flag a cab

i flagged down a police cab thinking its it was cab. and the police car stopped and the policemen smiled at me! (: i was freaked out but i smiled. ah! what a day!

):

why do i get stuck in the middle while trying to help? how is it that a call gets directed somewhere else and someonelse spoke on the phone? Did you even make sure it was the right number before you raised your baseless assumption? what kind of prank was that that got me really worried about my loved one.

whatever it is, i hope my loved one does not get hurt. it just hurts me to see him without a smile. i want him and his girl to be happy and i will do anything for that.

i have been feeling so feverish and i get bad coughs at times but still i stood strong. even the doctor said, you are not allowing yourself to fall ill. i wish i get better. i should just fall ill and get it over and done with perhaps!

RAJ CALLED

Raj called me yesterday! His good friend Jeremy James is actually my second cousin! The son of the only guy whom i dislike in my mother's side of the family! DANNY! of all people!! Man, this country is really small i must say!

Shana called me again today! (: so glad to hear her say something! (: double yes AHH!! Im feeling really feverish but im happy!

i quit

i quit!

its harder than i expected!

i miss u

i miss you!

dad

Everyone wished me but YOU!

happy is meena

my phone is really going mad!

it goes off on its own.

it has a life of its own i believe!

annd i got scolded because it kept going off!

ITS NOT MY FAULT DAMNIT!

it was really rushing today.

took cab with little cash and NO ATM CARD!

(My ATM card was with the head.)

i had to get back home before the head comes back.

THANK ALMIGHTY HEAVENS,

it costs lesser than what i had. -phew-

i got back back replies to all those whom i had personally emailed.

was really nice to hear from them.

oh, i received many love from them.

YEAHS AHHHHH! (:

talked to prakash today! so reminds me of raj!

the same way of talking, everything also same same!

and he insists my mother is from india from the way she talks.

or rather the way she pronounced his name!

prakash is really funny! cuteness! (:

he brushed his teeth while on the phone with me!

im gonna be 21 soon! (: YAYNESS!

i miss.

i miss.

my throat painful.

my throat is painful ):

sorry peng!

IM SORRY SOCK PENG ):

help me jesus

i have disappointed you again. im sorry dearest J!

i love you most.

more than anything else in the world.

i know i have not been showing it in my actions.

please forgive me and fill me once again.

i wanna be filled by you.

forgive me.

DRAW ME CLOSE

Draw me close to You
Never let me go
I lay it all down again
To hear You say that I'm Your friend
You are my desire
No one else will do
'Cause nothing else could take Your place
To feel the warmth of Your embrace
Help me find the way
Bring me back to You
You're all I want
You're all I've ever needed
You're all I want
Help me know You are near

smile missing

i vent my anger for someone on someoneelse.

i felt damn bad! im really sorry!

the most stupid mistake i could make!

its sad to see happy people sad.

it just broke my heart to see you that way!

that smile was missing.

is tehre anyone out there

is there anyone out there cause its getting harder and harder to breathe!

growing up

two people within the last two weeks, have asked me how i am able to be so happy and smiley everyday. i just smiled and said that i am happy. But deep down inside, i dont know. many a time, i realise that i smile to cover up my sadness. of late, i have been really sad and worried. but no one knows. they get deceived by the smiles. and after a while, i feel like so hollow. its almost like living a lie. the feeling is bad. things are definitely not as simple as i thought it will be. Growing up sucks big time!

chocolate chip cookies

DID YOU SAY CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIES? (:

shana is leaving

shana is leaving today.

to melbourne!

i really hope she likes it there.

i know there will be alot of emo stuff going on in the airport.

hugs and kisses mixed with tears.

im so happy for her that she is doing what she wants. (:

and yes i know i make it sound like

shana has been my bestie forever.

but she's one girl i got to know recently.

and yes, as what my cousin says,

its hard not to fall in love with her.

really wish the best for her!

TAKE CARE SHANA! (:

and just a random picure of me and my sister! (:

23 march 09

Oh how time flies!

thanks iqbal for coming down all the way from pasir ris to boon lay just to check if im alright! im super touched! (: i really value the time i had with you today. thanks for being a shoulder to cry on. and i felt so much better and i had a smile on my face once again! many thanks IQQQQQBAL! (:

and hidayah, for calling me and chatting with me. every call from you really makes my day! thanks so much bestie! (: i love you!

leeson plans

LESSON PLANS!

aunt meena

i really dont understand some people!

dont worry, we wont spoil your son!