Be yourself!

i just realised that i have not expressed myself properly these few days. well, it could be because everything around me is too fake. and people GOSSIP when they dont agree with u. or it could just be me.

Things getting too fake. Everyone hugs each other. they say i love u so much! BUT! do they really mean it. cause actions and words seem to contradict each other. couples everywhere. but where is the true love? cause in just a month or two, i see the same person with someone else. Dont tell me thats love?im never gonna agree to that.and guess what. talking about love, Love is about giving, sharing, helping, caring and every good thing u can think of. but are the people doing it? they dont seem to care about others' ( family and friends) problems when they are facing with one. so much fer loving and all that load of crap. Loving a person is not that easy. learn to accept their flaws that come along with them and love them fer who they are.

People gossip when they dont agree with you. U know what? i really appreciate honesty. i expect people to trust each other and be honest with one another. but, is that what is happening here? Thats a downright NO fer u!! People lokk at you smile and go ' yes, i agree with you.' then go home and call each other and gossip. OMG!! GET A LIFE YOU LOSERS!! why cant you say things out in the open? everyones opinion matters. whatever u may wanna say, just say it aloud to the faces or everyone. dont even try to hide it cause everyone knows what u will do at home in your comfy lil bed when u call ur girlfrens to gossip. Please dont gossip. u are changing facts and creating ur own truths which u claim is THE TRUTH. if people were to stop gossiping, the world will be a much better place. seriously.

is it just me? cause i have been trying real hard to control my temper these days. so much to the extent that i keep my calm in situations where i can imagine myself to be blasting off. well, as ive mentioned to someone, it could be because i lower my expectations of people. Firstly, i realised that i get angry or rather disappointed then angry when people do not meet up to my expectations. so the best thing i could do is to lower my expectations of peeople so that they will not disappoint me and thus i will not get angry. so yes its true, i did not get angry. i remained calm. but then again, after i lowered my expectations of people, i feel like they mean a lil less. like everything is so carefree. but thats no bonding sort of thing. cause u are bound to have expectations on those around you. like ur family and frens. so i cant seem to figure out what i should do? any other ways of controlling ur temper without havin to compromise on bonds with others?

man. i feel so so relieved now. really. now that ive mentioned this, dont think that i am perfect or that i feel that i am perfect. but these are just my views and i have no problems sharing it. =) and yea. i will now go blog hoppping saying to my dearies that i love them. and i mean what i say.