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1. Story behind your profile song?# none. Just like it.

2. What's bothering you right now?# assignments. Hate them.

3. Where do you live?# bukit batok =)

DESCRIBE YOUR:

4. Wallet?# eh. Simple.

5. Background on your cell phone?# none. I like it simple and nice.

6. Your best friend?# =)

7. Where was your default picturetaken?# Salvation army

8. Eyes: black ah. I think.

9. Life?: fun

WHAT ARE YOU:

10. Doing this weekend?# prolly doing ym assignments and going to church.

11. Wearin?:#black shirt and shorts.

12. Wanting?:# to get rid of assignements.

13. Listening to?:# what’s left of me

14. What do you smell?:# my pillow

15. Eating?:# peanut butter cookies in bed.

DO YOU:

16. believe in soul mates?:# I guess so.

17. sleep naked?:# neh.

18. Like seafood?:# hell yeah!

19. Remember your dreams?:# yes. I just wrote abt it in myprevious entry.

20. Consider yourself a study freak?:# haha. No.

21. Believe in miracles?:# yes!!

22. Speak another language other thanEnglish?:# tamil. And broken malay and mandarin.

24. What's something you wish you couldunderstand better?:# people.

25. What did you do last weekend?:# I forgot. Heeeee.

26.Do you miss someone now?:# not really.

27. Orange or apple juice?:# apple.

28. Who was the last person you wentout to lunchwith?:# I hd lunch at home.

29. Who did you send your last textto?:# ben

30. Who was the last one to send you atext?:# ben

31. Last time you ate a home growntomato?:# eh?

32. Would you rather have love ormoney?:# love =)

33.What time did you go to sleep atlast night?:# about 1. I think.

34. What time did you wake up at?:# around 1pm

35. The most annoying sound(s) in theworld?:# eh. Can’t think of any.

36. Last person you hugged?:# pink!

37. Best hugger you know?:# this aint no award. Its abt how sincere a hug is.

38. Who do you hate right now?:# nobody. And I don’t want anyoneto hate me. If that’s possible..

39. Whats one thing you regret?:# I don’t know man.

40.Who is the most important person inthe worldto you?:# the one who gave me life!

crashed

owheee!!

i forgot to say just now. i had a dream yesterday. two dreams actually.

one was about this friend of mine who has a family problem. and the person is like so so helpless. in my dream, i was there for that person. and the person was like really broken. i mean it was somesort of the same problem that the person is in actual fact going thru now la. coincidental man.

second was a lil scary. i dreamt of the guy. the vending machine guy. omg. i dreamt that he wanted revenge and he used alot of indian guys to take revenge. there were like this whole group of indian guys who blocked BR's way. then they allowed everyone else to go thru except me.

i woke up after that man. i hate this kinda things. so regarding the first dream, i talked to the person about it. the person was feeling much better. i know the person will make it thru. stay stong okies =)

and regarding the second dream, i went to the vending machine guy's friendster. he seems like a normal guy.happy go lucky type. not as psychotic as i dreamt him to be. so whatevs. its just a stupid dream. don't mean anything. and oh, i like the song in his friendster. super nice tamil song. emo abit lah, but nice man. i like!! i should listen to more tamil songs. nice ones i mean.

and i am feeling really tired now. gonna crash. =)

funny day

was really stressed yesterday with the DAC assignment. and i dunno why but everything was goin wrong. i felt so tired and all and my back was more than just painful. i was using my lappie in the kitchen as everyone else was like sleeping so happily in my house. then the stress that i have been feeling all along just hit me and i started crying al of a sudden. Classic moment. i cried like a baby. mouth open big big and like so dumb.

But, i still managed to get my assignment done with the help of the one who is always wit me.and pammie pam pam was realy so so sweet to print the work for us. owe her one man. =)

and today was a sleepy day. i had barely 3 hours of sleep the night before. so i was like almost gonna shut down anytime. but i held on. (tune in head - keep holding on.. we'll make it through..) and i did. finally the lessons were like over! yeahs. and then i have no idea where the energy came from but all of us were like suddenly all so alive and mad. and yes, mad is what we are.

went to have lunch at TCC. and yeaps. food was filling and super delicious. -yum yum- chilled there and then we parted ways. Pink hid and i went to dhoby xchange. got a gift for nicole. i love the gift. heee. then hid and i went to meet nicole and then hid and i had to go off to clarke quey. to meet my sister. i had to take the passport photo to apply for the Visa to go india. and then i was using the darn machine and it was all so fake. my smile was so fake. but whatevs!

took the photo and went to sis's office to give e photo so that she can apply for Visa. and then it was again down to hid and me. we ate at macs. and and it was really funny how hid and i were hving this very normal conversatin when this guy beside us just so had to fart like damn loudly. sounded like ta bomb just exploded or something. and guess what. he actually tilted so that the he could like fart so freely. Hid and i were like laughing and luaghing non stop la. but i being the clever one choked on my drink. and i felt so horrible. but even then, since i was not over the farting incident, i was like laughing non stop feeling like real horrible. rushed to the toilet and puked. heee.

and after feeling so relieved, we started to laugh at the incident all over again. dumbness i tell u. we get high on air.heee.. and then we were very tired and we were just more than happy to go home. and we hit back from marina bay. very tiring. in the train. encounter with malay guys again. they keep staring. and then one even followed hid. poor girl. she was like calling me and was feeling so damn scared. i so know the feeling la. these people ah. scare us to such an extent that we are like in a trauma. Thank god like nothing happened to her la.

finally at home and feeling relaxed. i need my sleep. but ah, i know my friend needs me. so i am gonna forgo my sleep for a lil longer to help my friend.

goodnite mates!

take all of me

God is good. He keeps us safe. something is terribly going wrong. BUT, my God is an awesome God. He does his miracles and saves us in due time. i really really love him.

Hillsong - take all of me

You broke the night like the sun

And healed my heart with Your great love

Any trouble I couldn't bear

You lifted me upon Your shoulders

Love that's strongerLove that covers sin

And takes the weight of the world

I love You

All of my hope is in You

Jesus Christ take my life

Take all of me

You stand on mountain tops with me

With You i walk through the valleys

You gave Your only Son for me

Your grace is all I rely on

I love You so, and I give up my heart to say
I need You so, my everything

friday friday

class was at 2pm today. but went to school earlier to do project. after barely one hour of work, my tummy was like giving problems. it was like so painful. and i grew silent. when in pain, i shut up. went to megabites to eat. the distance from library to SIM really seemed alot when u have a tummyache and nothing but water in ur stomach.

could not eat more than half of the food. after lunch, slacked outside class. and i realise that there are like alot of new people at blk 52. wonder where they come from man. class ended very early today. stayed back for a while to discuss CIR. after that, we went to the atrium to slack. slacked til ard 5.40 then went off to meet my sister at bugis. wheee!

went ard in bugis. damn crowded lah. bought jeans. going again next wednesday. was so tired after walking. sis and i took 66 and headed home. its nicet o be at home resting after a long day. =)

and i am tired. oh, i might be going to tekka tmr.. go shop and get prepared to go for india. heee!

stained glass masquerade

Are we happy plastic people

Under shiny plastic steeples

With walls around our weakness

And smiles to hide our pain

i really don't know why but i feel really disturbed when i see fake-ness. i really don't wanna be fake. but when i see some things that people do that are fake, i get the urgh feeling. i can almost like turn into anniyan.

i do not want friends for entertainment purposes only. there has to be something more. something which makes u feel connected. else, it will not last. i have been really thinking about friendship for maybe a week now. its just hard to say who are ur good friends.

one thing is for sure tho. i will always value the people who have been there in my bad times. i infact value them more then anyone else. its because there was something more than just fun, something more than just laughing. theres a understanding between me and those who stood by me. that is what takes the friendship one step higher.

oh. and i like hugs from my friends. but, just don't overdo it. i have seen many hugs and i have also seen what happens behind the scenes. a warm hug on the front for others to see but, it ends up in gossiping about the person when the person is not ard. its dumb. mean every hug and word u say. else, u can just shut up and save your hugs.

and i can post this without any care cause this is my point of view and furthermore, it is not directed at anyone. its just that i had to get it out of me.

tuesday..

had lunch at canteen one with one of the most nicest hot guys ever. his nick is shingo is seems. haha. super nice guy. he is din's friend. so pink, hidayah and i ate with these guys(din, edward and shingo- the hot guy) here is a photo which i took using hid's phone but the photo is blurred because that shingo guy happened to see that i was taking a photo of him. how dumb of me. thats like the second time where photo-taking was so obvious.

THAT GUY! SHINGO IS HIS NICK.

then guess what. saw the funny shingo. i FOC shingo. its like a total shingo day lah. had fun laughing at his silly jokes. damn funny man.


and here is the FOC shingo. he is an indian at heart. LOL.

went to library with dearest pam, fazzie, pink and hid. we had to find some books and articles on special education. and we had no where to sit. in desperate need, we went ard the library looking for space. we tried Magazine area. even the Cybercafe.even tried the ESPN room. no space lah. and there was this guy at our usual place. but we could not care less. we wanted to sit and that was it. we went there and sat. then the girls went to borrow the books while i looked after the things. i almost fell asleep lah.

then we did some work which i think was not more than 20 mins. haha. and then fazzie left to go to her childcare centre. and it was slack time for us. the leftovers -pink, hid, me, pam and kenneth were slacking. we laughed, we gossiped, we had fun.

take photos when u are bored!

and when u go to the washroom.

then it was time to go.hid and i went to far east plaza to meet fazzie to have dinner. food was delicious. and oh, we saw a trainee who looked like taufik batisah. he had a plaster on his neck. fazzie said it was love bite then he wanna hide from his mother. LOL. damn cute la. but its a assumption. we do not even know who he is. hahaha.

then it was time to go and we left for home. i took the train home. and guess what it was like so packed. and some malay guys came in. argh. i tell u ah, its damn irritating when we are already standing so close due to space contraint. and this malay guy just had to brush his hand on my arm to hold the handle next to me. HAIO. for goodness sake, we girls can feel when someone touches accidently or on purpose. it is disgusting. really look down upon these guys. what pleasure do u get from it? psychos.

took the bus home instead of walking. was damn tired. but nothing stopped me from blogging. i had fun in school today and thats it! =)

one moment more - mindy smith

this song is by mindy smith. and she wrote it for her mum. damn nice. i like it muchos. and i think the images from ' a walk to remember' really suits the song. sweeeet!

Hold me

Even though I know you're leaving

And show me

All the reasons you would stay

It's just enough to feel your breath on mine

To warm my soul and ease my mind

You've got to hold me and show me now

Give me

Just one part of you to cling to

And keep me

Everywhere you are

It's just enough to steal my heart and run

And fade out with the falling sun

Oh, please don't go

Let me have you just one moment more

Oh, all I need

All I want is just one moment more

You've got to hold me and keep me

Tell me that someday you'll be returning

And maybeMaybe I'll believe

It's just enough to see a shooting star

To know you're never really far

It's just enough to see a shooting star

To know you're never really gone

weird stuff i tell u

isnt it really weird that vin, bala and jenn all got food poisoning the same week as me, sister and rachel? thats like six of us man. and we all had jabs. weird eh?

inside my heart =)

isnt it very sweet when someone says he/she has a place for u in his/her heart? i think its like the sweetest thing. haha. and i like this song. kid-ish or whatever u may say,i think its a nice song! wheee!

sick

having the runs and serious vommiting aint good, at all. makes u feel so weak. and its especially bad when u and ur sis happen to get it at the same time. one whole night without sleep and rushing tot eh most favourite place which happened to be the toilet. it made us feel so terrible. visited the doc and got an injection each. sis went to another doc and paid $25. i went later to another doc and paid $48. my heart could almost bleed man. but it did not matter since my body was like disfunctioning and i just could not wait to feel better.

i feel much better now. Thank God for that. and of course my mummy who took great care of me. =)

hopnite

first of all, i need to thank pam and fazzie for their card which is so so sweeeeeeeet. i wonder how long they took to search for the photos with all of us in it. it is really damn sweeet man. i love it. thanks so much guys. love u so much! =)

and oh. let me say about friday. it was hopnite. was nice actually. Hashim and Pris won. yeah! they really deserved to win man. and food was delicious. and dancing was good i guess. did not really like the music. oh wells, its over now. and i kinda enjoyed it.

and oh, i am going to the zoo tmr. got free tix thanks to dad. so i am gonna have fun tmr.! yeah!

i really like linkin park's new songs. really awesome. and no, i did not download them. haha. i had a fun time in school today. pink, hidayah, fazzie, pam and i went to have our lunch. then, hid,pink and i went to shop ard for the hopnite stuff. it was really tiring man. like alot of work was done when all we did was to go through some clothes, shoes and accessories. and as always, i took the the simple stuff while hidayah and pink sourced out for glam stuff.

both hidayah and pink look really glam with their new clothes and all. =) damn pretty la both of them. i look errr, simple but not sweet.

and oh, after that hid and i headed down to lil india to go eye brow threading. and we were like totally exhausted after all the shopping. we met my sista who had to go to the travel agency to collect our tix for going india. went to eat mee goreng and bee hoon goreng. was really nice man. then we headed off to the bus stop and hid took 851 home while i took 66 home. it is a tiring day. i am gonna sleep like right now.

goosnite mates!

i am really pissed. i mean when ur friends meet a new guy or girl, that's it. it's as if they have entered a whole new dimension and nothing else matters. friends are taken for granted. only thing that fills the mind will be the person. it's really okay if these last a while. the whole love thingie taking over and all. but it's so not okay if the only person you can now ever imagine is him/her.

friends will be forgotten. it's as if they never existed. but the truth is tat when the friend and the guy/girl has a problem/quarrel, suddenly they remember their friends. they run to them and pour out their hearts on the bf/gf and the problem and hoe very affected they are about it. it's damn irritating. i am only human. i really can't take it man. i want to know about your life, yes, but please don't push me too far by going on and on only about the person.

it's really funny how the gf/bf is like the only thing the person ever talks about. all the things he/say says are like praising the other party to the heavens. but once there is a problem, they will go all on about what a jerk/ bitch the gf/bf has been. its stupid.

argh!

i am really pissed. i mean when ur friends meet a new guy or girl, that's it. it's as if they have entered a whole new dimension and nothing else matters. friends are taken for granted. only thing that fills the mind will be the person. it's really okay if these last a while. the whole love thingie taking over and all. but it's so not okay if the only person you can now ever imagine is him/her.

friends will be forgotten. it's as if they never existed. but the truth is tat when the friend and the guy/girl has a problem/quarrel, suddenly they remember their friends. they run to them and pour out their hearts on the bf/gf and the problem and hoe very affected they are about it. it's damn irritating. i am only human. i really can't take it man. i want to know about your life, yes, but please don't push me too far by going on and on only about the person.

it's really funny how the gf/bf is like the only thing the person ever talks about. all the things he/say says are like praising the other party to the heavens. but once there is a problem, they will go all on about what a jerk/ bitch the gf/bf has been. its stupid.

argh!

jenn jenn

class was rather interesting. as usual, we had to do group work and a bunch of us headed outside the classroom to do it. was okay. was really bored after a while tho. did not really understand what the others were talking about. saw tania and sarah leaving to enter the class. the reason was pretty obvious. boredom took over. so i too decided to slack in the class instead. my foot was like so painful because of the blisters. i never knew it could heard this bad.

then i sat down and was quietly looking thru my things when i felt my hp vibrate. i opened it and saw a message. it was from jenn. it was such a lovely message. then i messaged her about how i was feeling then and she sent me a very sweet message. it really changed my mood. from having a dull and down mood, i began to feel better. its amazing how a simple but heartfelt message can do to u. thanks Jenn! =)

wheee!

vroom

vroom vroom vroom.

Happy birthday to me!

i am the happiest girl alive. not only because its my birthday but because i feel so loved by this someone whom i simply adore. OKAYOKAY. its my dearest JC. i did something really really bad a few days back. and thus, i felt very distanced from God. but but HE is just so sweet. i was like crying in the church today. his touch was so gentle but i somehow was trembling all over. i simply adore THE man. i dunno how to describe man. He spoke to me and said that He wil grant me the specific thing that i have praying for. actually i am a little confused on what it is myself. but well, its a birthday girft from him lah, so dont ask so much. just accept it right. haaha. anything from Him is like the best gift. =)

after church, i went with sis and aaron to chong pang. aaron wanted to get himself a phone. and so we went and sought out the hp he wanted and he bought it. so yeahs, Aaron has a new hp. then the three of us went to causeway point and slacked afterwich we went to the uncle ringo funfair at woodlands. we went on rides which we could never imagine. my most favourite one was the Vortex. its like super high and we all were like thrown around like as if we were three volleyballs or something. it was freaking scary. hows that for a thrill on my birthday eh. hahahah. our throats were like completely dry when we touched ground. it was awesome. but too scary. i dare all u people reading this to go an try that ride. u'll go WHEEEEEE!!

and and and.. i got many many messages, wishes and prezzies. i feel so blessed. i feel more touched by the messages tho. i never expected some people to wish me man. hahaha. okieokie.. must not be too happy.. hahaha. but cant help it man.. =)

i had a great day.. so let me just wish a Happy Birthday to kenneth adn chris who have the same birthday as me! =)

goodnite mates!

fridays

iqbal, meena, and benedict all have birthdays in may. so they decided to hang out together to eat out so that they could celebrate. but someone by the name of vin whose birthday is not in may decided to join us. unwanted company aint it. heee. actually, t was not at all. in fact, he was the life of the clique. i can't believe he was still going strong despite his injuries.

it was really fun hanging out at causeway pt. we ate fish and chips at swensens. as usual, someone could not finish the food and i had to eat it up. hahah. actually, i don't mind eating the extra food at all. =) and so our day went on and the three dudes were like so nice to get me a gift which is so sweeet. one was like handmade and it so rocked lah. but i did not accpet the one which ben bought tho. heee. and he knows why.heee.

and then we had to go off and i went to meet hid in BB interchange to go to school. we went to class. and oh we were complimentated. when i say 'we', i meant pink, hidayah, myself, syahira, pam and fazzie. those who were sitted at the back row. Mrs Koh, our lecturer said that we were a lively group but we focus on the lesson which was good. so sweeet lah she. for once we got a compliment!

then it me fazzie pink and hidayah went to marina square to have dinner. a dinner which was later a birthday surprise. so sweet man these people. i love them lah. i got prezzies and the most impt self made birthday card. i somehow since young preferred people to make things for me. it meant that i was worth something that they talk time to actually make something for me instead of heading to the streets to just grab something. i loved everything about today. it was good. =) thank u guys so much!

and then headed home. chatted with mathan. i felt so bad that i labelled him to be a arrogant indian guy when he was actually kinda nice. so i apologised. i have been apologising to many people lately. its just that i feel that i should do so. hahaha.

i am going church tmr in the morning. i wanted to go because i feel bad once again. God had been there for me for like 19 years and i ought ot give him the most impt place in my life. so its him i turn to early on my birthday. he is my best friend. i love him. omg, i feel so shy. hahahha =)

goodnite mates.

wednesday wackiness.

had a rather long day. school was from 8.30am to 1pm. Mrs Koh's lecture was kinda short. was okay. at least we had a video and some activities to do before and after the lecture. so it was nice. Then, came the next lesson. Sukuna's lesson. was okay as well. kinda dry. and oh it just aint nice when u get ur name called out like so many times. especially when someone else is like talking in class and my clique has to take the blame for it. damn irritating lah.

after class, when to canteen 1 to have lunch with pink , hid, fazzie and pam. it has been like three weeks since we last ate there. so the food tasted extra nice. as usual, we laughed alot. had fun. but syahira was not there tho. and i miss hanging out with meiting and pris.

after that, pink, hid and i headed to library. watched 13 going on 30. and pink cried as always. drama siah. the three of us then chilled for a while then were going home when we decided to drop by the amb booth to speak to dearest allyssa. she was like so busy working on her things. but she came aside to talk to us lah.

i hope everything is fine for her. i hate it when problems just keep finding her when she just finds her own business and moves on with life. but she is a strong babe! she will be just fine. =)

and i am kinda happy. its because i have messaged the indian guy in friendster. hahaha. its just some incident but it is kinda silly and funny when i look back. hidayah said she remembered the incident tho. anyways, matters solved! yeah! and oh. i even asked the person if the person was gay. but thats only because he said something about straight and i was very confused. i feel bad about calling him gay tho. but nvm, if i do happen to see him, i will defeinately apologise. =)

yeah! go have fun man.

vending machines

okay. now i am like totally affected. been really thinking of all the vending machines and what i did wrong. i have no idea why i let this matter disturb me so much. i cant sleep now lah. argh. so what exactly did i do wrong? the question remains.

labour day eh?

and so its a public holiday. went to ECP for church picnic. expected it to be extremely boring. but i think it was not tooo bad. there were times that i really regretted coming. and there were other times that i actually thought it was fun.
whatever it is, it is over.

after picnic was over, i finally decided to change my clothes to go to my grannys. i changed my clothes and had to wear slippers along with it. that only because i am so brilliant that i only brought clothes and no shoes. and so i looked like a total dork. like some indian maid taking the day off as it is afterall labour day.

was heading towards clementi in the train when my sis and i 'ran into' malcolm and mathan. and within the 1 minute conversation that we had, my sister had drawn up her conclusions about the two guys. she agreed with me that mathan was action papaya. and malcolm was a nice guy. my sentiments exactly. and i even think that they themselves know that.

and so we went to grannys. and we slacked. was damn boring yet again. i dint say much. i always dont talk much when i am with this side of my family. i am so much more comfortable with my christian side of the family. but oh, ruban was nice enough to let me use the comp for a while. actually its only because i bugged him.

left for home. took cab. dad wanted to go to the pasar malam. had to follow. there is no choice in the SAD-ASS family. oh btw, my dad's name is sadasivam.
so we could secretly call him sad-as(s). its fun as long as HE does not hear it. it was so damn boring. he did not get us anything la.
i am so pissed man. whatever he says goes.

argh.

and oh. i received a friendster comment. and it was not good. this indian guy from np. he thinks i hate him. and he says i am his enemy. altho i dont know him. it kinda made me sad lah. i mean i dont even know u, why do u hate me right. but he says its due to some vending machine incident. it has to be me. i send all the wrong signals. i hope it will be alright.

okays now. i am kinda tired
and i need to sleep.
so nites all. =)