pam pink and meeena

Learning to breathe

I'm learning to crawl

I'm finding that you

and you alone can break my fall

had a short day at school today. tutorial was really good. at least we had stuff to do instead of sitting down and listening to our dearest Mrs Koh whisper some very valuable information into our heads while we are busy chatting about where we are going after class is over.

slacked with pam and pink after school. and pam was saying she likes the name kevin and i liked vin and pink liked kenneth. i mean the difference is so big lah. vin and kevin are like so similar. but KENNETH? a lil too wide a gap, dont u think?

and then came the time where all the three of us learnt a valuable lesson which is not to flag for cab at the back gate bus stop. i think we had waited for ard 30 to 40 minutes. it was tiring i tell you. and then pam was like saying her prayer loud enough for me to hear. '' God, please send me a cab.''

and then we waited.

waited.

and waited.

and we saw a silvercab heading our way. we were really hoped it would stop. but as the cab approached us, we saw the driver digging for the sign thing which says the location of where the cab is heading. our faces showed signs of anxiety. and then we saw it. boldly written, WOODLANDS. it was exactly the place where our lil darling pam had to go. hows that for a prayer being answered? heee.

blogging

i have alot of things on my mind. some issues that i wanna talk about and some which i just wanna avoid. things i wanna talk about but situation is just not right. something is just missing. and of course there are things which i dont wanna talk about but it keeps coming up.

sometimes, i think that its only me who feels a certain way. but when i blog-hopped today, i realised that hey, i am not all that different. its good to know people too face similar problems and its enlightening to see how they see the whole situation in a total new way. oneof the posts in iqbal's blog really cheered me up. it was kinda deep but very true.

i love reading blogs.

wacky wed

wednesday was well, wacky i guess. it started out great. class was not too hard to handle. when i say too hard to handle, i mean it was not too boring that i had to fight the evil inside of me to stay awake. it was OKAY. but then again, i guess it was okay only because i was so busy drawing on my book and on my hands. oh whatevs!

after class was over, went to grab some sandwich and ate with pretty carina, sya and pink( who was not feeling too good.)then pink left for home. i decided to help out at the SU booth. sya and carina did the amb duty. it was really fun helping out at the SU booth. but i really hated this indian laydee there. she is from SDAR i think. she was really very irritating. i just dint like her and i also later realised that many of the people there dint like her too. so i am not mean to not like her and all u know.

and so duty ended and i deicided to meet allyssa and faz first before going to the dancefloor. yes yes. all thanks to much who gave us the tix. i boarded 52 to go bishan to meet them. and i just couldnt help but notice this guy with long hair get it. and yes, it was paultwohill. and then of course we could here the engine starting and off we went. so the bus ride seemed pretty normal until it slowed like all of a sudden and stopped. the lights went off. OKAY. pretty normal. then it started again and off we went again. 3-4 minutes later, it happened again.

well, now, it was getting to me. i mean i was getting late. i wanted to go to the dancefloor and the bus is like making me late. and u know me, i feel like laughing whenever something good OR bad happens to me. actually, i do laugh when nothing happens to me too. but anyways, the bus started and i was like really hoping it will not stop nimore. but it did. and this time, we had to go down and wait in the middle of the freakin highway. how dumb! then of course another 52 came and we got in. i was so tired by then.

i leaned on the bus standing as i could not get a seat in the already packed bus. the bus was like going at such a slow speed, i believe that i could have reached bishan if i had like crawled there or something. and then finally i met allyssa and faz. and the time was like 7 plus. and we decided NOT to go to the dancefloor afterall as it was too late. i was so damn tired. we headed to coffeebean and then i felt that i was near heavens gates when i said down on those chair.it was so comfortable. i wanted to sleep.

but thanks to both fazzie and allyssa who really woke me up with their stories and jokes. it was really funny. really cracked me up man. i really enjoyed the time with them. and oh iqbal came along. hahaah. this iqbal is not the one i know. its fazzie's BF. he is really shy but seems really nice. he so sweet la. came down after work to see the madgirl named fazzie to give her chocs. so sweet aint it? haha. then we left the place.

i was thinking that it was going to be a lonely journey home. but guesswhat? MY friend IQBAL came into the train ! hahaha. then it was a crazy journey home. really fun. then he got off at cck to meet vin. i headed home. i was really tempted to join them when he invited me tho. but NO! it would be fatal to go with them at that time. they get high at night. there will confirm be people laughing and peeing in their pants while laughing at their jokes.

and so i reached home at ard 11 plus. and boy was i glad that there was no school the next day!

awesome first day

first day of school was simply splendid. had fun in school. and yes.will have tues and thurs off the whole day now till week 7. awesome man!! i loved my day!! =))

first days

nithya has gone india. one less bestie with me now. -sighs- hope she finds nice friends. the whole idea of living in another country without your parents and in a hostel with ur friends sounds really cool. but i dont think i can ever manage tho.

okay. change of topic now. tmr is the first day of year 3!! thats right, YEAR 3!!! its exciting man. exciting yes but then again, i dont really want it to start as well. i have got used to hols man. also, i always feel anxious about first days. its like a new start. but thing is, i dont want it to end. seriously man, poly life is just so short. it ends before u even know it. and i know we will graduate in no time which is like scary. but oh wells, lets take one step at a time and go thru the first day well.

random yet again

i forgot to mention that i had gone to the city harvest service. they had this drama thing. kinda nice. and their clothes were all so nice la. so olden days.

draw me close to you - sonicflood

i was like really really bored. so i was going thru the songs that i have. then i saw this song which i never knew i had. its draw me close to you. it is such a great song. i fell in love with the song the moment i heard it. it really speaks every word of my heart.

i have not been praying and reading the bible. i felt distanced. then when i heard this song, i was just so overwhelmed man. i could feel the presence of God just surounding me. i really wanna just commit myself into God again. i wanna have a proper QT. i just wanna be daddy's girl.

'Lord, help me to be what you want me to be. Its tough and i just can't do it on my own. i need you. there is no life without you. please help me. speak to me.'

Draw me close to you.
Never let me go.
I lay it all down again.
To hear you say that im your friend.
You´re my desire.
No one else will do.
Cause no one else can take the place.
To fill the warmth of your embrace.
Help me find a way.
To bring me back to you.

You are all i want.
You are all i have ever needed
You are all i want.
Help me know you´re near.

a day with nithya

met up with nithya babes today. had fun catching up and all. we watched the freedom writers. it was nice man. then we ate at swensens. fish and chips is good but is alot man. cant finish. and oh i suddenly want to eat pork. heee.

good times

camp was awesome.. dont really know what i did for each day. haha. but it was really fun. some random shots of the camp.











and those were just a few of the many photos that we took. lazy to upload siah.

easter was great. i know many will not believe this but really I WAS DARKER. its true!! and i had to wear this white indian costume to church. i looked nigga man. trust me. had good food to eat. came home and slacked.

monday was good too. went to bb to collect camp photos from syahira. but guess what. the pics came up to 1 gb. so we could not burn it onto a cd. and hid and ira aslo had to rush off. so we decided to meet up on tues. i am meeting darling nithya on tues. cant wait!! then will be meeting my dearest syahira and hidayah!!

camp

back from foc. damn fun. update laters. =)

tuesday aur wednesday

tuesday. followed syahira to the ssdc to register for driving. first time i went there. there were like so many people there. it was sort of fun. then we headed to junction8. we ate at mac. we were like really full man. then we went to collect ira's photo. she was looking great as always. then we headed to esplanade. we were like two dumb kids man. we were bored so we played scissors paper stone and both our hands got like really red cause we had to like slap each other's hands. it was so painful. but it was fun. we went home from with like really red hands. and we both agreed that it was fun BUT painful.

wednesday. went to SU for meeting. met the crazy babes lina, jaime, steph and michelle. it was fun man. then after the meeting, me, hid and sya left to eat. so we headed to causewaypt. we had like tom yum ban mian and spicy u mian. was okay la. as usual, i loved my tom yum flavour. but could not eat finish man. it was like such a huge bowl. then i saw Shahirah and Shana! what a coincidence man. chatted with them for a while. then headed home sweet home.

gosh. i am really gonna rest well man. and oh, my dad bought me a keyboard. hee.. so am gonna be playing it like till i get bored all over again..

hols are no good!

i am a happy girl.

things are fine now.

glad that bro's okay.

Grandpa's one year death anniverary coming.

camp is also coming soon.

dont really have the mood.

i feel so weird now man.

really want holidays to end.

hospital

bro is in hospital.

so much of drama going on.

things are left hanging.

everyone is stressed!

and i have no one to talk to.

i hate this situation.

sum 41

okay.. and so my mother thought that i was listening to some bhangra music when i was actually listening to sum 41. i mean sum 41 and bhangra are like worlds apart. and guess what. she actually sang along to the ''hey! hey! hey!'' part of the song no reason- sum41. gosh! imagine that! what other sign does anyone need to show that the world is heading towards disaster?-gasps-

SUM 41 LYRICS

"No Reason"

All of us believe

That this is not up to you

The fact of the matter is

That it's up to me

Hey, Hey, Hey

Hey, Hey, Hey

Let's Go

How can we fake this anymore (anymore)

Turn our backs away, and choose to just ignore (choose to just ignore)

(Some say) Some say it's ignorance

It makes me feel some innocence

(Some say) It takes away a part of me

But I won't let go

Tell me why can't you see, it's not the way (not the way)

When we all fall down, it will be too late

Why is there no reason we can't change (no reason)

When we all fall down, who will take the blame

What will it take

Nothing could ever be this real (be this real)

A life unsatisfied that I could never feel (I could never feel)

(Some say) This future's not so bright

Some can't make the sacrifice

(Some say) It's much more than just black and white

And I won't follow

get well

i just can't seem to contact pink at all man.

i really was like trying to figure how her father was.

heard from Hid that he is okay.

Thank God he is okay.

hope he recovers really soon.

visit to grannys

went to my granny's place.the people were all there. we were listening to the christian songs and deciding which ones to put for the one year death anniversary for my grandpa. i listened to the really really old tamil christian songs and they were like so nice to listen to man. like so pure and the words like from the bottom of the heart. classic man.

after that, patti, jay, aaron, david, rachel and i went to the other granny's place. met her and chat with her for a while. it was good to see her man. i really think old people are like strong inside. my grandma for example, she lost her husband on 31/3/06 and lost her brother on 13/4/06. thats like within 2 weeks from each other. and she is still like going strong. it really amazes me on how she just leaves it to God and goes on. Sometimes, when things do not go our way, we really question God. We ask him why things went that way and why He dint do anything to prevent it. Then again, we have to ask ourselves ' who are we to question the one who created you?'

okay. i think im going off-topic. hmm. well, after visiting the other grandma, david, aaron, rachel and i went to hougang mall. we were like going crazy man. we walked around like for so long until we got really really tired. then we headed back home. and then of course, the aunties have lots of food stuff to give my mum. so i had to transport it back home to my mum. haa. came home ard 11. really tired.

results

results are out!

the results were kinda good despite me slacking all the way.

i hope my dad gives me cash as reward for my results!

random stuff

okay. and so i did chat with my brother for the first time in msn. it was very weird i tell you. it seems like a normal conversation but its really far from normal. its weird. it goes like this.

sasi says:
hi
sasi says:
hey, im out nw at lan shop
meena says:
ian shop?
sasi says:
lan, computer shop with joe
meena says:
oh okay
meena says:
u coming home tonight?
sasi says:
playing game
sasi says:
dun know what time i cum home, maybe very late, leave the keys by the table
meena says:
okie..
meena says:
its there by the table..
meena says:
have fun playing games. LOL.
sasi says:
u
sasi says:
2
sasi says:
bye bye bye bye

That was the convo. now, i viewed all the people who had viewed me. and i found this person who happened to be Filipindian(Half Indian/half Filipino). that person wrote 'I would also like to live one day in the shoes of a shoe' under the about me area. i felt that the sentence was pretty interesting.

i am being so random. i am so bored. oh i did not go to the sentosa outing.dint really feel like it. heeee. but wanna go out with the people who have been not-so-active in my life.

good camp

camp was good!

photo time baybeh!

Black Rouge

babes in blue

sleeping

me n allyssa

devils

randomness

eh. balls.

balls 2

balls 3

the united four. BLACK ROUGE

the people

timon and me

steph darling n me

only hid and me were to be on the photo.

that kinda explains why the rest of their

faces are distorted.

shingo and me

kelvin me romeo

reeena n meeena

meena hidayah lina

lina meena

monyets

half ira.kid.meena.hid

me jun wei

me iggy

me gilbert

far me

fabian me

chek whye me

me din

din me

booked in yet?

here i am.
i should have already booked in by now.
but i did not do so.
i am not in the mood for camp.
BR supposed to spend the night out today.
but i did not go.
was really really tempted to tho.
but i chose not to go.
just had this feeling that i shouldnt go.
pls tell me i made the right decision.

i am like supposed to book in tmr.
i still have not packed.
maybe i shant book in tmr too.
i dunno man.

church was good today.
i was more like reading the bible instead of listening to the sermon.
i dint know got so many rules during the old times man.
the sentence for almost any sin was like death.
scary man.

i am so bored. oh i know.
i could go read my new book.
have been into reading novels recently.
am addicted.