. haa. i really dinno that invite was fer me.. haha.. AND my dear naz, i would not want UR vin to tag my blog. MINE is good enuf. Thank YOU!! and oh that indian guy ahh.. i was so pissed man.. haha.. of course man.. munkies do think and feel alike. tats why u feel the same way.. hee.. been long since we quarelled.. danm i miss that.. haa.

bala: ehh.. are u trying to sound chim?? haa..

jenn: i going esplanade on sat if got no changes.. i hope there isnt.. haa.. so fri we go elsewhere??

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8.30 to 11.30

doing the stupid scrapbook for three hours!

LOL.

i thought it would be done in less than thirty minutes.

i still cant believe i wasted so much time for a 4 % mini assignment!

HAH.

goodness i was damn stressed just now.

Thank God for Dennis who gave many suggestions.

Hid and i tried and got some sort of an answer.

Hid and i are just glad

that we are not the ITA reps!!

HAH!

Giovanni

had tuition with giovanni on friday to revise fer his exams which is in the coming week. then while i was teaching him, came his dearest mother who disrupted my lesson and had to butt in and teach him. poor boy! HE who was getting every question right, sudenly began to get everything wrong! i was shocked man. Seriously la, i could conect to the lectures and how children need to feel good about themselves and at ease before they can do to the nest of thier ability. Man!! the mother was forcing him to do this and that and kept nagging at him while he was trying to think!

i was so pissed can. i mean my poor GIOVANNI is getting stressed! please mind your tone on the child!! haio. then when she left for toilet, i took the chance to let Giovanni calm down and be himself. he was so stressed he nearly cried lah! argh. i get so pissed when parents do not treat their children with respect and always scold them. especially in the MRT trains. the parents scold the children and humilate them in the trains and all without realising that it has an effect on the children. please treat children with respect cause they are not toys to be manipulated.

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bala - lol. oh crap. what a coincidence to have u read that particular entry! haa. and oh that guy! loser la.. haa..

vin - haa.. thank u buddy!!

hidayah - LOL. bet he will not dare to even look my way siah!! my darling!!! hahahahaha..

HotPoliceGuy - LOL.

den - haa. am cool man.. not heated at all!!

indian guys!

okay i DID stereotype indian guys in my previous post. i am sorry to the nice indian guys who still exist. here. i am thankful i do know some indian guys who are not typical. the few indian guy friends i have worth mentioning.

VIN you are indian dude! haa. ur other bloods come later. vin is a great friend. always there. he knows what he wants and goes fer it. never say die. always have the '' lets do it'' spirit. very straightforward! and knows when i need someone to talk to. someone who listens to what others have to say before opening his mouth to give his views. a true friend! and all that indian jokes he says. damn funny.

MATHAN well, this dude is someone i know from Princess elizabeth has grown up now. very vain. takes photos of himself and his muscles. LOL. he is definately not typical. and he has a mind of his own. does not follow people. a person of character but can very lame at times.

BALA friend from Bukit view secondary school. thought was someone very disciplined and very prefect kind. turn out totally opposite. good joker. also has a mind of his own and speaks up when he has something to say. super friendly. leave him in a room of strangers and u can come back to see him with his new set of friends! good listener.

AARON my dearest cousin brother. he is the most nicest guy ive met man. i mean he is damn helpful. does things willingly to help. and is very sweet. i remember he was there fer me in my O level days always encouraging me. he is such a darling. very humble and polite. and loves to play pranks. haa. kena caught like all the time. not pro enuff!

SASI my brother himself. such a dearie. always there to help. he is my bank. always there. and he actually understands some of my problems without me saying. when i say indian guys disturb me or what. he very protective, say what he is police gonna break those guys face. haa. he means well tho. i love him. and he is very helpful. and sentimental. and handsome! =)

apart from vin, i bet no one in this list will see this but yeah. just felt like saying some good points of my indian friends. haa. random entry i know!

raped

feel like i was raped. this indian guy was was on the other side of the interchange waiting fer 189 saw me and came out and looked at me for some time. then he went into the queueing area fer 945 and stood ryte behind me coming closer and closer to me. i felt so helpless. i was pissed at his behaviour. i wanted to shout at him. but i knew it will be rude. i kept quiet. i stood up and moved a lil further away. i wanted to get out of the queue but i could not as there were people on both sides. the the indian guy aged ard 30+ whispered something like ''pretty..''. i did not turn back to look at all.

i was afraid. past memories of the indian ITE guys behaving in such lowly manner with me came to mind. then the indian guy went away from the queue. i did not turn back at all. hoping and praying that he will go far away. then the bus 61 came. i boarded it thinking it was over and i did not have to look at that fella's face again. BUT! no it was not over. the indian guy actually boarded the bus and he had the cheek to sit beside me. goodness. i have no idea what happened to me. i mean i can see myself shouting at the bloody guy in this situation but no. i did not shout.

i felt lost. i felt helpless. i mean he did not touch me or anything. but u know. i can see his eyes surverying my body and i was so disgusted. i felt used. i wanted to get up and go away fromt he sit. but then, i would have to go past him to get off. so i sat where i was. FREAKING BASTARD..

he could still talk to me saying what engineer something. and before i knew it, tears began to form and i actually cried! and that Loser got damn scared and immediately pretended to use the phone and got off at the very next stop. i called hidayah immediately and told her everything while crying. thank God fer her. she understood my problem and i really appreciate it.

this is the reason why i cant communicate with indian guys. it all started when i was confronted by the ITe guys. i lost hope in indian guys. seriously. why must they be like this. HOPELESS. oh crap. i am crying now. like wth. why the heck must i waste my tears on them??

and oh, when i got home and told my mother and sister about this, quess what was thier reaction?? WTF?? '' you should have scolded him like ''what the fuck do u think u are doing??what do u want?'' and my mum went, '' you should have called me!''... i was damn pissed man. i only wanted someone to listen to my probs. NOT go and say '' you should have....'' and '' why didnt you?'', '' why did u just cry?'' or '' why u so dumb?''

WTF!! dont rub it in. u think i had all the time to think about this when i was with that indian guy??ArGH. FUCK man.

FUCK!

selamat hari raya

Selamat Hari Raya dear friends! =)

Happy Deepavalli!

Happy Deepavalli to my friends and family celebrating it!

well, the day was spent at my granny's. Thank God cause my Dad gave $50. lol. i am damn broke now man. HAA. goodness it was a boring day. but the cousins were entertaining tho. i could not talk much to them tho. i almost forgot how to talk to other indian guys. i just dont know how. haa. tho they are my cousins, i just cant communicate. and when i cant talk, i am like really bored. so i read my storybook and messaged my friends who were as bored as me. HAA.

then they families started to leave and then finally it was time to go home. before then we played with the sparklers. Lol. the whistling ones are kinda scary man. by right , we should not be using these now that there is haze, but oh well, its just hard to resist. haa.

hope everyone had fun!

its deepavalli people

HMM.. okay. so DEEPAVALLI is here it seems... there is big preparations in my granny's place. haa. all that cookie making and stuff. i am so gonna eat ALOT on Sat.. Every Deepavalli is the same fer me. go granny's place and sit on the floor and watch movie while the MEN sit on the sofa chatting away and having the cookies. ARGH.

MEN are always treated better than women. women are regarded as some lowly creatures. i hate that man. i will be sitted on the sofa at first.. but once my uncle and his family comes, i must immediately move and sit on the floor instead. THEN, the guys get to sit on the sofa. i mean to some, it means NOTHING. its just shifting place. BUT TO ME, IT MEANS ALOT. cause even tho there is space on the chair beside my uncle or guy cousin, i am NOT ALLOWED to sit there as it seems that MALE species are far TOO PRECIOUS and must be treated as GEMS..

Serious man.. and oh, my Dad's greatest worry is that i will embarass him as i DO NOT KNOW HOW TO COOK.. he makes it sound like i, as a woman( an indian woman) will have no life if i do not know how to cook. Goodness! These wise elderly indian people in my family will make me go crazy. I sorta know what to do when. pls. give me space.

Hee. okay. i grumbled quite alot. But i must say, i am really glad to be an indian. i mean serious dude. come on. who can imitate us exactly like who we are? OUR ACCENT!! man. it takes an indian to do that.. HAA. and i sorta like the culture and stuff. and oh, how can i ever forget BOLLYWOOD? i love it so man. haa. Okay la uh.. INDIANS rock! haa..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HIDAYAH!!

BR had mini birthday celebration for Hidayah.. we brought her to YELLOW and got her ears pierced. something she did fer the first time altho she is 20. haa.. She was calm i will say. bet she was cursing us deep inside. haa. then surprised her in the park. with a brownie cake. it was yummy. really was. nice nice!! Hope she had fun!! haa..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HIDAYAH BABE!!

replies to tags:

vin: eh.. dead as in? and thanks fer THAT!

faz: i know!! of course man. got u in them..

hid: LOL!!! so cute can.. superwoman HId.!!

perl: OMG!! it is DELICIOUS. we one day go there eat man!!

Shruthi: HELLO! how did u find my blog?? clever seh..

den: agreed man. damn damn damn tiring!! ARGH!!

yums

BRP (without pink and pris) had dinner at some place in thomson . goodness. the prata there is awesome man. i mean AWESOME> was super delicious. yum yum. thanks PUMA fer introducing that place. i loved the food there. i ate fried beehoon.mushroom cheese prata.salted lassi. banana prata with maple syrup. DELICIOUS!!!! hee.

then after eating till our hearts content, we decided to leave. Hid had to leave and so we waited fer her bus with her. haa. and what did we do while waiting?? take photos of course. hee. so much fun. then we went to Junction 8. went oni to minitoons. then headed to KFC, where we slacked fer a few minuttes and we were all soooooooo bored, we decided to go home. haa. reached home at 11.00pm. i am coming home more early now. yay!

and omg. my feet hurts big time. i dropped the big chunky padlock on my foot. damn pain siah. too much to bear. now, its red n swollen. argh!! and i mean it. ARGH!!

replies to tags
Jingxian .. hahahahahahahahhahaha.. u win babe! u win!

hidayah .. yaaaa laa. omg. thank god we took many many photos today!! hee

ting .. alamak.. what to do.. i busy siahh.. haa. i wanna go sentosa with you!!

ECP AMBER

BBQ at ECP rawked much. had fun. poor Ming tho. he was fasting and he is the one who started the fire and all. hee. Greg and Ming left early cause they had some family stuff ay some hotel. then only people started coming in.

talked crap and whatever not. and oh there were ard 6 indians. all so drama man. first the girl had an asthma attack. she fell and the friends rushed to give her the spray. and the thing is none of us noticed this except fer Perl!!!so cute can. then the indian girl vey emo went alone by the sea and cut her hand. then her friends came to the rescue and started scolding her. blabla.
hee. the thing is we were so inspired by the drama that we asked allyssa to take a video of us re-enacting what happened. hee.damn funny can.

and oh. i CYCLED!! omg yes i did. tho i was very nervous of falling down. its been ages since i cycled. but i knew i could do it. so, i took the bic and off i went. going all the sideways, losing control of the bike. allyssa was like '' wait! i am coming!'' but knowing me, i just believe in learning by myself. only then can i do it right. so i went. allyssa follwed. hee. and within a few minutes i was cycling like i owned the area. hee. so fun. and feel content. so up fer cycling anyone??

hee. ate alot alot. and thanks to eugene who was the cook fer the day until hid came and stole his business. hee. Amber rawks many man. i love AMBER!!

ECP!

i hate MSN!! stoopid siah. i hate it when ppl dont receive my msges n i cant receive msges. Argh.
but then when i finally do receive the msg ah, its like i am so happy. LOL.

oh my oh my! cant wait fer tmr!! ECP!! yay! can see amber peeps. at least those who are coming. haa. anyway, i have been slacking at home. sick can. i hate this. and i chatted with pink today. am so glad to chat with her. been like ages talking to her. was laughing in the mrt like crazy talking to her. man. miss her siah. and she will not be coming for BRP dinner. she gotta go malaysia. hee. hope she has a good time.

and tmr got no giovanni tuition. yay! and oh i forgot to say. Hay loved the present i got him. lol. he was like kissing my hands saying i rawk. LOL. and surprisingly he listened to me today. did not monkey ard. it saved me alot of work. haa. i did not have to stare at him. hee.

randomness

issnt it just so funny how ppl say they miss u but dont wanna compromise on their time to meet you just so that they can spend time elsewhere? goodness.. that attitude is indeed laughed to scorn. thought u will change your mind. but i guess u are so used to me explaining everything to you that u have even stopped thinking fer urself.. THINK. u aint gonna use up all ur brain cells by doing so anyway. THINK!

anger management

i have no idea but i have been losing my temper over small things. like everything irritates me. and i have actually quarelled with some of my friends over small issues. feel damn bad now man. im really sorry. hais. anyway, i am going east coast on wed fer the amber outing! cant wait!! yay!

mich: okies sure babes!! yay!

den:lol. nothing at all. i scare myself can.

jess: hey!! miss u so much!! lepak soon kie..

cheena babes rawk!

went out with zaed yesterday. did stoopid stuff. had lots of fun. hee..
i even went high in the air. lol. somethingi am scared of.. hee.
and today went i woke up and walked into my hall, i saw a LETTER.
and it was for ME!! and i knew who is was from.
My one and only Cheena babi!! more like Cheena babes! Vanessa!!
and i was like so happy i eagerly opened it and saw...

a badge that van gave saying it reminded her of me.

and this a letter card from her. so nice can she. haio.

i love my cheena babes so much. she has been a great friend and i love her alot!!
thank you babe!! =)

last day of werk!!

it is the last day of werk tmr! am i glad!! heee.. gonna go out with all my friends the whole of next week. yes ahh.. anyway i had a great day today tho i was sick. haa. first, there is this chinese guy who always says i laugh. comeone man. i DO laugh. but whats ur prob ryte.. then today he came up to me and said ' wah. nevr laugh today ah?' then i smiled and said ' today sick la. got mc. no need to laugh today! as u already know what i said was not much of a joke but that fella was laughing as tho i told him something funny. lOL. and even complimented ' good one!'LOL.

then had to entertain weird people and their questions as usual. after work while going down to cold storage, we saw the indian security man and hid and were laughing. he said '' wah! always see u laughing!!so happy ah'' and laughed his way to the exit. and within a few seconds of him saying that, some other chinese fella whom we have not seen before, went '' always laughing..'' LOL.. damn funny can that moment.

oh and guess what. i realised the train i took terminates at yishun oni after hid and i boarded it and oni when we reached yishun. LOL. no wonder it was not crowded.. hee. got off the train and waited fer the next one. Saw sivabalan my pri sch fren. then took the train to BB! while walking to cross the road to walk thru the park to my home, i saw Eugene. He was with his other friends. walked thru the park, enjoying every momeny of it.side track abit ah, i love walking in the park. i used to walk early in the morning. it was so beautiful and nice. now i love to walk at night. so relaxing man. i mean its so cooling. so matter how fast i waslk, i dont perspire. like so carefree.

after the walk in the park, went to Gio's house to teach tuition. Thought him and then headed home. man. my mother fried hot dogs. OMG... i love hot dogs.. been ages since i ate them. i mean i eat it often in school but now that its hols, i rarely get to eat it.. yep. that was my day. cant wait fer tmr!! LAST DAY OF WORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =)


replies to tags..

den:lol. i do not call u that. at least not recently. okie. at least not yesterday. i made extra effort to mind my words u know.. =)

vin: omg. stop wasting time!! go n sightsee!!

chooo: of course babe!!! i wanna.. i was prayin fer this day all along!! =) next week i am free!! book me.!!

hid: you online? cant see u!! as usual!!

jenn: omg!!! yes ys.. i had fun with u tooo.meet up more ya..=)

beauty of grace

Krystal Meyers

Beauty of Grace

Tell me why do you run?

You say you’re so ashamed

Bruised and broken

Thought if I figured out the mess you made

Then I will leave

But anywhere you are

Is never too far away

There’s freedom from your scars

The mistakes that you’ve made

Forgiven

The memories erased

Baby, that’s the beauty of grace

La de da, la de da da

Tell me what is love?

I’ll never hold you to

The things you may have done

You say you want new life

In My arms there’s mercy

So blow a kiss goodbye

To all the pain you hide