last day of attachment

today was the last day of attachment.
it ended so fast.
i really enjoyed all the times i spent there.
the kids were such darlings.
they were clinging on to me
and some asked
'u mean u will never ever come back here?'
'but i will miss you leh!'
'i give you my daddy number. u call can?'
'teacher meena, can u give me ur number?'
'can you come my house for my birthday?'

it was so cute lah.
and of course the bf was so affected by it.
i could see tears in his eyes when i was leaving.
and he gave me a kiss on my lips.
he is so gonna break many girls hearts when he grows up.
heh. Azym is so hot. heh.

photos. =)

the bf and me.

kelly and me =)

azym.

azym and ezzat. mixed kids are the coolest thigns ever.

every hottie needs his rest.

.........

F.O.P was just so awesome. i really enjoyed it man. went with sista, sharon and zara. total coolness. could feel God moving amidst the crowd. loved it so so much.

sunday was not a blast. i felt tired i guess. after church had to head to granny's. We went there to convince her to go for a op which she simply refuses to go. Hope she will change her mind. She has to.

stayed up the whole night to do the portfolio. was so stressed and gastric pain was killing me. but i had to go on. Finally, reached school and alot of drama happened which i cant possibly write here. Many people helped me today for the assignment. One such person was Shan. she was really helping me to put my portfolio in order. was kinda touched by it. I was going blank due to stress.

and of course, it was over once we handed in the werk. i vommited about 4 times. suddenly got sick and i felt horrible. Really like my whole stomach was going insane. i really really need to thank LIZ, PINK and FAZZIE for like taking care of me and bearing with me. i was such an ass i know. but they were so damn sweet la. thank u so much babes. i really from the bottom of my heart value ur time with me.

came home and puked and then slept for like 7 hours. i think i was too stressed that i could take anything anymore. which is why my body went haywire and i needed to charge my battery. HEH.

i am only going to spend two more days with the kids. i am so gonna miss them once this ends.

F.O.P

so what if u are a dancer?

so what if girls are after you?

so what if you yourself think so highly of yourself?

i dont feel like adding a moronic person like you.

and there is nothing that can change my mind.

now that i have it off my chest,

let me say about my happenings.

well, its just a week more to go before attachment ends.

and i am so gonna miss my kids.

i am looking forward to Festival of Praise.

WOOHOOO!

and yes, it was a tough decision to make.

to go F.O.P or to BAYBEATS which i have been like

waiting a whole year for.but well,

nothing can beat the presence of God.

so, i am going F.O.P.

gonna have a rocking time with THE MAN. =)

schoool is so cool!

school is cool!

had fun with my babes.

hang out at bukit panjang plaza.

and the three nerds;

meena, syahira and pink,

had a exciting time taking the LRT.

we were so lost.

but it was fun.

we then headed to marina sqare.

and pink did her usual shopping

on ear accessories.

it was a fun time.

i love my babes!

and i have to go to school tmr again.

to return the o.v.e.r.d.u.e book.

i am so sorry fazzie.

=(

and of course, i need to do my research

on the whatever thing that i need to do

for my portfolio.

so much of work.

and i really miss my kids alot.

just one day without them feels weird.

heh.

and i also miss

ZARA
IQBAL
VIN
JENN
BEN
NURUL
AMANDA

meet up soon boys and girls! =)

NP

i miss my friends.

but i get to see them on monday.

i have to go NP and again, its exciting.

HEH.

but i also have to hand in some DAC assignment.

that is the thing that is depressing la.

anyways, NP here i come baybeh!

indians rule

i am like super pissed.
why do i hear people calling indians as 'anneh'?
anneh in tamil means brother.
so are all indians brothers OR WHAT?
so.pissed.off.

Please learn to use the proper terms.
We are indians not some 'anneh' like you claim.

and if u dont know how to use the tamil language,
please dont use it.
dont try to create ur own words and pretend it out to be tamil.
cuz it aint tamil. and its definately not funny.
its not something u can make fun of and laugh it off.
its a LANGUAGE.

and lastly, i have to say that i am proud to be an indian.

i love jesus!!

i was listening to Neerae yen thanjam (a tamil christian song). i was so touched by it. tho its a song which is mellow and about worshipping the lord, i got so reminded of my past. my past which no one knows except my family and my Lord. there is a reason for everything, yes. But i was too young to understand and even now, i dont. and i had cried so many times 'why me?'. in all those times, i knew He was with me. When NO ONE else knew what i felt, he could just tell me so gently that things are happening for a reason and i could feel his embrace and his hand in mine every step of the way.

i truly love you Jesus. I wanna give my everything to you. Lead me where you want me to be. =)

bla joke bla

How many beds did you lay inyesterday?
* one.

What color shirt are you wearing?
* some ugly blue shirt. heh.

Name one thing that you do everyday?
* breathe.

Whats the color of your bedroomwalls?
* i dunno man.

How much cash do you have on you rightnow?
* none. i dont need cash when i am at home.

You cant wait till..?
* i go to my home.

Who got you to join friendster?
* i dunno man. it was ages ago.

What did you have for dinner lastnight?
* i forgot. heh.

Look to your left. Whats there?
* my parrot. oowhee!!

Where are you now?
* my hall.

Whats the last piece of clothing youborrowed from someone?
* i dont borrow clothing. heh.

What website do you visit the most?
* my hotmail and friendster i guess.

Do you have plants in your room?
* neh.

Does anything hurt on your body rightnow?
* my eye?

What city was your last taxicab ride in?
* eh. the beautiful singapore.

Do you own a picture phone?
* Yup.

Whats your favorite starbucks drink?
* Caramel cream base. -slurps-

Recent time you were really upset?
* i forgot. heh.


was bored. so the post. and oh, my mummy called me melanie like trice today. LOL. it was so funny lah. and i really cant wait to be 21 man. =)

and oh i so need to thank meiting. she is so sweet to message me to wish me all the best for my assessment and also to ask how i did. so damn sweet. love u baybeh!! =)

another day is past

okay. my day is like so unexpected. i was suddenly asked to go to the changi airport as a field trip for the toddlers since the theme was on transport. and yeah, it was fun i guess. the day was spent with ezzat ( this hottie who is chinese and malay mixed. )we kissed each other like dunno how many times man. i cant wait for him to grow up. HEH!

and then there was marx ong. he was like so close to me. there was once when there were police walking by and he cried and cried and all of the teachers, he ran to me crying out '' teacher meena!!! i scared..police..'' it was so adorable man. and he like kept holding on to me. haio. such a darling!!

so that was in the morning and in the afternoon, it was fun. i managed to make wei keong( indo hottie) sleep. okay, he is one of the naughtiest boys. but every teacher just keep scolding him. poor him. and i talked to him nicely and i patted him to sleep. he was asleep within 2 minutes la. damn fast. i think no one has been nice enought to tell him things nicely, so he tends to rebel. but when i told him nicely, he actually listened to what i had to say. sometimes, i wish teachers will not shout at the kids. =(

then after work, i rushed to meet hidayah baybeh. and it was laughing non stop all the way. there were so many things we did. heh. it was awesome. totally awesome!! and of course the cute guy who happened to be chinese and indian mix was one of the awesome things that happened to us. HEH. WHEEEE!!

fweeet

yeahs. i will be meeting hidayah and pink tmr..

WOOOHOOO!!

and it has been so long since we went to eat the banquet. and then we are going arcade. typical us. we need fun in our lives. its gonna be fun baybehs. but i end at 5 and it will take some time for me to travel all the way. so we are meeting at 6 and gonna be like havoc all the way.

and guess what, even then we will go to the library at least for a while to find any related books on the theme for the kids at the centre. we are such nice teachers. HEH!

and man, i cant wait for next wednesday when i will get assessed by my mentor and then i can work on my portfolio and do all the rest of the major stress work. i am like so stressed la but three people whom i chatted with last week and this week could actually ask me '' eh, u so free everyday ah. lucky siah!''

and i was thinking ''yeah RIGHT!''
when u are stressed, u dont need to whine and whine and do the job, i believe you can still get it done with a smile on ur face. =)
(i so deserve a star for even mentioning this!)

vin iqbal

some people are just so clever.
they try to help you solve the lappie's problem.
but end up making matters worse.
HEH!
and after doing all that crap,
smile so innocently.
i am supposed to be pissed but i find it just so cute!
monyets all the way dudes!!

thanks babes!!

and all the best for Hidayah who is gonna get assesed today!!!! =)

jesus u are my best friend!

yeah baybeh yeah! its over!
WHEEEEEEEEE!!!!

and i have to thank my bestest bestfriend for it. i was so scared before the assesment. then just a small chat with him and i was so calm. i knew i could do it. and yeah man, i got a high good from PHILIP. his expectations are high. and i got a high good. that is awesome news for me.

i really thank God for it. i could never have done it on my own. Thank you JESUS!! =)

and now that philip's assesment is over, its time for my supervisor, Teacher June to asses me. and i need to like prepare another new lesson for her. i hope it will be good. well, actually i know it will be good. HEH! its all the confidence i get from the verse ' i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.' -power verse.

and lastly, all the best for the rest of my dearies who are yet to be assesed. and of cuz, thank u hid for personally calling me so many times just to ask me how i did. really sweet of u. =)

jesus christ take my life

it just feels so good when He sees right thru you and He knows just what to say to strengthen you. Lately, i have been grumbling alot about the assignments and the whole attachment as a whole. BUT, He said that in everything i do, i have been doing it without complaning and grumbling and that He will grant me anything that i ask of him.

SWEEEEET!! gosh, i love him so much man. and there are times when i just smile to myself because i feel SO loved. its a great feeling.

and how can i stand here with you and not be moved by you

yeah its stress out

been receiving really weird calls.
dont wanna elaborate.
i just hope it stops.

life has been just fine.
been like doing the learning corner materials.
and philip is coming on tuesday to assess the three of us.
thats like really fast man.
and i pray it will go on fine.

been dreaming non-stop about many things.
when i wake up, i find is easy to recall some
and there are also some which are real tough to remember.

and after 17 july, its like fun all the way i hope.
please ask me out after the 17th!!
i wanna chillout and relieve myself of the stress i have inside.

i kept using woohoo with my kids.
and now, everyone is woohoo-ing in my class.
so damn cute siah.

and there is this teacher who commented
that my madarin is superb!
HEH! she praise dunno how many times already siah.
power max uh! =)



with Christ in the vessel you can smile at the storm.

WOOOHOOO!
church rocked big time.
LOVED the service.
and oh, there was an external pastor today.
He is from the Great India.
He was so funny man.
gosh. i was like laughing so loudly at all his jokes.
heh. not like a girl at all.
awesome day!

tmr going NP. yeah baby yeah!
then can meet my dearies and have all the fun i have missed out on.
and can see tons of eye candies as what Hid said! HEH.
class ends at 11 plus but we are gonna stay longer in school.
all for the sake of those people who drive u crazy.
heh. Hidayah oh Hidayah!
gonna have lots of fun baby!!

Whole day was spent at the hospital.
the service is bad man.
why is it that the waiting time has to be 2 to 3 hours?

Gosh! thats alot of time being wasted.
and my granny, aunt and ruban came too.
and oh, the nurses took mum away.

poor thing la she!

was all alone in some room for so long.
only after a few hours were we even allowed to see her.


i really pray that she gets better!

and i know she will. heh. =)



and some uncle of mine is in NUH.
bike accident.
in some terrible state.
smashed rib bone or something.
gosh. its some scary stuff going on man.
bikers are like always at risk.
hmph.

ah yes. tmr is SUNDAY!!
most prolly the youth are going to swensens to eat!

yeah baby yeah!
and oh, i ate lamp chop today. yum yum.
satisfying food! =)

dirty liar

You Never Satisfy Me
Avril Lavigne

Excuse me sir, do I have your attention,
there's something if you don't mind I'd like to mention,
so open those ears, sit your butt down and shut your mouth
I'm aware that it's hard for you to do that,
all I ask is lay down, put your feet up
now soak in, pay attention, learn a lesson loud and clear

Hey, you're a dirty liar,
you wronged me out for something I thought was right,
I wanted to be left alone,
not shown around like your golden prize
oh, I looked around, look what happened,
you found out you never satisfy me

Never trusted anyone in the first place,
you turned me up, your disgusting anyway hear that music,
crank it up, is there something familiar in the singers voice
turn it down, now listen to me,
what made you think you were my authority I'm awake, finally,
I'm able to move on (just gotta tell the truth)

Now do these word stick to you,
hope they do think about it, think about it stick to you like superglue,
keep you from the things you do

another day at another month

slept ard 5 or 6 yesterday.
mummy is sick. really sick.
i was so scared for her.
i really really hope she feels better soon.
i know she will.
She has backing what. heh.

work was tiring today. i was the only one in charge today.
it was tiring shouting at the kids.
but at the end of the day, they were all so nice to me.
there was this girl, xue wen.
she came up to me and asked,
'' teacher meena, why are u so nice to us?''

and all i could say is that
'' haha. thank u xue wen for saying that.

its because u are nice children. so i am nice to you okie?''
and she hugged me tightly and said '' i love u teacher meena!''
gosh! love them man.

and oh, i stayed one more hour with the children cause

the kids wanted me to stay longer with them. heh.
and when i went outside of my centre after work,
i saw my friends!!
surprise it seems. damn sweet!
thank u so much man. really perked me up!



this note is for someone. i dunno if u will see this. but i hope u do. there is nothing for me to hide. if u wanna doubt me, go ahead. i will not defend myself. and besides, u are not a good friend urself. you who come to me only for help. dont call me paranoid. i know what i say and i mean it.

what goes around comes around

yes ah!

whooo! i am like super awake now.
and jenn left like tons of msgs in my inbox.
damn sweeet. thanks woman!
and vin entertains latenights when i cant sleep.
so the very sweeet. thanks man.

and i am gonna spend like my whole monday with my babes!
rocking eh.
i am going to NP!!
gosh. this is like the most exciting thing
that is happening to me now.

HIP HIP HOORAY!



i feel so fresh, i wanna do my assignments!

=)

and so someone is jealous of another someone.
this is ultimate cuteness.
you dont have to be jealous u monyet!
you are my buddy and thats it.
love u berries and pie!

stress!

i cant believe myself. i spent the whole day planning and doing some of my learning corner materials. like i am so stressed man. i spend every time i have trying to think of ideas and just thinking about my stuff. gosh! its been a while since i was this hardworking. but i like it tho. makes me feels responsible eh. heh. and oh i think i need to go to the NP tmr. i miss the place so much la. but whats the point of being in the place if ur friends are not there right. but i have no choice i need to go do my work. hai. STRESS ah.

and oh, 5 people have so far told me that i sound different.and they are my close buds. i guess its because of the stress. some say i am no longer the bubbly self, some say i got mood swings, some say i have become more harsh. really sorry but i am really not strong at this point in time.

i promise i will be better. i need time =)

heh. thanks for the concern babe!

murali.

i found someone in friendster who looks just like jun wei. and he is from np too. weird eh. but its nice man. and after viewing him, i got reminded of this small lil boy in india. his name is murali and he is such a monkey. i miss him ah. booo.

sunday church

and i always am uplifted whenever i go to church.
i was like so confused and miserable the whole week.
i was messed up, really.
i felt lost.

but God totally removed that feeling.
when i was praying after the service, GOd spoke to me.
He said that i have alot of desires.
He said that i also have alot of problems.
and he said that these are the things that i dont tell anyone.
Anyone but Him. and he appreciates that.
and he said He will grant them.

My God is so sweeeet.
i am like always melting at his love for me.



mould me into who i am supposed to be.

stressed.

stressed.
i wanna scream!

promise of a lifetime -kutless

I have fallen to my knees
As I sing a lullaby of pain
I'm feeling broken in my melody
As I sing to help the tears go away

Then I remember the pledge you made to me

[CHORUS:]
I know you're always there
To hear my every prayer inside
I'm clinging to the promise of a lifetime
I hear the words you say
To never walk away from me and leave behind
The promise of a lifetime

Will you help me fall apart
Pick me up, take me in your arms
Find my way back from the storm
And you show me how to grow
Through the change

I still remember the pledge you made to me

[BRIDGE:]
I am holding on to the hope I have inside
With you I will stay through every day
Putting my understanding aside

And I am comforted

my thoughts

fever - 38. 7 degrees
had diahorrea 19 times.
my throat hurts bad.
i cannot speak.
i cannot sleep.
if i do, i get nightmares.
i wake up every hour.
i am sick.

sorry to those whose phonecalls i did not answer and those whose messages which i did not reply to.





why are things this way?

reached!

Boy, am i glad to reach Singapore alive!

india

its been one heck of a night.
was stressed so much.
hid was there with me.
and most importantly,
HE was there with me.
Thank you many many for that.

Thank all u guys.
gonna be missing u like so much.
and yes, goodies from india will reach u when i arrive.
HEH.

Bye Singapore.
Hi India!

boo.

heya meena =)

how have you been lately? hope your job is heading in the right direction and you are having fun with the tots. i am busy with computer courses and driving lessons. i know what you are thinking.... i have not run over anyone yet...i am too scared of indian jails to do that. might be stopping over in singapore for a while on 25th. will as soon as i land. my mom misses me too much...haha. it won't be for long just 1 week. that is all happening here awaiting your reply.

loads of love n hugs,
nithya anguraj.


and yes it is. my bestie emailed me. so damn sweeeeeet of her. gosh. i feel damn touched man. its these little things that really makes me smile. gosh. i miss her so much. come back soon okays. =) smileys all the way.

switchfoot- awakening

i love this song. switchfoot - awakening

nice stuffie!

random

i am like really bored. therefore this post. hidayah n i were like really bored on one of our bus rides. so we snapped many random pictures n made a story out of it. this is my edited version.


once upon a time, there was a small village.

one of the houses in the village caught fire on a perfectly normal monday.

panic was everywhere and people wondered if it had something to do with the shell station located near the village.

there was a suspicious character close to the petrol station. he was wearing shades prolly to hide his identity.

there went an unsuspecting victim. and we wonder what happened to her.

dark clouds were gathering. the lady in black rushed home afraid of what lies ahead.

and she disappeared without any warning. could it have something to do with the power of the pink light?

and suddenly, another lady in black emerges out of nowhere! it has to be the power of the pink light. could it have something to do with the fire?

people feel insecure. they run to their homes for cover.

everybody is running for safety. there are only 2 people in the bus itself. thats how deserted the place has become.

the mystery remains.
what caused the fire?
who is the guy in shades?
what happened to the lady in black?
its all left untold.




hahahahahaha. gosh! thats how bored i am.

yippe

yipeee!!

attachment is good so far. the kids are nice children. but are damn irritating at times. i shouted once today. i was like '' shhhhh! can u just keep quiet!!?!'' then there was like absolute silence and the kids were like sitted so neatly. HAA!

and oh, the best part is that i can sleep when the children are asleep which is from 1 to 3pm. so i get to rest man. i slept today and it felt so good. and the children were like so sweet to allow me to sleep on their mattresses. and before i slept i was like sitting alone at the entrance cause i really needed to get some sunlight. at that point of time, teacher ram came back and she was like giving me a motherly look and asked '' waiting for ur bf is it? u seem very eager.'' heh. all that i was doing was to stone at the entrance and i seem eager to meet this new found bf? weird people i tell u!

and guess what, we are going to the discovery centre tmr for fieldtrip. so its gonna be fun and i can bet with every cent i have that we are all gonna sleep when we are back at the centre. heh. and i guess we have to meet up to do assignments after that as well. this is really tiring!

and before i forget, i have wish my dearest fazzie..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAZZIE DEAREST!


special thanks to vin, liz and jes raj.

stye in the eye

had this really huge stye in my eye. its damn painful. i could barely open my eyes during the attachment. went to see doc after coming home.

doctor saw my eye and said '' haio! this is have to go for operation. i do for u.'' but, my mother said no. when i asked her the reason why, she said '' dad will ask why i having a bandage over my eyes and then the india trip will be cancelled.''

i cannot believe it man. my eyes are in serious pain and the only thing u can think about is HIM HIM and HIM. is HE like ruler of the world or what? i cannot believe it man. everything has to be as HE says. what he says goes. and then of course i asked the doc is i could just simply take medication. she said yes, but she was like giving me double dose of everything. and she told me to whack the medicine as in really take double the dose so that i can get better because the condition of my eye was like really bad. well, i guess i have to tell her to say that to my DAD.

and so we came home. i went straight to my room emo-ing. i felt so hurt. seriously man. the doc said my eye was in such a bad condition that i needed a operation and all that my mother could say to me was about '' DAD DAD DAD'' URGH!! and then i cried. i tell u, it felt like a thousand pins were like poking my eyes but i could not take it, i had to cry. i would much rather suffer physical pain than any emotional stress.

now, i just applied the cream on my eye and i can barely see a thing. my eye is like covered by some gel la. and i cannot open the infected eye. i am typing this with only one eye open and the words appear blur. whatevs! not that anyone cares.

i hate this feeling that i have inside of me.

boohoo

i like it when things are settled.

1.ben is feeling better now.

2.i think vending machine person is my friend.

3.i took holy communion.

4.attachment starts tmr.
am excited.

but there are also many things left unsettled. mostly assignments. and guess what, we are like prolly gonna meet up everyday this week in woodlands to complete the work. woodlands to bb is far. at least to me lah. but what to do, its the decision of the people. so yea. assignments are a headache. i think having common tests are like so much better. urgh!

to be?

to be or not to be, that is the question!

oo la la

went to visit my granny and aunts.

since we are like leaving for india nex week,
its gonna be some time till i see them again.

and as usual, they always advise to pray hard.
study hard, work hard.
and they always ask me to eat more.
i need that really. =)

and oh, aunt jay said i very dark.
and she also said she really wonders
how more dark i will be after i return from india.

haha. hope it aint THAT bad.
from what i hear its like 40 degrees.
is that considered bad?
i don't quite know.

and oh. there is a stye in my eye.
urgh! i hate it man.
damn painful. i can't even open my eyes properly.
URGH!

random pics.

saw this in the first cubicle of canteen one girls washroom.


HAA!

random

okay. we were like supposed to meet at ten to do assignment. hid and i reached at 10.10. and we waited and waited in the canteen. and more of our people came. so after tat, we went to the lib to discuss our assignment. once we were there, we switched on our lappies and that was it. We were like surfing the net and were in our own worlds for as long as i could remember.

then, hid,pink and i went to meet jaime baby over at canteen 1 to collect the construction paper from her. and then , it was down to having our mini break there. pink was so damn sweet to make us breakfast. she made us some something which was supposed to be shepherds pie and hid named it Pink Jones Pie. and we also ate her corn cup/cup corn. whatever it is. super yummy i tell u.

and i a lil pissed today. the ice over the the gassy drink stall was like so rotten la. its not good ice. not clean. urgh! i dunno how to say but it just was not nice. only the dessert shop has nice chewable ice. not huge ones which takes ages to melt. heee. and oh, we accidentally purposely sat near to shingo's table. hahahhaa. and he talked to us. LOL. super funny.

then the three of us headed back to the library to once again discuss our work. but then we were all so busy doing our own stuff in the net. it was like nearing two and we had to leave to go for lesson. but then, we did not quite feel like going, so me, pink and hid decided not to go for class. and so, pam and fazzie left for class. and it down to three of us. we were like transferring photos, laughing at stupid things and even snapping photos of random things and people.

and then since we have done alot of werk, we were like so hungry and we headed to canteen 2 to eat. trust me, but we did not enjoy the meal at all. not worth it man. and we saw umar and raj. we wished umar happy belated birthday. he was like so nice to come and talk to us. his jokes are like so random.

then we headed back to library to combine forces with syahira, pam and faz to discuss our assignment. and then we once again side tracked to the photos and many other stuff. and finally, we all were like loking at the 2005, 2006 and the 2007 photos that we have taken together. it was hilarious man. damn funny. never knew we looked so different.

and so, the day ended when we decided to just go home at ard 7.30pm. and so if u calculate tat up, u will realised that we spent 9 hour plus doing absolutely nothing. we did NO assignment. and the thing is we did not even go for class. that is total slacking man. hahaha. but we loved it tho.

and i am so gonna miss school. it is like the last friday today. after this, attachment startswhich is like next monday. and then after attachment, it is like two months break. and then it is the final semester! gosh! its all happening tooo fast. i don't wanna graduate yet. not just yet. i wanna be a girl running ard school having fun. i don't wanna grow up yet. i am so gonna miss the school and the people in it. =)

- i'm just a kid and life is a nightmare-

and heres picture from the pink and faz bd celebration..

pardon!

pardon the previous entry!

quizzz

1. Story behind your profile song?# none. Just like it.

2. What's bothering you right now?# assignments. Hate them.

3. Where do you live?# bukit batok =)

DESCRIBE YOUR:

4. Wallet?# eh. Simple.

5. Background on your cell phone?# none. I like it simple and nice.

6. Your best friend?# =)

7. Where was your default picturetaken?# Salvation army

8. Eyes: black ah. I think.

9. Life?: fun

WHAT ARE YOU:

10. Doing this weekend?# prolly doing ym assignments and going to church.

11. Wearin?:#black shirt and shorts.

12. Wanting?:# to get rid of assignements.

13. Listening to?:# what’s left of me

14. What do you smell?:# my pillow

15. Eating?:# peanut butter cookies in bed.

DO YOU:

16. believe in soul mates?:# I guess so.

17. sleep naked?:# neh.

18. Like seafood?:# hell yeah!

19. Remember your dreams?:# yes. I just wrote abt it in myprevious entry.

20. Consider yourself a study freak?:# haha. No.

21. Believe in miracles?:# yes!!

22. Speak another language other thanEnglish?:# tamil. And broken malay and mandarin.

24. What's something you wish you couldunderstand better?:# people.

25. What did you do last weekend?:# I forgot. Heeeee.

26.Do you miss someone now?:# not really.

27. Orange or apple juice?:# apple.

28. Who was the last person you wentout to lunchwith?:# I hd lunch at home.

29. Who did you send your last textto?:# ben

30. Who was the last one to send you atext?:# ben

31. Last time you ate a home growntomato?:# eh?

32. Would you rather have love ormoney?:# love =)

33.What time did you go to sleep atlast night?:# about 1. I think.

34. What time did you wake up at?:# around 1pm

35. The most annoying sound(s) in theworld?:# eh. Can’t think of any.

36. Last person you hugged?:# pink!

37. Best hugger you know?:# this aint no award. Its abt how sincere a hug is.

38. Who do you hate right now?:# nobody. And I don’t want anyoneto hate me. If that’s possible..

39. Whats one thing you regret?:# I don’t know man.

40.Who is the most important person inthe worldto you?:# the one who gave me life!

crashed

owheee!!

i forgot to say just now. i had a dream yesterday. two dreams actually.

one was about this friend of mine who has a family problem. and the person is like so so helpless. in my dream, i was there for that person. and the person was like really broken. i mean it was somesort of the same problem that the person is in actual fact going thru now la. coincidental man.

second was a lil scary. i dreamt of the guy. the vending machine guy. omg. i dreamt that he wanted revenge and he used alot of indian guys to take revenge. there were like this whole group of indian guys who blocked BR's way. then they allowed everyone else to go thru except me.

i woke up after that man. i hate this kinda things. so regarding the first dream, i talked to the person about it. the person was feeling much better. i know the person will make it thru. stay stong okies =)

and regarding the second dream, i went to the vending machine guy's friendster. he seems like a normal guy.happy go lucky type. not as psychotic as i dreamt him to be. so whatevs. its just a stupid dream. don't mean anything. and oh, i like the song in his friendster. super nice tamil song. emo abit lah, but nice man. i like!! i should listen to more tamil songs. nice ones i mean.

and i am feeling really tired now. gonna crash. =)

funny day

was really stressed yesterday with the DAC assignment. and i dunno why but everything was goin wrong. i felt so tired and all and my back was more than just painful. i was using my lappie in the kitchen as everyone else was like sleeping so happily in my house. then the stress that i have been feeling all along just hit me and i started crying al of a sudden. Classic moment. i cried like a baby. mouth open big big and like so dumb.

But, i still managed to get my assignment done with the help of the one who is always wit me.and pammie pam pam was realy so so sweet to print the work for us. owe her one man. =)

and today was a sleepy day. i had barely 3 hours of sleep the night before. so i was like almost gonna shut down anytime. but i held on. (tune in head - keep holding on.. we'll make it through..) and i did. finally the lessons were like over! yeahs. and then i have no idea where the energy came from but all of us were like suddenly all so alive and mad. and yes, mad is what we are.

went to have lunch at TCC. and yeaps. food was filling and super delicious. -yum yum- chilled there and then we parted ways. Pink hid and i went to dhoby xchange. got a gift for nicole. i love the gift. heee. then hid and i went to meet nicole and then hid and i had to go off to clarke quey. to meet my sister. i had to take the passport photo to apply for the Visa to go india. and then i was using the darn machine and it was all so fake. my smile was so fake. but whatevs!

took the photo and went to sis's office to give e photo so that she can apply for Visa. and then it was again down to hid and me. we ate at macs. and and it was really funny how hid and i were hving this very normal conversatin when this guy beside us just so had to fart like damn loudly. sounded like ta bomb just exploded or something. and guess what. he actually tilted so that the he could like fart so freely. Hid and i were like laughing and luaghing non stop la. but i being the clever one choked on my drink. and i felt so horrible. but even then, since i was not over the farting incident, i was like laughing non stop feeling like real horrible. rushed to the toilet and puked. heee.

and after feeling so relieved, we started to laugh at the incident all over again. dumbness i tell u. we get high on air.heee.. and then we were very tired and we were just more than happy to go home. and we hit back from marina bay. very tiring. in the train. encounter with malay guys again. they keep staring. and then one even followed hid. poor girl. she was like calling me and was feeling so damn scared. i so know the feeling la. these people ah. scare us to such an extent that we are like in a trauma. Thank god like nothing happened to her la.

finally at home and feeling relaxed. i need my sleep. but ah, i know my friend needs me. so i am gonna forgo my sleep for a lil longer to help my friend.

goodnite mates!

take all of me

God is good. He keeps us safe. something is terribly going wrong. BUT, my God is an awesome God. He does his miracles and saves us in due time. i really really love him.

Hillsong - take all of me

You broke the night like the sun

And healed my heart with Your great love

Any trouble I couldn't bear

You lifted me upon Your shoulders

Love that's strongerLove that covers sin

And takes the weight of the world

I love You

All of my hope is in You

Jesus Christ take my life

Take all of me

You stand on mountain tops with me

With You i walk through the valleys

You gave Your only Son for me

Your grace is all I rely on

I love You so, and I give up my heart to say
I need You so, my everything

friday friday

class was at 2pm today. but went to school earlier to do project. after barely one hour of work, my tummy was like giving problems. it was like so painful. and i grew silent. when in pain, i shut up. went to megabites to eat. the distance from library to SIM really seemed alot when u have a tummyache and nothing but water in ur stomach.

could not eat more than half of the food. after lunch, slacked outside class. and i realise that there are like alot of new people at blk 52. wonder where they come from man. class ended very early today. stayed back for a while to discuss CIR. after that, we went to the atrium to slack. slacked til ard 5.40 then went off to meet my sister at bugis. wheee!

went ard in bugis. damn crowded lah. bought jeans. going again next wednesday. was so tired after walking. sis and i took 66 and headed home. its nicet o be at home resting after a long day. =)

and i am tired. oh, i might be going to tekka tmr.. go shop and get prepared to go for india. heee!

stained glass masquerade

Are we happy plastic people

Under shiny plastic steeples

With walls around our weakness

And smiles to hide our pain

i really don't know why but i feel really disturbed when i see fake-ness. i really don't wanna be fake. but when i see some things that people do that are fake, i get the urgh feeling. i can almost like turn into anniyan.

i do not want friends for entertainment purposes only. there has to be something more. something which makes u feel connected. else, it will not last. i have been really thinking about friendship for maybe a week now. its just hard to say who are ur good friends.

one thing is for sure tho. i will always value the people who have been there in my bad times. i infact value them more then anyone else. its because there was something more than just fun, something more than just laughing. theres a understanding between me and those who stood by me. that is what takes the friendship one step higher.

oh. and i like hugs from my friends. but, just don't overdo it. i have seen many hugs and i have also seen what happens behind the scenes. a warm hug on the front for others to see but, it ends up in gossiping about the person when the person is not ard. its dumb. mean every hug and word u say. else, u can just shut up and save your hugs.

and i can post this without any care cause this is my point of view and furthermore, it is not directed at anyone. its just that i had to get it out of me.

tuesday..

had lunch at canteen one with one of the most nicest hot guys ever. his nick is shingo is seems. haha. super nice guy. he is din's friend. so pink, hidayah and i ate with these guys(din, edward and shingo- the hot guy) here is a photo which i took using hid's phone but the photo is blurred because that shingo guy happened to see that i was taking a photo of him. how dumb of me. thats like the second time where photo-taking was so obvious.

THAT GUY! SHINGO IS HIS NICK.

then guess what. saw the funny shingo. i FOC shingo. its like a total shingo day lah. had fun laughing at his silly jokes. damn funny man.


and here is the FOC shingo. he is an indian at heart. LOL.

went to library with dearest pam, fazzie, pink and hid. we had to find some books and articles on special education. and we had no where to sit. in desperate need, we went ard the library looking for space. we tried Magazine area. even the Cybercafe.even tried the ESPN room. no space lah. and there was this guy at our usual place. but we could not care less. we wanted to sit and that was it. we went there and sat. then the girls went to borrow the books while i looked after the things. i almost fell asleep lah.

then we did some work which i think was not more than 20 mins. haha. and then fazzie left to go to her childcare centre. and it was slack time for us. the leftovers -pink, hid, me, pam and kenneth were slacking. we laughed, we gossiped, we had fun.

take photos when u are bored!

and when u go to the washroom.

then it was time to go.hid and i went to far east plaza to meet fazzie to have dinner. food was delicious. and oh, we saw a trainee who looked like taufik batisah. he had a plaster on his neck. fazzie said it was love bite then he wanna hide from his mother. LOL. damn cute la. but its a assumption. we do not even know who he is. hahaha.

then it was time to go and we left for home. i took the train home. and guess what it was like so packed. and some malay guys came in. argh. i tell u ah, its damn irritating when we are already standing so close due to space contraint. and this malay guy just had to brush his hand on my arm to hold the handle next to me. HAIO. for goodness sake, we girls can feel when someone touches accidently or on purpose. it is disgusting. really look down upon these guys. what pleasure do u get from it? psychos.

took the bus home instead of walking. was damn tired. but nothing stopped me from blogging. i had fun in school today and thats it! =)

one moment more - mindy smith

this song is by mindy smith. and she wrote it for her mum. damn nice. i like it muchos. and i think the images from ' a walk to remember' really suits the song. sweeeet!

Hold me

Even though I know you're leaving

And show me

All the reasons you would stay

It's just enough to feel your breath on mine

To warm my soul and ease my mind

You've got to hold me and show me now

Give me

Just one part of you to cling to

And keep me

Everywhere you are

It's just enough to steal my heart and run

And fade out with the falling sun

Oh, please don't go

Let me have you just one moment more

Oh, all I need

All I want is just one moment more

You've got to hold me and keep me

Tell me that someday you'll be returning

And maybeMaybe I'll believe

It's just enough to see a shooting star

To know you're never really far

It's just enough to see a shooting star

To know you're never really gone

weird stuff i tell u

isnt it really weird that vin, bala and jenn all got food poisoning the same week as me, sister and rachel? thats like six of us man. and we all had jabs. weird eh?

inside my heart =)

isnt it very sweet when someone says he/she has a place for u in his/her heart? i think its like the sweetest thing. haha. and i like this song. kid-ish or whatever u may say,i think its a nice song! wheee!

sick

having the runs and serious vommiting aint good, at all. makes u feel so weak. and its especially bad when u and ur sis happen to get it at the same time. one whole night without sleep and rushing tot eh most favourite place which happened to be the toilet. it made us feel so terrible. visited the doc and got an injection each. sis went to another doc and paid $25. i went later to another doc and paid $48. my heart could almost bleed man. but it did not matter since my body was like disfunctioning and i just could not wait to feel better.

i feel much better now. Thank God for that. and of course my mummy who took great care of me. =)

hopnite

first of all, i need to thank pam and fazzie for their card which is so so sweeeeeeeet. i wonder how long they took to search for the photos with all of us in it. it is really damn sweeet man. i love it. thanks so much guys. love u so much! =)

and oh. let me say about friday. it was hopnite. was nice actually. Hashim and Pris won. yeah! they really deserved to win man. and food was delicious. and dancing was good i guess. did not really like the music. oh wells, its over now. and i kinda enjoyed it.

and oh, i am going to the zoo tmr. got free tix thanks to dad. so i am gonna have fun tmr.! yeah!

i really like linkin park's new songs. really awesome. and no, i did not download them. haha. i had a fun time in school today. pink, hidayah, fazzie, pam and i went to have our lunch. then, hid,pink and i went to shop ard for the hopnite stuff. it was really tiring man. like alot of work was done when all we did was to go through some clothes, shoes and accessories. and as always, i took the the simple stuff while hidayah and pink sourced out for glam stuff.

both hidayah and pink look really glam with their new clothes and all. =) damn pretty la both of them. i look errr, simple but not sweet.

and oh, after that hid and i headed down to lil india to go eye brow threading. and we were like totally exhausted after all the shopping. we met my sista who had to go to the travel agency to collect our tix for going india. went to eat mee goreng and bee hoon goreng. was really nice man. then we headed off to the bus stop and hid took 851 home while i took 66 home. it is a tiring day. i am gonna sleep like right now.

goosnite mates!

i am really pissed. i mean when ur friends meet a new guy or girl, that's it. it's as if they have entered a whole new dimension and nothing else matters. friends are taken for granted. only thing that fills the mind will be the person. it's really okay if these last a while. the whole love thingie taking over and all. but it's so not okay if the only person you can now ever imagine is him/her.

friends will be forgotten. it's as if they never existed. but the truth is tat when the friend and the guy/girl has a problem/quarrel, suddenly they remember their friends. they run to them and pour out their hearts on the bf/gf and the problem and hoe very affected they are about it. it's damn irritating. i am only human. i really can't take it man. i want to know about your life, yes, but please don't push me too far by going on and on only about the person.

it's really funny how the gf/bf is like the only thing the person ever talks about. all the things he/say says are like praising the other party to the heavens. but once there is a problem, they will go all on about what a jerk/ bitch the gf/bf has been. its stupid.

argh!

i am really pissed. i mean when ur friends meet a new guy or girl, that's it. it's as if they have entered a whole new dimension and nothing else matters. friends are taken for granted. only thing that fills the mind will be the person. it's really okay if these last a while. the whole love thingie taking over and all. but it's so not okay if the only person you can now ever imagine is him/her.

friends will be forgotten. it's as if they never existed. but the truth is tat when the friend and the guy/girl has a problem/quarrel, suddenly they remember their friends. they run to them and pour out their hearts on the bf/gf and the problem and hoe very affected they are about it. it's damn irritating. i am only human. i really can't take it man. i want to know about your life, yes, but please don't push me too far by going on and on only about the person.

it's really funny how the gf/bf is like the only thing the person ever talks about. all the things he/say says are like praising the other party to the heavens. but once there is a problem, they will go all on about what a jerk/ bitch the gf/bf has been. its stupid.

argh!

jenn jenn

class was rather interesting. as usual, we had to do group work and a bunch of us headed outside the classroom to do it. was okay. was really bored after a while tho. did not really understand what the others were talking about. saw tania and sarah leaving to enter the class. the reason was pretty obvious. boredom took over. so i too decided to slack in the class instead. my foot was like so painful because of the blisters. i never knew it could heard this bad.

then i sat down and was quietly looking thru my things when i felt my hp vibrate. i opened it and saw a message. it was from jenn. it was such a lovely message. then i messaged her about how i was feeling then and she sent me a very sweet message. it really changed my mood. from having a dull and down mood, i began to feel better. its amazing how a simple but heartfelt message can do to u. thanks Jenn! =)

wheee!

vroom

vroom vroom vroom.

Happy birthday to me!

i am the happiest girl alive. not only because its my birthday but because i feel so loved by this someone whom i simply adore. OKAYOKAY. its my dearest JC. i did something really really bad a few days back. and thus, i felt very distanced from God. but but HE is just so sweet. i was like crying in the church today. his touch was so gentle but i somehow was trembling all over. i simply adore THE man. i dunno how to describe man. He spoke to me and said that He wil grant me the specific thing that i have praying for. actually i am a little confused on what it is myself. but well, its a birthday girft from him lah, so dont ask so much. just accept it right. haaha. anything from Him is like the best gift. =)

after church, i went with sis and aaron to chong pang. aaron wanted to get himself a phone. and so we went and sought out the hp he wanted and he bought it. so yeahs, Aaron has a new hp. then the three of us went to causeway point and slacked afterwich we went to the uncle ringo funfair at woodlands. we went on rides which we could never imagine. my most favourite one was the Vortex. its like super high and we all were like thrown around like as if we were three volleyballs or something. it was freaking scary. hows that for a thrill on my birthday eh. hahahah. our throats were like completely dry when we touched ground. it was awesome. but too scary. i dare all u people reading this to go an try that ride. u'll go WHEEEEEE!!

and and and.. i got many many messages, wishes and prezzies. i feel so blessed. i feel more touched by the messages tho. i never expected some people to wish me man. hahaha. okieokie.. must not be too happy.. hahaha. but cant help it man.. =)

i had a great day.. so let me just wish a Happy Birthday to kenneth adn chris who have the same birthday as me! =)

goodnite mates!

fridays

iqbal, meena, and benedict all have birthdays in may. so they decided to hang out together to eat out so that they could celebrate. but someone by the name of vin whose birthday is not in may decided to join us. unwanted company aint it. heee. actually, t was not at all. in fact, he was the life of the clique. i can't believe he was still going strong despite his injuries.

it was really fun hanging out at causeway pt. we ate fish and chips at swensens. as usual, someone could not finish the food and i had to eat it up. hahah. actually, i don't mind eating the extra food at all. =) and so our day went on and the three dudes were like so nice to get me a gift which is so sweeet. one was like handmade and it so rocked lah. but i did not accpet the one which ben bought tho. heee. and he knows why.heee.

and then we had to go off and i went to meet hid in BB interchange to go to school. we went to class. and oh we were complimentated. when i say 'we', i meant pink, hidayah, myself, syahira, pam and fazzie. those who were sitted at the back row. Mrs Koh, our lecturer said that we were a lively group but we focus on the lesson which was good. so sweeet lah she. for once we got a compliment!

then it me fazzie pink and hidayah went to marina square to have dinner. a dinner which was later a birthday surprise. so sweet man these people. i love them lah. i got prezzies and the most impt self made birthday card. i somehow since young preferred people to make things for me. it meant that i was worth something that they talk time to actually make something for me instead of heading to the streets to just grab something. i loved everything about today. it was good. =) thank u guys so much!

and then headed home. chatted with mathan. i felt so bad that i labelled him to be a arrogant indian guy when he was actually kinda nice. so i apologised. i have been apologising to many people lately. its just that i feel that i should do so. hahaha.

i am going church tmr in the morning. i wanted to go because i feel bad once again. God had been there for me for like 19 years and i ought ot give him the most impt place in my life. so its him i turn to early on my birthday. he is my best friend. i love him. omg, i feel so shy. hahahha =)

goodnite mates.

wednesday wackiness.

had a rather long day. school was from 8.30am to 1pm. Mrs Koh's lecture was kinda short. was okay. at least we had a video and some activities to do before and after the lecture. so it was nice. Then, came the next lesson. Sukuna's lesson. was okay as well. kinda dry. and oh it just aint nice when u get ur name called out like so many times. especially when someone else is like talking in class and my clique has to take the blame for it. damn irritating lah.

after class, when to canteen 1 to have lunch with pink , hid, fazzie and pam. it has been like three weeks since we last ate there. so the food tasted extra nice. as usual, we laughed alot. had fun. but syahira was not there tho. and i miss hanging out with meiting and pris.

after that, pink, hid and i headed to library. watched 13 going on 30. and pink cried as always. drama siah. the three of us then chilled for a while then were going home when we decided to drop by the amb booth to speak to dearest allyssa. she was like so busy working on her things. but she came aside to talk to us lah.

i hope everything is fine for her. i hate it when problems just keep finding her when she just finds her own business and moves on with life. but she is a strong babe! she will be just fine. =)

and i am kinda happy. its because i have messaged the indian guy in friendster. hahaha. its just some incident but it is kinda silly and funny when i look back. hidayah said she remembered the incident tho. anyways, matters solved! yeah! and oh. i even asked the person if the person was gay. but thats only because he said something about straight and i was very confused. i feel bad about calling him gay tho. but nvm, if i do happen to see him, i will defeinately apologise. =)

yeah! go have fun man.

vending machines

okay. now i am like totally affected. been really thinking of all the vending machines and what i did wrong. i have no idea why i let this matter disturb me so much. i cant sleep now lah. argh. so what exactly did i do wrong? the question remains.

labour day eh?

and so its a public holiday. went to ECP for church picnic. expected it to be extremely boring. but i think it was not tooo bad. there were times that i really regretted coming. and there were other times that i actually thought it was fun.
whatever it is, it is over.

after picnic was over, i finally decided to change my clothes to go to my grannys. i changed my clothes and had to wear slippers along with it. that only because i am so brilliant that i only brought clothes and no shoes. and so i looked like a total dork. like some indian maid taking the day off as it is afterall labour day.

was heading towards clementi in the train when my sis and i 'ran into' malcolm and mathan. and within the 1 minute conversation that we had, my sister had drawn up her conclusions about the two guys. she agreed with me that mathan was action papaya. and malcolm was a nice guy. my sentiments exactly. and i even think that they themselves know that.

and so we went to grannys. and we slacked. was damn boring yet again. i dint say much. i always dont talk much when i am with this side of my family. i am so much more comfortable with my christian side of the family. but oh, ruban was nice enough to let me use the comp for a while. actually its only because i bugged him.

left for home. took cab. dad wanted to go to the pasar malam. had to follow. there is no choice in the SAD-ASS family. oh btw, my dad's name is sadasivam.
so we could secretly call him sad-as(s). its fun as long as HE does not hear it. it was so damn boring. he did not get us anything la.
i am so pissed man. whatever he says goes.

argh.

and oh. i received a friendster comment. and it was not good. this indian guy from np. he thinks i hate him. and he says i am his enemy. altho i dont know him. it kinda made me sad lah. i mean i dont even know u, why do u hate me right. but he says its due to some vending machine incident. it has to be me. i send all the wrong signals. i hope it will be alright.

okays now. i am kinda tired
and i need to sleep.
so nites all. =)

pam pink and meeena

Learning to breathe

I'm learning to crawl

I'm finding that you

and you alone can break my fall

had a short day at school today. tutorial was really good. at least we had stuff to do instead of sitting down and listening to our dearest Mrs Koh whisper some very valuable information into our heads while we are busy chatting about where we are going after class is over.

slacked with pam and pink after school. and pam was saying she likes the name kevin and i liked vin and pink liked kenneth. i mean the difference is so big lah. vin and kevin are like so similar. but KENNETH? a lil too wide a gap, dont u think?

and then came the time where all the three of us learnt a valuable lesson which is not to flag for cab at the back gate bus stop. i think we had waited for ard 30 to 40 minutes. it was tiring i tell you. and then pam was like saying her prayer loud enough for me to hear. '' God, please send me a cab.''

and then we waited.

waited.

and waited.

and we saw a silvercab heading our way. we were really hoped it would stop. but as the cab approached us, we saw the driver digging for the sign thing which says the location of where the cab is heading. our faces showed signs of anxiety. and then we saw it. boldly written, WOODLANDS. it was exactly the place where our lil darling pam had to go. hows that for a prayer being answered? heee.

blogging

i have alot of things on my mind. some issues that i wanna talk about and some which i just wanna avoid. things i wanna talk about but situation is just not right. something is just missing. and of course there are things which i dont wanna talk about but it keeps coming up.

sometimes, i think that its only me who feels a certain way. but when i blog-hopped today, i realised that hey, i am not all that different. its good to know people too face similar problems and its enlightening to see how they see the whole situation in a total new way. oneof the posts in iqbal's blog really cheered me up. it was kinda deep but very true.

i love reading blogs.

wacky wed

wednesday was well, wacky i guess. it started out great. class was not too hard to handle. when i say too hard to handle, i mean it was not too boring that i had to fight the evil inside of me to stay awake. it was OKAY. but then again, i guess it was okay only because i was so busy drawing on my book and on my hands. oh whatevs!

after class was over, went to grab some sandwich and ate with pretty carina, sya and pink( who was not feeling too good.)then pink left for home. i decided to help out at the SU booth. sya and carina did the amb duty. it was really fun helping out at the SU booth. but i really hated this indian laydee there. she is from SDAR i think. she was really very irritating. i just dint like her and i also later realised that many of the people there dint like her too. so i am not mean to not like her and all u know.

and so duty ended and i deicided to meet allyssa and faz first before going to the dancefloor. yes yes. all thanks to much who gave us the tix. i boarded 52 to go bishan to meet them. and i just couldnt help but notice this guy with long hair get it. and yes, it was paultwohill. and then of course we could here the engine starting and off we went. so the bus ride seemed pretty normal until it slowed like all of a sudden and stopped. the lights went off. OKAY. pretty normal. then it started again and off we went again. 3-4 minutes later, it happened again.

well, now, it was getting to me. i mean i was getting late. i wanted to go to the dancefloor and the bus is like making me late. and u know me, i feel like laughing whenever something good OR bad happens to me. actually, i do laugh when nothing happens to me too. but anyways, the bus started and i was like really hoping it will not stop nimore. but it did. and this time, we had to go down and wait in the middle of the freakin highway. how dumb! then of course another 52 came and we got in. i was so tired by then.

i leaned on the bus standing as i could not get a seat in the already packed bus. the bus was like going at such a slow speed, i believe that i could have reached bishan if i had like crawled there or something. and then finally i met allyssa and faz. and the time was like 7 plus. and we decided NOT to go to the dancefloor afterall as it was too late. i was so damn tired. we headed to coffeebean and then i felt that i was near heavens gates when i said down on those chair.it was so comfortable. i wanted to sleep.

but thanks to both fazzie and allyssa who really woke me up with their stories and jokes. it was really funny. really cracked me up man. i really enjoyed the time with them. and oh iqbal came along. hahaah. this iqbal is not the one i know. its fazzie's BF. he is really shy but seems really nice. he so sweet la. came down after work to see the madgirl named fazzie to give her chocs. so sweet aint it? haha. then we left the place.

i was thinking that it was going to be a lonely journey home. but guesswhat? MY friend IQBAL came into the train ! hahaha. then it was a crazy journey home. really fun. then he got off at cck to meet vin. i headed home. i was really tempted to join them when he invited me tho. but NO! it would be fatal to go with them at that time. they get high at night. there will confirm be people laughing and peeing in their pants while laughing at their jokes.

and so i reached home at ard 11 plus. and boy was i glad that there was no school the next day!

awesome first day

first day of school was simply splendid. had fun in school. and yes.will have tues and thurs off the whole day now till week 7. awesome man!! i loved my day!! =))

first days

nithya has gone india. one less bestie with me now. -sighs- hope she finds nice friends. the whole idea of living in another country without your parents and in a hostel with ur friends sounds really cool. but i dont think i can ever manage tho.

okay. change of topic now. tmr is the first day of year 3!! thats right, YEAR 3!!! its exciting man. exciting yes but then again, i dont really want it to start as well. i have got used to hols man. also, i always feel anxious about first days. its like a new start. but thing is, i dont want it to end. seriously man, poly life is just so short. it ends before u even know it. and i know we will graduate in no time which is like scary. but oh wells, lets take one step at a time and go thru the first day well.

random yet again

i forgot to mention that i had gone to the city harvest service. they had this drama thing. kinda nice. and their clothes were all so nice la. so olden days.

draw me close to you - sonicflood

i was like really really bored. so i was going thru the songs that i have. then i saw this song which i never knew i had. its draw me close to you. it is such a great song. i fell in love with the song the moment i heard it. it really speaks every word of my heart.

i have not been praying and reading the bible. i felt distanced. then when i heard this song, i was just so overwhelmed man. i could feel the presence of God just surounding me. i really wanna just commit myself into God again. i wanna have a proper QT. i just wanna be daddy's girl.

'Lord, help me to be what you want me to be. Its tough and i just can't do it on my own. i need you. there is no life without you. please help me. speak to me.'

Draw me close to you.
Never let me go.
I lay it all down again.
To hear you say that im your friend.
You´re my desire.
No one else will do.
Cause no one else can take the place.
To fill the warmth of your embrace.
Help me find a way.
To bring me back to you.

You are all i want.
You are all i have ever needed
You are all i want.
Help me know you´re near.

a day with nithya

met up with nithya babes today. had fun catching up and all. we watched the freedom writers. it was nice man. then we ate at swensens. fish and chips is good but is alot man. cant finish. and oh i suddenly want to eat pork. heee.