happy is meena

my phone is really going mad!

it goes off on its own.

it has a life of its own i believe!

annd i got scolded because it kept going off!

ITS NOT MY FAULT DAMNIT!

it was really rushing today.

took cab with little cash and NO ATM CARD!

(My ATM card was with the head.)

i had to get back home before the head comes back.

THANK ALMIGHTY HEAVENS,

it costs lesser than what i had. -phew-

i got back back replies to all those whom i had personally emailed.

was really nice to hear from them.

oh, i received many love from them.

YEAHS AHHHHH! (:

talked to prakash today! so reminds me of raj!

the same way of talking, everything also same same!

and he insists my mother is from india from the way she talks.

or rather the way she pronounced his name!

prakash is really funny! cuteness! (:

he brushed his teeth while on the phone with me!

im gonna be 21 soon! (: YAYNESS!

i miss.

i miss.

my throat painful.

my throat is painful ):

sorry peng!

IM SORRY SOCK PENG ):

help me jesus

i have disappointed you again. im sorry dearest J!

i love you most.

more than anything else in the world.

i know i have not been showing it in my actions.

please forgive me and fill me once again.

i wanna be filled by you.

forgive me.

DRAW ME CLOSE

Draw me close to You
Never let me go
I lay it all down again
To hear You say that I'm Your friend
You are my desire
No one else will do
'Cause nothing else could take Your place
To feel the warmth of Your embrace
Help me find the way
Bring me back to You
You're all I want
You're all I've ever needed
You're all I want
Help me know You are near

smile missing

i vent my anger for someone on someoneelse.

i felt damn bad! im really sorry!

the most stupid mistake i could make!

its sad to see happy people sad.

it just broke my heart to see you that way!

that smile was missing.

is tehre anyone out there

is there anyone out there cause its getting harder and harder to breathe!

growing up

two people within the last two weeks, have asked me how i am able to be so happy and smiley everyday. i just smiled and said that i am happy. But deep down inside, i dont know. many a time, i realise that i smile to cover up my sadness. of late, i have been really sad and worried. but no one knows. they get deceived by the smiles. and after a while, i feel like so hollow. its almost like living a lie. the feeling is bad. things are definitely not as simple as i thought it will be. Growing up sucks big time!

chocolate chip cookies

DID YOU SAY CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIES? (: