good times

camp was awesome.. dont really know what i did for each day. haha. but it was really fun. some random shots of the camp.











and those were just a few of the many photos that we took. lazy to upload siah.

easter was great. i know many will not believe this but really I WAS DARKER. its true!! and i had to wear this white indian costume to church. i looked nigga man. trust me. had good food to eat. came home and slacked.

monday was good too. went to bb to collect camp photos from syahira. but guess what. the pics came up to 1 gb. so we could not burn it onto a cd. and hid and ira aslo had to rush off. so we decided to meet up on tues. i am meeting darling nithya on tues. cant wait!! then will be meeting my dearest syahira and hidayah!!

camp

back from foc. damn fun. update laters. =)

tuesday aur wednesday

tuesday. followed syahira to the ssdc to register for driving. first time i went there. there were like so many people there. it was sort of fun. then we headed to junction8. we ate at mac. we were like really full man. then we went to collect ira's photo. she was looking great as always. then we headed to esplanade. we were like two dumb kids man. we were bored so we played scissors paper stone and both our hands got like really red cause we had to like slap each other's hands. it was so painful. but it was fun. we went home from with like really red hands. and we both agreed that it was fun BUT painful.

wednesday. went to SU for meeting. met the crazy babes lina, jaime, steph and michelle. it was fun man. then after the meeting, me, hid and sya left to eat. so we headed to causewaypt. we had like tom yum ban mian and spicy u mian. was okay la. as usual, i loved my tom yum flavour. but could not eat finish man. it was like such a huge bowl. then i saw Shahirah and Shana! what a coincidence man. chatted with them for a while. then headed home sweet home.

gosh. i am really gonna rest well man. and oh, my dad bought me a keyboard. hee.. so am gonna be playing it like till i get bored all over again..

hols are no good!

i am a happy girl.

things are fine now.

glad that bro's okay.

Grandpa's one year death anniverary coming.

camp is also coming soon.

dont really have the mood.

i feel so weird now man.

really want holidays to end.

hospital

bro is in hospital.

so much of drama going on.

things are left hanging.

everyone is stressed!

and i have no one to talk to.

i hate this situation.

sum 41

okay.. and so my mother thought that i was listening to some bhangra music when i was actually listening to sum 41. i mean sum 41 and bhangra are like worlds apart. and guess what. she actually sang along to the ''hey! hey! hey!'' part of the song no reason- sum41. gosh! imagine that! what other sign does anyone need to show that the world is heading towards disaster?-gasps-

SUM 41 LYRICS

"No Reason"

All of us believe

That this is not up to you

The fact of the matter is

That it's up to me

Hey, Hey, Hey

Hey, Hey, Hey

Let's Go

How can we fake this anymore (anymore)

Turn our backs away, and choose to just ignore (choose to just ignore)

(Some say) Some say it's ignorance

It makes me feel some innocence

(Some say) It takes away a part of me

But I won't let go

Tell me why can't you see, it's not the way (not the way)

When we all fall down, it will be too late

Why is there no reason we can't change (no reason)

When we all fall down, who will take the blame

What will it take

Nothing could ever be this real (be this real)

A life unsatisfied that I could never feel (I could never feel)

(Some say) This future's not so bright

Some can't make the sacrifice

(Some say) It's much more than just black and white

And I won't follow

get well

i just can't seem to contact pink at all man.

i really was like trying to figure how her father was.

heard from Hid that he is okay.

Thank God he is okay.

hope he recovers really soon.

visit to grannys

went to my granny's place.the people were all there. we were listening to the christian songs and deciding which ones to put for the one year death anniversary for my grandpa. i listened to the really really old tamil christian songs and they were like so nice to listen to man. like so pure and the words like from the bottom of the heart. classic man.

after that, patti, jay, aaron, david, rachel and i went to the other granny's place. met her and chat with her for a while. it was good to see her man. i really think old people are like strong inside. my grandma for example, she lost her husband on 31/3/06 and lost her brother on 13/4/06. thats like within 2 weeks from each other. and she is still like going strong. it really amazes me on how she just leaves it to God and goes on. Sometimes, when things do not go our way, we really question God. We ask him why things went that way and why He dint do anything to prevent it. Then again, we have to ask ourselves ' who are we to question the one who created you?'

okay. i think im going off-topic. hmm. well, after visiting the other grandma, david, aaron, rachel and i went to hougang mall. we were like going crazy man. we walked around like for so long until we got really really tired. then we headed back home. and then of course, the aunties have lots of food stuff to give my mum. so i had to transport it back home to my mum. haa. came home ard 11. really tired.

results

results are out!

the results were kinda good despite me slacking all the way.

i hope my dad gives me cash as reward for my results!

random stuff

okay. and so i did chat with my brother for the first time in msn. it was very weird i tell you. it seems like a normal conversation but its really far from normal. its weird. it goes like this.

sasi says:
hi
sasi says:
hey, im out nw at lan shop
meena says:
ian shop?
sasi says:
lan, computer shop with joe
meena says:
oh okay
meena says:
u coming home tonight?
sasi says:
playing game
sasi says:
dun know what time i cum home, maybe very late, leave the keys by the table
meena says:
okie..
meena says:
its there by the table..
meena says:
have fun playing games. LOL.
sasi says:
u
sasi says:
2
sasi says:
bye bye bye bye

That was the convo. now, i viewed all the people who had viewed me. and i found this person who happened to be Filipindian(Half Indian/half Filipino). that person wrote 'I would also like to live one day in the shoes of a shoe' under the about me area. i felt that the sentence was pretty interesting.

i am being so random. i am so bored. oh i did not go to the sentosa outing.dint really feel like it. heeee. but wanna go out with the people who have been not-so-active in my life.

good camp

camp was good!

photo time baybeh!

Black Rouge

babes in blue

sleeping

me n allyssa

devils

randomness

eh. balls.

balls 2

balls 3

the united four. BLACK ROUGE

the people

timon and me

steph darling n me

only hid and me were to be on the photo.

that kinda explains why the rest of their

faces are distorted.

shingo and me

kelvin me romeo

reeena n meeena

meena hidayah lina

lina meena

monyets

half ira.kid.meena.hid

me jun wei

me iggy

me gilbert

far me

fabian me

chek whye me

me din

din me

booked in yet?

here i am.
i should have already booked in by now.
but i did not do so.
i am not in the mood for camp.
BR supposed to spend the night out today.
but i did not go.
was really really tempted to tho.
but i chose not to go.
just had this feeling that i shouldnt go.
pls tell me i made the right decision.

i am like supposed to book in tmr.
i still have not packed.
maybe i shant book in tmr too.
i dunno man.

church was good today.
i was more like reading the bible instead of listening to the sermon.
i dint know got so many rules during the old times man.
the sentence for almost any sin was like death.
scary man.

i am so bored. oh i know.
i could go read my new book.
have been into reading novels recently.
am addicted.

meetings

went to school for meeting.

slacked.

had a meeting.

BR went kap.

talked alot.

had fun.

back to me - building 429

i had made some promises to God. i told him that i will do some things for him. but i have not been doing them. and eventhough i have not been doing them, i still received prophecies that my future is gonna be good and that i will be brought to high places.

i was wondering why that was so. i mean i have not been doing what i am supposed to do. if thats the case, why would God still wanna bless me. i should be punished instead. but yesterday God spoke to me. He clearly said that i have not been doing what i promised him to do and he wanted me to get started as he wanted to do a greater work in me.

i felt very guilty. suddenly, i felt as if i have been such a bad girl but still God wanted me as i was. i made a decision to set things right. i started doing it the right way today. i feel great man. i really do. i just wanna be a good girl. =)

and yesterday's message too was good. it talked about bitterness. and that there should not be a trace of bitterness in our hearts. So, i felt that i should apologise to BR. i messaged them and apologised about anything i haev said or done which might have caused any misunderstanding. Somehow, i felt better. i mean i have not been saying my thoughts out to BR cause i have been controlling my temper and i have kept my feelings inside of me. so when i do that, these feelings that have been suppressed turn into bitterness and i move away from the people. so today, after the sermon, i reconciled with the people that God wanted me to. and i feel relieved.

i learnt that no matter who's fault it could have been, we should always make peace. it might or might have not been your fault, but we have the duty to maintain peace at all times. so yah. i feel great.

back to me - building 429

Tears burn like the flame of the fire
Words heart when they come from an empty heart
Then time stops like the hand of a broken clock
And everything that lit up your life is covered in the darkness
I know, I knowI feel your pain
I know, I know

When the world is closing in, you’re breaking down
You’re crying out but there is no answer
When you call, just close your eyes and know that
This twisted road eventually, is gonna lead you back to Me

Ice melts to reveal a frozen soul
And the water rises to new suffocating heights
And it feels like you’re drowning in desperation
Cause everything that lit up your life has been covered in the darkness
I know I know
I feel your pain
I know I know, you know the way

When the world is closing in, you’re breaking down
You’re crying out but there is no answer
When you call, just close your eyes and know that
This twisted road eventually, is gonna lead you back to Me

chinese rock!

went to the DSA (down syndrome association) on fri. supposed to be a field trip there. only seven of us. it was nice. the people there as in the teenagers with down syndrome were really friendly. they were not faling anything. genuine people. had a good time there.

then headed to mambo billiard to see pink. had a quick time with her. talked nonsense. and of course pink gave me chewing gum. hahahah. she always gets those for BR when she goes malaysia. then i left to meet allyssa and hid.

was late when i did meet up with hid and allyssa. and oh guess what. the bus was like so empty and before i knew it it was just me and the driver. lol. we even had a long chat man. he was really friendly. then i dropped off and met with my babes.

we were like really hungry. so we headed to marina square and ate. yum food man. really good. then we slacked at esplanade. then came the indie chinese rock music. haha. you could see the families of young children actually getting up to move away. hee. and hey altho we could not understand what exactly those people were saying, it was really entertaining man. its all about the music man..

then we walked walked and walked. hahaha. we walked till we dint have much energy and then we decided to go home. it was a good day. just a lil tired. and oh. i really wonder when BR will meet up as a group. although, i have other besties and all, i have no idea why i place so much emphasis on meeting up with BR. its just that i dont wanna lose them.

replies :

zara- more like its YOUR year dude! hee. love u too.

grace - you scared me man. i thought annan as in some indian guy name.. hahahaha. yeah. meena akka sounds MUCH better... hee.

yana - hahaha. its really dumb aint it.. hee. ey go out together ahh..

okie now. photo time baybeh.


pink and me


we tell ya. the food's good!

hid allyssa me.

yeah!

taken from the shirt which chek whye look-a-like was wearing.

the people.

randomness

have been just oh-so-lazy to blog.

wed went to slack with Allyssa and Liz. we ate at long john silver's. and we saw sofian. guess what? his gf kept on staring lah. like hello but you can keep your bf to yourself cause we are not interested at all man.

then went to esplanade.made random calls to our friend's list to ask if anyone knew any place where we could explore. many gave very brilliant ideas. shingo for example, said we could head to the mrt station and head straight home. and tas who said that we could take random buses and get down anywhere and start walking. and of course vin who suggested bowling. how exciting!

we were like so bored. we just sat and slacked listening to the people blasting some music. hee. and i have to say. some indian guys took photos of allyssa. now now, she sure has suitors of all races. hee.

was a good day in all. pink was not there tho.


the three of us.

two now.

random pic which hid just sent to me.

lalala

good day people. tmr is sunday. and i am going malaysia. to kota tinggi. It is my niece's baby dedication. i have so many nieces and nephews, i think.

okay. so i have been watching many movies lately. its no good man. not good at all. i better start doing something worthwhile. =)

and oh i wanna apologise for replying late to my tags. i always forget to reply when i blog. heeee.

replies:

grace - yeah babe. sure!! will link u up!!

somebody - im sorry. i think i have more than enough friends who take up more than enough of my time and make me more than mad. so i dont need another to add to my burden. thanks for the offer tho.

zara - OMG! really? i will call you tonight. tell me all about it..

vin - it was good! may thanks!

den - its ended well. YAY!

Vday 07

YAY! days have been great!!

tuesday was my last paper. boy, am i relieved!! heee. was having the exam symptoms all before the exams. my throat was like so damn painful and i had non-stop cough which made me really mad. but well, it all ended well. exams were finally over. and ALLYSSA, PINK and I went to vivo! had a really good time. and we ate at new york pizza. hahahha. wanted to see if the malay laydee who quarelled with naz and me was there. she was not there tho. hee. Allyssa treated us to dinner. so nice of her.. and i will usually not accept treats cause its just weird, but syahira dearie said that she just felt like giving it. lol. she is super nice babe. enjoyed the time with them. Then, NAZ came to join me and allyssa. She was saying about her date with NAZMI! weird coincidence rite. nazmi and naz. lol. no wonder they call themselves twins. haa. after allyssa left, naz and i shopped around and then headed home. good day!

wednesday was simply AWESOME!! i woke up really sick. was really tired and all. but then things just got better. firstly, i went off to met my uncle to pass him some things. He ah. haio. he can just get so irritating at times man. LOL. he tell his own jokes and laughs to himself. i mean, its not even funny man. but whatever man. After that, i went to Esplanade. hahaha. i tell u, it was like so nice man. i was listening to my mp3 and just enjoying the wind. SUPER SHIOK man. then met some of my friends whom i din intend to meet. spent some time with them.then i went to the arts library. i was reading a book and was sitted at the desk where there were four chairs. so obviously since i am only one person, the other three chairs were empty. then walked in a really cute guy. There were like sso many seats at the table behind me and more. But, he came right up to me.

guy: hi! anyone sitting here?
meenatakes her eyes off the book and pretends to look at the guy for the first time.
meena: oh, nope.
guy holds on to one of the chair.
guy: may i?
meena: haha. yea..

omg. then the guy just sat on the chair and begins to draw. he draws so beautifully. so so nice man. and then i could not really concentrate on the book anymore. i was like so distracted by his drawing. hahaha. but oh time past so fast and i knew i needed to be off. so i left the library and went to the mrt station to go to my sister's office. i got lost yet again. but i still managed to find my way there without my sister's help. hee. i am so smart man. then we headed straight to eat.

And then we somehow found our way to DBS Arts Centre - Home of the Singapore Repertory Theatre. lol. gosh. i was like all so ready for ' The picke King' - by the indian ink theatre company.. been like so looking forward to it. hahaha. the play was simply great. it was hilarious. i really laughed so much man. this was my second time attending their show. the first one was ' the Candlestickmaker'. It too was great. haahah. so all in all, i really enjoyed the 'pickle King'.
nice stuff man. so after that, my sister and i went home. it was a tiring day man. but it was fun.

Happy Valentine's!

argh exams

exams make me so sick.

i hate them.

throat hurts so bad man.

everything just goes wrong.

exams.

really really tired.

i almost slept in the exam. so damn tiring.

questions were exactly what Sukuna had asked us.

Forgot some of the things studied tho. haha.

its the last paper tmr!!

i am so gonna be sleeping and resting man.

and wed, change of plans again.

hahahahahaha.

this always happens..

one more to go. yeah.

replies to tags:

den - yeahman. thanks..

sean - hahaha. i dint ask!

vin - i'll take it from someone who knows. ahahha.

yup

im so tired. tired of studying.

and OMG! the notes are just so weird..

i cant seem to understand..

and the english is so bad man..

AHHHH.

replies :

ferline- wow. i dont know u know my blog. hahaha. miss u man..

vin - she saw!! HAHAHA.

den-hello u thin really that little stuff meh. u try studying my notes and u might just figure how things are for me...

bala -vala.. ahahhaha.. yup u too man..

zara- LOL. i think the pic kena deleted also man.. ahhaha. what to do. do to what. LOL. eh eh. where vin photo?

exams

EXAMS!!

WHAT A HEADACHE!!

LET'S ALL MUG!!

WE DON'T HAVE A CHOICE!!

YEAH!!!

days of january.

Reflections for Janurary.

1. i have been struggling with work.
2. friendships going down.
3. settling other's problem.
4. not keeping in touch with God.
5. family is the only thing getting better.

Somehow have the feeling that February will be much better. i have not kept in contact with many of my friends in jan. so i am like really gonna go out of my way to keep in touch with them. Also, i am learning not to help others too much to the extent that they depend on me. Friendship wise, i really need a break. at a loss, there is nothing to hide seriously. i could just talk it out, but then again, there is no guarantee that it will not happen again.

I should seriously make proper time for QT. not been on track. i am really gonna have to set this right man. The most impt thing for now. oh and i really have to thank vin for being my listening ear. i don'y usually talk about things that are bothering me but if i do, then it has gotta be to the person whom i feel very at eased. so, Thanks vin! Also, the family is somehow getting better. so hope it just keeps getting better in February.

thanks for tagging people! i have already replied you guys in your own tagboards =)

caili is graduating!

had no school today. still went to school to do assignment (Adobe premiere). and oh.. forgot to say, we got B+ for the website that we created. Thanks to Mich!! love her so much man. NO, not just because she helped us to do the assignment but because she is such a dearie.

hahaha. Hid and i did the premiere thing in class while getting distraction using msn of cuz. Bu still we did quite alot of work i will say.. saw caili, jeremy adn davio along the way. Then went home with Crystal and Hid. took photos in the bus which dint quite turn out well..

reached home safe and sound.

and now let me elaborate more about meeting caili. Well, she is like graduation in two days. Yes, its the last two days of the semester. Man! its so gonna be different without her. and of cuz F.O.C will not be the same without her ah.

and now updates:

1. Naz and her new found friend can click well.
2. Meena and Siti are friends.
3. Caili is graduating in two days.
4. Meena has no idea Grace knows meena's blog.
5. Sean is angry with meena cause she does not reply to tags.
6. Vin is happy (for what reason, only God knows)

Yup. i think thats about it. =) and oh! i love strawberries!!

trust.

TRUST.

something so fragile.

you broke it more than once.

so what shall i do?

and i really have no choice but to say this. cause i have been said to be so starightforward that its hard for you to be my friend. But i cant be a hypocrite pretending nothing has happened when i know very well what you did. Are we even friends?

happy birthday.

Happy Birthday Bro!!

NYP

Went to NYP open house on fri.. Met naz and siti. this siti whom i just gotta know is havoc ah. HAHAHA. spent some really good time with her. she is really nice.. Just as naz claims. =)

then saw VIN. after that, we went to Taufik's performance. sialah. He damn emo can. say what ever had ur heart broken and whatever crap. It was really boring man. seriously. i mean DON'T EMO man. at least not on friday! hahaha. then saw Rafi (this dude whom sri, naz's friend likes).. After that, saw one of my second cousin. I turned away. Dont really like the second cousins.

After that, naz and i went to eat at CCK. Siti had to stay for some meeting for SU i think.so yup. it was fun hanging out in NYP

open house.

i am like so blur can.

Firstly, taufik was performing a malay song. and i was like feeling so hot standing in the crowd, so i moved out of the crowd and went to get myself a drink. After getting myself a drink, i stood in the atrium but not too close to the crowd as i needed cool air. this time, Taufik was singing ' all because of you'. so i stood there in deep thoughts while i listened to the song. then Malcolm and Raymond walked in front of me. and of cuz i didnt even realise that and continued listening to the song. it was until i saw a hand ryte in front of my face that i realised that there were like these two people (Mat Mal and Raymond) waving to me can.

Secondly, Sean. i saw a guy walking towards me but i did not see the face. Then before i knew it, i felt a sharp pain on my foot. it was STOOPID SEAN stepping on my foot to get my attention. he was standing ryte in front of me but i did not realise he was sean. GOSH.

Thirdly, Midori was in level two of the library and i was in the atrium wating for Hidayah and Pink. so i was like turning here and there as i was extremely bored. Then i saw a chinese cleaner coming to me. i was wondering what he wanted with me. Like totally no link can. Then while i was still looking at him, he looked at me and pointed to the second floor of the library. I looked up and i then received enlightment when i saw this MIDORI waving so frantically at me. LOL.

Forthly, there was a group of people and then Hid and i were like walking past. then suddenly there was a girl who went '' HEY! HI!" and she was sweet enuf to smile and wave. I returned a smile and a few seconds after we went away form them. i asked Hidayah who that girl was. I seriously could not remember her. then Hidayah had to explain how we knew her and all. Gosh.

This is BAD man. i am seriously forgetting alot of stuff. HELP MAN!

oh and wait. beofre i forget this. i am going to have seafood today!! YAY!!! can eat ALOT!! YUM!

replies to tags:

Bala- YAAA! BVSS one.

Zara- GO GET A LIFE NAZ!
Sean- High self esteem ah u. and my leg still hurts.
Rui jing- i can meet u like anytime u want babe. =)

Jesus you're my superhero. You're a star. You're my best friend.

last day

havent been sleeping well. i just cant. been really restless about the assignments. SO annoying man. Thanks to those who were really entertaining me when i couldnt sleep by msn-ing and chatting with me on the phone. =)

oh and i so have to say this. when i talk to Hui min, i always get a very nice feeling. i miss the fellowship with my christian chinese buddies. like so youth group and together as one feeling. hee.

and and and. today was my last day of attachment. so officialy i will not step into the centre anymore. SAD man. the kids were like especially nice together. and oh Gabriel Ong is Mrs Yvonne Ong's son. that means i knew that fella in my class much before he was even born. Hee. and the kids were so loving and all. so hard to leave them.

bid goodbye to the kids and my teacher and then my field supervisor. She was really nice. had a short Debrief sorta thing. Then both alicia and i left the place. and oh i had bought my kids some stationary. They were in packs and were so cute and all with the small pencils and erasers and papers with rulers all. haa. hope the kids like it .

i am so gonna miss the kids. =(