meenamelanie

2010-09-15T22:30:00.001+08:00

i hope my patti gets well. love u granny love! :)

lost

2010-08-24T22:52:00.001+08:00

im lost. Help me find a way. bring me back to u.!

reopening!

2010-08-08T00:40:00.002+08:00

well, its been one year and 2 days and meena is writing a new entry! which means there are problems which she cant tell anyone and has to write it down. :( after so long, shit happens. i know how they say shit happens but not now man! not to me, not now. its the 7th week of practicum. i need to rest. so much work to do.

its 12.45am and im wide awake! but no mood to do work! sucks aint it? i was reading through some of my old entries! really miss the good old days! :)

fun!

2009-08-05T22:33:00.000+08:00

i am so busy going out every single day man! (:
but im sure having fun.
yabadaba dooo!

ARGH

2009-07-08T14:21:00.002+08:00

ARGHH!! theres something wrong with my internet!!

and thanks to that, i could not update my blog on time

and got into trouble!!!

and the hotmail as well!! what is javascript man!!

it just decides to stop working and my work is delayed!!

im sad as i got a bad comment!!

stress is creeping in!!

camp

2009-06-07T22:01:00.001+08:00

Tabernacle of David's Church Camp was awesome!
Had the word of God and had loads of fun!
(:

church camp

2009-06-07T12:58:00.000+08:00

CRAZY THINGS WE DID:

1. run as a group in the space right infront of the stage when there was a performance going on with quite a number of audience!

2. squeezing together in the small Kbox capsule and shouting out loud. There was no mic needed man! And yes, we perspired alot!

3. taking the banana ride! was really fast and we were like so scared of falling into the water!

4. going for the fish spa! gosh! it felt so very ticklish. i actually survived that!

5. going into the kids club and wrecking havoc! the blown up area to jump was like brought down by us because we, teens went in and played!

others:
games in our own groups.

BEACH!

Arathana n her amma ingay vaa vaa

Andrew Anneh explaining

Thank u Jesus

2009-06-01T21:11:00.004+08:00

Thank You Jesus!
Thank you for your love and mercy.

flag a cab

2009-05-21T17:57:00.000+08:00

i flagged down a police cab thinking its it was cab. and the police car stopped and the policemen smiled at me! (: i was freaked out but i smiled. ah! what a day!

):

2009-05-16T03:21:00.001+08:00

why do i get stuck in the middle while trying to help? how is it that a call gets directed somewhere else and someonelse spoke on the phone? Did you even make sure it was the right number before you raised your baseless assumption? what kind of prank was that that got me really worried about my loved one.

whatever it is, i hope my loved one does not get hurt. it just hurts me to see him without a smile. i want him and his girl to be happy and i will do anything for that.

i have been feeling so feverish and i get bad coughs at times but still i stood strong. even the doctor said, you are not allowing yourself to fall ill. i wish i get better. i should just fall ill and get it over and done with perhaps!

RAJ CALLED

2009-05-15T13:31:00.003+08:00

Raj called me yesterday! His good friend Jeremy James is actually my second cousin! The son of the only guy whom i dislike in my mother's side of the family! DANNY! of all people!! Man, this country is really small i must say!

Shana called me again today! (: so glad to hear her say something! (: double yes AHH!! Im feeling really feverish but im happy!

i quit

2009-05-12T22:58:00.000+08:00

i quit!

its harder than i expected!

i miss u

2009-05-12T15:39:00.001+08:00

i miss you!

dad

2009-05-06T09:30:00.000+08:00

Everyone wished me but YOU!

happy is meena

2009-04-29T19:28:00.004+08:00

my phone is really going mad!

it goes off on its own.

it has a life of its own i believe!

annd i got scolded because it kept going off!

ITS NOT MY FAULT DAMNIT!

it was really rushing today.

took cab with little cash and NO ATM CARD!

(My ATM card was with the head.)

i had to get back home before the head comes back.

THANK ALMIGHTY HEAVENS,

it costs lesser than what i had. -phew-

i got back back replies to all those whom i had personally emailed.

was really nice to hear from them.

oh, i received many love from them.

YEAHS AHHHHH! (:

talked to prakash today! so reminds me of raj!

the same way of talking, everything also same same!

and he insists my mother is from india from the way she talks.

or rather the way she pronounced his name!

prakash is really funny! cuteness! (:

he brushed his teeth while on the phone with me!

im gonna be 21 soon! (: YAYNESS!

i miss.

2009-04-28T01:45:00.000+08:00

i miss.

my throat painful.

2009-04-24T20:36:00.000+08:00

my throat is painful ):

sorry peng!

2009-04-22T23:54:00.001+08:00

IM SORRY SOCK PENG ):

help me jesus

2009-04-22T23:36:00.003+08:00

i have disappointed you again. im sorry dearest J!

i love you most.

more than anything else in the world.

i know i have not been showing it in my actions.

please forgive me and fill me once again.

i wanna be filled by you.

forgive me.

DRAW ME CLOSE

Draw me close to You
Never let me go
I lay it all down again
To hear You say that I'm Your friend
You are my desire
No one else will do
'Cause nothing else could take Your place
To feel the warmth of Your embrace
Help me find the way
Bring me back to You
You're all I want
You're all I've ever needed
You're all I want
Help me know You are near

smile missing

2009-04-20T23:46:00.002+08:00

i vent my anger for someone on someoneelse.

i felt damn bad! im really sorry!

the most stupid mistake i could make!

its sad to see happy people sad.

it just broke my heart to see you that way!

that smile was missing.

is tehre anyone out there

2009-04-19T21:28:00.002+08:00

is there anyone out there cause its getting harder and harder to breathe!

growing up

2009-04-03T03:11:00.003+08:00

two people within the last two weeks, have asked me how i am able to be so happy and smiley everyday. i just smiled and said that i am happy. But deep down inside, i dont know. many a time, i realise that i smile to cover up my sadness. of late, i have been really sad and worried. but no one knows. they get deceived by the smiles. and after a while, i feel like so hollow. its almost like living a lie. the feeling is bad. things are definitely not as simple as i thought it will be. Growing up sucks big time!

chocolate chip cookies

2009-04-02T18:23:00.001+08:00

DID YOU SAY CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIES? (:

shana is leaving

2009-03-30T12:45:00.010+08:00

shana is leaving today.

to melbourne!

i really hope she likes it there.

i know there will be alot of emo stuff going on in the airport.

hugs and kisses mixed with tears.

im so happy for her that she is doing what she wants. (:

and yes i know i make it sound like

shana has been my bestie forever.

but she's one girl i got to know recently.

and yes, as what my cousin says,

its hard not to fall in love with her.

really wish the best for her!

TAKE CARE SHANA! (:

and just a random picure of me and my sister! (:

23 march 09

2009-03-23T22:57:00.000+08:00

Oh how time flies!

2009-03-12T23:20:00.003+08:00

thanks iqbal for coming down all the way from pasir ris to boon lay just to check if im alright! im super touched! (: i really value the time i had with you today. thanks for being a shoulder to cry on. and i felt so much better and i had a smile on my face once again! many thanks IQQQQQBAL! (:

and hidayah, for calling me and chatting with me. every call from you really makes my day! thanks so much bestie! (: i love you!

leeson plans

2009-03-12T00:58:00.000+08:00

LESSON PLANS!

aunt meena

2009-03-10T22:42:00.003+08:00

i really dont understand some people!

dont worry, we wont spoil your son!

thanks

2009-03-07T13:49:00.012+08:00

i have been going out everyday.

meeting up with friends.

many of them whom i have not met for very long.

spending quality time.

IQBAL! It has been so long and im really glad that we met up.doing silly things llike running around and getting chased by dogs after disturbing them. you getting all so wacky after playing truth or dare. going up to random people and waving. am i glad to have known u and thanks for taking time to meet me dude! (:

JENN! sister from another father. im glad to have caught u trying to steal and stopped u from it. and i did get permission from u before i wrote this right! hahaha. one more time you even try to steal my heart, i will complain to the people in charge (_ _ _) and charge you with theft. i miss u girl! (:

PANDIJI! i miss u so much. im so glad i am going to meet up with u coming friday. u know just the thought of meeting up with u makes me feel like i have already met up with u and we have bitched, yacked, and done so many things together. i cant wait to do all that with u. and yes, i have so much to tell u and i beleive u do too! see u coming friday(:

HIDAYAH BABY! the one i love so very much! i have to have my weekly dose of u man. a pure joy to be with and i miss u so much. and the one who i can rely on anytime. my bestest best friend! i cant wait to meet u la babe. i know u are are very busy with the things going on and ur hol is coming up! yippee! im going like meet u everyday or ssomething man. -comatose. i will never wake up without a overdose of you!- (:

I LOVE YOU ALL VERY MUCH! (:

complain queen

2009-02-25T15:54:00.002+08:00

meena is complaining!

there is so much of assignments to do!

i dont like this at all!

fulfil prophecy

2009-02-21T02:29:00.003+08:00

i was told that i look like an ape by my cousin.
Its a self fulfilling prophecy! FREAKY!
im gonna stop calling myself a monkey.
and stop others from doing that too!

pray

2009-02-15T23:28:00.006+08:00

After so long i felt the touch of God.

my body felt like i just ran 10km.

i was perspiring in cold church.

my hands and legs grew weak and i felt that gentle touch.

the touch which said everything i wanted to hear.

that something familiar when everythingelse is alien.

i felt him. i cried. oh i love him so.

thank you for being my very present help when im in need.

By drawing closer to him, i also realise that i have more troubles in my way.

more obstacles that i need to cross.

more trials, tribulations and not to mention, temptations.

i really pray that you give me the strength i need Lord.

things complicated

2009-02-06T23:43:00.003+08:00

why are things getting so complicated?

batam.

2008-12-27T20:10:00.000+08:00

BACK FROM BATAM!

I LOVE SINGAPORE!

(:

myanmar

2008-12-23T23:58:00.004+08:00

BACK FROM MYANMAR!

am i glad to be back!!

SINGAPORE IS HOME (:

new phone!

2008-12-01T22:15:00.002+08:00

yes and thats my new phone. cost me $538.

its like $888 without contract la.
i wouldnt even think about getting it if i couldnt claim from MOE.

meena is sick.

2008-11-30T19:46:00.000+08:00

meena is sick.

myanmar chalet

2008-11-27T22:58:00.001+08:00

the prepatory chalet for myanmar is over.
had to leave earlier.
fun while it lasted.

really bored without school

2008-11-18T19:28:00.001+08:00

its like really really boring without school!
theres slc meeting on thursday.
friday meeting hid and hopefully ira and pink.
sat there is youth outing.
sun is church!!

stop being happy!

2008-10-29T23:16:00.003+08:00

ok. please tell me that its not good to be too happy.
it clearly showed today.
the very happy meena started giggling in the middle of a presentation!
i know its so very dumb.
i know i got weird stares.
but i cant help it.
i need to giggle means i need to giggle!!

STOP BEING SO HAPPY MEENA!

HAPPY.

2008-10-25T20:43:00.001+08:00

i have no idea at all why im so happy.
but i am happy. and thats it!
WOOHOO! (:

(: week 11

2008-10-23T23:47:00.002+08:00

WEEK 11 IS OVER!!!!
DONE WITH DSE EXAM.
MATHS TEST.
DED 100 PRESENTATION.
DED 103 PRESENTATION.
JUST ICT PRESENTATION and TWO ESSAYS TO GO!
(:

oh, i forgot a have alot of exams coming up!
i was a little too glad too soon!

stress

2008-10-09T23:52:00.000+08:00

STRESS!!!

goes well?

2008-10-03T01:04:00.002+08:00

NIE is stressful. Oh yes it is! i failed my first math test. the only comfort would be that alot more failed together with me :) Second test was kinda simple for me thanks to shan's coaching! life is kind of good. hope it all goes well.

Jesus, please please help me live my life the way u want it to be!

life is great

2008-09-19T00:39:00.000+08:00

Life is great!
I love the days as they go by!
=)

two weeks. raj,.

2008-09-13T20:42:00.001+08:00

Two weeks. Hope it flies past!

happiness has so many terms and conditions

2008-09-03T22:30:00.002+08:00

Happiness has so many terms and conditions attached to it.

new everything

2008-07-27T12:24:00.000+08:00

everything is new.

i feel overwhelmed.
=(

too late to apologise

2008-07-01T11:51:00.001+08:00

it doesnt make it any easier.
its really too late to apologise.
i hate myself for this.
=(

if you had just one wish, what would it be?

2008-06-24T13:19:00.000+08:00

if you had just one wish, what would it be?

forgiveness?

2008-06-17T17:23:00.007+08:00

Let me apologize to begin with
Let me apologize for what I'm about to say
But trying to be genuine was harder than it seemed
And somehow I got caught up in between
Let me apologize to begin with
Let me apologize for what I'm about to say
But trying to be someone else was harder than it seemed
And somehow I got caught up in between

Between my pride and my promise
Between my lies and how the truth gets in the way
And things I want to say to you get lost before they come
The only thing that's worse than one is none

Let me apologize to begin with
Let me apologize for what I'm about to say
But trying to regain your trust was harder than it seemed
And somehow I got caught up in between

it ends tonight

2008-06-17T12:58:00.001+08:00

Your subtleties
They strangle meI
can’t explain myself at all
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don’t want to need at all.

The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

A falling starLeast I fall alone.
I can’t explain what you can’t explain.
You're finding things that you didn’t know
I look at you with such disdain

The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

[Chorus]
When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Now I’m on my own side
It’s better than being on your side
It’s my fault when you're blind
It's better that I see it through your eyes
All these thoughts locked inside
Now you’re the first to know

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends when darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this rightI
t’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Tonight,When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight.

Trying not to break but I’m so tired of this deceit

2008-06-15T11:30:00.001+08:00

Trying not to break but I’m so tired of this deceit

peeing

2008-06-11T16:18:00.000+08:00

Is it possible to not pee for a whole day?

surash and santhiran

2008-05-16T23:01:00.007+08:00

my arrogant cousin and brother came to my house today.

i think they are the first ones in heaven-knows-how-many-years to step into my house as visitors.yes, its true. we havent had any visitors at all as far as i can remember. all thanks to dearest dad! (if u know what i mean)

Julia gabriel? Lets see how it goes :)

update is soon

2008-05-14T19:01:00.001+08:00

i have alot to update but am plain lazy!
sooon alrights?
and stop buggin me stupid iqbal.
i have said, havent i? BAS!

may day

2008-05-01T19:01:00.004+08:00

went to patti house.
today is the 4th death anniversary of my grandfather.
ate vegetarian.
NOT NICE.
but of course i had to lie that it was really nice.
so make up for the veg mean, i ate lots of meat later on :)
i pranked this guy, ruban's friend.
and its proven once again that guys are just flirts.
it does not matter whether they are good looking or not.
my uncle was showing some old videos.
realized that my father looked kinda handsome when he was young.
like so whatever!
and all of a sudden, i get so many video calls.
all thanks to M1 and their promotions.
and someone pranked me today as well.
funny shit!

special thanks to someone who made my day with a simple sms :)

ruban room.

shana.meena.

NIE interview

2008-04-24T12:54:00.002+08:00

i went for an interview. =)
and i made friends with the guy at the reception.
seems that he too is from Np.
he was from some engineering course.
so after the interview, i chat with him and then i left.
then i was walking towards the MRT and i received a call.
from the guy and he said i left my ic there.
so i walked all the way back and i went to collect it.
there he was smiling so widely.

guy: haha, u forgot ur IC.
meena: EXCUSE me, YOU did not give me my IC.
guy: haha, you didnt ask.
meena: u take chance to see me rite. keep my IC with u..
guy: yeah! im glad i did! hahaha.
meena: errm.. alright bye!
guy: see you at the graduation!
-smiles-

i so totally love friendly people.
they just make u feel better. =)

and so right, i was heading home.
and i fell. i was trying to :
1. take the vibrating phone out of my bag.
2. board the bus.
3. tap the ez link card on the reader.
4. prevent my file with all the loose papers from falling.
AND I FELL. it was such a meena moment!

but thanks to gab, i was up on my feet in no time.
but i heard the ah peh behind me go 'tsk tsk tsk'
HAHAHAHAHA

and ya, i talked to my dad today on the phone.
i had to call to say that my mum was sick and he had to eat out tonight.
by the end of the conversation i was like trembling man.
this aint no drama. -.-

and i did a extremely stupid thing today.
i msged the wrong people and got weird replies.
and arrogant cousin not THAT arrogant after all. =)
and gabriel is scared of cats!

loving family? =(

2008-04-23T22:08:00.003+08:00

i never knew what its like to be in a loving family.
will i ever find out?

=(

prayers again?

2008-04-16T15:45:00.004+08:00

it seems that my father side are gonna be doing some prayers in the temple as its my grandad's fourth death anniversary. so ya, they will be going to the temple. my sister, mum and i as always wont go to the temple but i hope that this time we wont even have to go to the house. i really dislike going to gatherings of my dad's side. its just so boring. and i dont really seem to have any connection with the people there.

I HOPE HOPE HOPE i dont have to go there tmr!

wakes funerals

2008-04-14T23:24:00.003+08:00

yet another servant of God has passed away.
I hear of so many pastors passing away recently.
its really sad for the people here on earth.
but i believe those who have been taken away are rejoicing with the Lord.
=)

events for march

2008-04-07T22:41:00.003+08:00

march events.

trial camp and FOC

two visits to the christian cemetry.

we did not know that it was the first day of some chinese thing and the whole road was like jammed with cars. we actually walked all the way from the highway for forty minutes before we reached the cemetry.

blackie passed away =(

separate lives

2008-02-21T23:24:00.000+08:00

we all lead separate lives now.

dinakaran

2008-02-20T15:04:00.003+08:00

http://www.jesuscalls.org/home.asp

from the inside out

2008-02-17T22:47:00.001+08:00

A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out

blackie

2008-02-15T22:56:00.004+08:00

i was just about to blog about blackie and he just came and licked me all over. so heres blackie. a friend's dog but my brother always brings it home nowadays. Blackie is so lovable. and i still dont quite know why he is called blackie. yeah. but whatever rite. i like blackie man. when i have my own home, i will also have a dog. =)

THE SUCKIEST DAY

2008-02-11T22:49:00.000+08:00

some days suck. and i can assure you tat today sucked big time! well, woke up at like three to get ready for the kinda house warming thing for my aunt, Aunt meena( hindu side). so we had to dress in whatever she bought for us. mine was orange man. ORANGE. i am dark and i need a orange? oh yes, i did! so off we wore that and we headed to the house.

The prayers started. it was boring to the extent that i could have jumped off the daymn building with a note saying 'boredom kills'. but it was really interesting to see how the priest did and made the people do. sometimes, they just followed whatever the priest asked them to. personally, if i were them, i would wanna know why exactly am i doing the things that i have been told to do. cause i need conviction. i refuse to do things for the sake of it.

so ya, my mother, my sister and i were not at all involved in any of the prayers. =) but it was a new experience la. prayers were finally over and it was time to eat. i ate two idli. i was really hungry. but i don really fancy idlis or i kept it at two. and then it was boredom all over again. ruban was sleeping on the bed and before long, i had also got on the bed making myself very comfortable in a corner. this is so the monkey see monkey so thing. so i got a few numbers from ruban to prank people. it was so fun man. all the unknown numbers were there in my phone.

but i could not sleep. after like keeping myself alive for 4 hours enduring the painful nothingness that boredom had to offer, i finally got ready to meet BLACK ROUGE. the time with BR was so fun. =) until, my relatives had to spoil it. See, we were watching this movie and i got a phonecall form aunt rosemary. she wanted the address of my hindu granny. so i had to find that out for her. so, the only person contactable was ruban. so i took out my phone and saw the calls received and i messaged to the last number which i supposed was ruban's cause he had called earlier to speak to my magic uncle. i msged that i needed the addy and asked if it was possible for him to ask my mum to call aunt rosemary. he replied me 'who's this?'. then i messaged him back a message similar to the first one and said i was in a hurry.. 'who's this' was all the reply i got.
I WAS SO PISSED! i was in a freaking movie and my aunt was on one side telling me that i gotta get the address and ruban still had the cheek to play with me.

called the number and was to shout man seriously. and guess what? it was not ruban. it was suresh. the arrogant cousin. then i still can think he was taking ruban's hp. so i still can ask where ruban was. and then it dawned upon me that this was not ruban's number. after thinking so much, i realised that my magic uncle had used my phone to call his beloved son suresh.

OMG!! i was like actually talking to suresh. of all people. suresh. ARROGANT GUY! passed phone to liz and asked her to do the talking cause i am so not gonna talk to cocky people. i still did not get the info i needed. called my sis for help. she screamed at me saying she cant help. Called brother and he did not pick up the phone. like how in the world was i supposed to contact my mum to get the address man?

Amidst all these, BR was like so freaking bored watching the movie that we got out of the daymn theatre. yes, we did. the movie was damn boring. DAYMN boring. so we got out and we kept walking and i kept thinking on what to do. got a phonecall from my aunt rosemary saying that she wanted the address right now. i got so pissed i almost wanted to shout man. dont tell me what to do. i am not obliged to help anyone woman. Thank God it was over when i called my brother for the thousandth time and he finally picked it up.

it almost drive me crazy when people cannot even bother to help u just a little bit when u need it. anyway, i am really glad that its all over man. i don need to feel so bored anymore as i am out of clementi. =)

the people.

the priest.

akka. =)

mummy =)

ruban. =)

nayagan =)

ruban.indian.

yours truly wearing ruban's NCC uniform =)

boredom happens

2008-02-07T15:15:00.000+08:00

i am so bored. i wanna go out.

school over

2008-01-30T17:29:00.000+08:00

last three days of school. =(

hahahahhahahahhaha

2008-01-27T23:30:00.000+08:00

i actually got confused with west grand boulevard and caracal.
SO DUMB OF ME.
I KNOW!!

WEIRD

2008-01-22T23:15:00.000+08:00

so much of work.
so much of preparation for the presentation.
so much of work.
so much of work.

and oh, we did smuggle the food to the third floor of the library. =)

and i dunno why hidayah had something growing down there
after we ate the smuggled hot dog bun.. =)

long breaks

2008-01-21T13:27:00.001+08:00

long breaks suck.
no where to go but the library.
graduating in two weeks.
daymn!

open house 3

2008-01-19T22:07:00.000+08:00

OPEN HOUSE DAY 3 SUCKED!!

2008-01-18T22:24:00.000+08:00

open house day 2. was fun fun fun all the way. i cant contain myself man. its like oh so fun. everything is so fun. meeting new people. talking to them. taking snapshots of random people. wheeee!!! i am so gonna miss this once i graduate. daymn!!! anyways right. i think one guy in the baracuda batucada thing is kinda nice. he so the monkey siah. like so happy and on only. always smiling. i like people who smile. so so nice! hahaha. oh, and gracie came to my school today.. bukit view baybeh!! =) so we had our lil time together and stuff. and ya. as she mentioned, there are alot of indians in the school. so, i guess she would not be interested in coming to ngee ann. =)i cant wait for tmr. gosh. i need to wear the stupid yellow HMS shirt. HAIO. just imagine lah. i am like so dark and the shirt is like yellow!! OMG!!!

i have no idea who this retard was. i just took her pic.

the malay guy from baracuda batucada

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!

openhouse day 1

2008-01-17T23:31:00.000+08:00

highlight of the day. SOLER came down to NP to perform. They not only look good but sing well too. really awesome songs. i love this particular one. SO TOUCHING. =) can cry all siah. =))

meeeeeeena

the one pink liked.

SOLER BAYBEH!!

then yet again!! wheeee..

and oh.. they have a blog. some research and u get all their information. LOL. =)

http://hk.myblog.yahoo.com/solerblog

wooojjooo

2008-01-11T00:21:00.000+08:00

okay. so school was somewhat fun today. we went for the lecture which ended at 11 and then we went to a few career talks and talks regarding the degree programmes and all. gosh. it is tiring to be there to listen to what these people are trying to promote. and then of course we could not take it anymore and we decided to go watch a movie in the library.

okay i forgot what the movie was but it was really nice. about how ur bestest best girlfriend can be your worst nightmare. gosh. scary siah. and SOME people had to just spoil the wonderful movie. there were some Indians who were just talking SO SO SO loudly. they can sing songs all. gosh. SO NOISY man. haio. i will chase them out of the library if i could lah.

and then we were all so bored after the movie we decided to go home. =) and of course i had to go meet the famiy friends. it was kinda fun. simon anneh is fat now. heh. i dint get to see molly tho. but i wish them well lah. haha. =)

theres a small small presentation tmr. and a talk for those helping out in the open house. gosh. i am gonna break soon man.

=))

2008-01-05T21:56:00.001+08:00

its so nice to be happy! =)

new year greeting

2008-01-01T00:41:00.001+08:00

i already decided to go the watchnight service in my house for the new year. i wanted to start off the year proper. However, i dint not really like the people who i was gonna see at the watchnight service. i wanted to pray and start the year but i dint want so many people around me. all these years, there have always been people with me while counting down to the new year. Somehow, people will be there; either my family or my friends. So, this year i wanted to be alone. YES. ALL ALONE.

and i was. all alone. NO ONE could bother me. i was alone and i could really concentrate. i prayed for the new year. prayed about things which was not planned at all. someone was guiding me in my prayer and it was obvious who it was. i was really blessed. i truly enjoyed my time. i know for sure that if i had gone with my friends to VIVO as planned, i would have lost out alot. im so glad i decided not to go. i thank JC for giving me the opportunity to spend my time with him.

Better is one day in your courts than thousands elsewhere. =)

hiiiiiiii

2007-12-31T21:29:00.000+08:00

its a new year. its a good time to leave unwanted things behind and move on with life.things may not have gone my way. things may have been different from what i have thought. i have mishandled some situations. but its all over. i pray that the Lord will also lead me in the coming year like he always does. =)

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! =)

scream!

2007-12-13T23:28:00.000+08:00

it makes me wanna scream!

brothers

2007-12-13T00:39:00.000+08:00

brothers can be so nice at times. my brother just cooked me maggi wit prawns and meatball. SWEEEEEEEET man. and its like 12.40am. these brothers ah. so damn sweet la. i love brothers. wish i had around 10 or something. LOL.

blessed!

2007-12-12T22:57:00.001+08:00

you are a blessing to me. thanks! =)

whatever whatever seriously

2007-12-11T22:29:00.001+08:00

i hate how i cant even have a proper conversation with my dad. i actually cried while talking to him. goodness. i am such a loser. i am so scared to talk to him la. i should just go bang myself against a wall or something.

happy burthday

2007-11-30T00:04:00.001+08:00

i realized that sometimes, i just cant be bothered to feel certain emotions. for example, when sean accidentally deleted all my photos and all my songs from the lappie while trying to change some of my settings, i was in no mood to get angry. haha. but the look on his face was funny tho. and sometimes, some of the jokes that people say are funny and it tickles me but i no mood to laugh. and sean was telling me that i am the one who needs to be configured and not my lappie. ahh whatevs!

THURSDAY Was SYAHIRA's Birthday! haha. it was so much of fun surprising her at her home. haha. we took many photos also. but i am just too lazy to upload. some other time i guess. and i love people who are born in this week. =)

Happy Birthday SYAHIRA, AUNT MARY, PANDIJI! =)

tired of it.

2007-11-27T23:09:00.000+08:00

did not go to school today for lessons. but i still did go to school to see the children of caterpillar cove having a full dress rehearsal for their graduation concert.it was really good. had fun with pink. then i headed to lil india to meet my akka cause she wanted to go for threading and to buy her friend a gift. so we went and got her friend a perfume. and i still think that men perfume smell so much nicer than ladies ones.

and i really cannot take it anymore. why do problems come together all at once? i am tired of fighting it. tired of feeling it. i am just so tired. =(

from the inside

2007-11-15T23:17:00.000+08:00

i hate this moment.
i really wanna scream.

bloody hell.

2007-11-14T17:17:00.000+08:00

never in all my life have i ever felt so left out.
i cant believe they had to speak mandarin for the whole bloody discussion.
and they dont even realise not everyone is involved.
if u dont wanna compromise, im sorry but i am
just not interested to contribute even a single idea for the discussion.
i have been compromising all my life.
and i dont intend to keep doing that.
goodbye to you if u dont wanna compromise.

jason birthday

2007-11-11T22:57:00.000+08:00

saturday was tiring. first had to go to school for EOP test. so stupid. i left the moment they said we could leave. then hidayah, pink and i headed down to PS to celebrate jason's birthday with grace. and so we bought brownies as a substitute for a birthday cake. heh. and so, we all headed for lunch and had lots of fun. and hidayah had to leave after lunch. so, jason, pink,grace and i headed for the arcade. i only played the shooting thing which i love so much. i hate hate hate the driving thing. i cant control anything man. maybe that is the reason why i refuse to take a car license although my daddy said that he will sponsor me. it was fun day with them.

and then i headed home to get ready to go to my sister's friends house for deepavalli. and i saw my ex-schoolmate vanessa. not cheena babi but another vanessa. what a coincidence man. she was the ex-colleague of my sister's friend. heh. small world eh. then of course we chilled and talked and then ate to our hearts content and left for home soon after. it was a tiring day but i had fun! =)

the people

the brownies

grace and me

jason.

jason 2.

deepavalli boredom

2007-11-08T23:52:00.000+08:00

Deepavalli is really a tiring day for me.
its tiring cause there is nothing to do at all at my hindu granny's place.
its exhausting to sit and act like i am such a homely person.
omg. its insane. and then they all have weird conversations
going on and i have like almost NOTHING to say at all.
and i cant like talk much to my guy cousins cause they are guys.
and actually, i got nothing to talk to them also.
the only guy cousin i can talk to is like ruban.
and i have this aunt who keeps asking me to wear the shawl thing
in such a way that it covers my whole front and thus
hiding the whole design in the front.
for goodness sake, i aint wearing anything which is obscene.
its a punjabi suit for heavens sake.
and the food is like briyani with chicken and mutton yet again.
am so bored of all these yearly stuff.
so so so so so boring. it drives me insane.
thank God this years deepavalli is over. for me at least.

keertana and me

da jie and me

good times rool

2007-11-05T22:09:00.000+08:00

Good Times

Put down the magazine and get off the phone
Cuz theres a place I wanna show u and it wont take long
Take a ride
Take a ride

Its lookin like we're getting there
Over here, comin clear
Place that has no rhymes, or times, or crimes
Just good times
Just good times

Take me away
To a place where the good times good times roll
Don't let me stay
In a place where this hate can steal my soul

Got myself worked up over nothing today
All this trash in my head I gotta throw it away
Its alright
Its alright

Its lookin like we're getting there
Over here, comin clear
Place that has no rhymes, or times, or crimes
Just good times
Just good times

Take me away
To a place where the good times good times roll
Don't let me stay
In a place where this hate can steal my soul

This is it, I'm finally here
And all the blurry lines are clear
And everything that I cant see
Seems to make more sense to me
Why the hell cant I just let it go, let it go, yeah

Take me away (away)
where the good times good times roll (roll)
Don't let me stay (stay)
where this hate can steal my soul

Let the good times roll
Let the good times roll (take me away)
Let the good times roll (take me away)
Let the good times roll

bad bad day

2007-10-31T21:19:00.000+08:00

bad bad day!
went to NUH. wasted trip.
took cab. met Jason. took bus with him.
both of us rushed for class.
class extremely boring.

only good thing for the day: meeting zara and my BR babes! =)

forced

2007-10-30T21:55:00.000+08:00

i just hate it SO SO SO SO SO SO much when i am forced to do something.
ARGH!!
DONT FORCE ME!!

thursday ah!

2007-10-25T17:43:00.000+08:00

today is a good good good day! class was only from 9 to 11.
Kelly and i went to have lunch together.
and so we headed to amk hub.
and yes, i still do get lost in there. heh.
we ate at new york new york.
yummy yummy food i tell u.
bbq spare ribs was delicious.
it was really so nice to meet kelly and talk about things.
i mean there was a solid conversation.
we both talked about our lives and all.
i felt so much at ease that i talked about my life.
i swear i dont talk about my life to just anyone.
i love kelly so much and i trust her.
i really enjoyed the conversation and the time spent with her.
thanks babe!! =)

then i went to chill with the monyet king himself.
and since i had bought a woodcraft thing that i saw at amk hub,
we both decided to fix it while waiting for the monyet prince to come.
and we nearly spent 2 hours fixing that thing
cause it was like so tough man.
it was alot of fun tho.
figuring which piece should go where.
and after we fixed it, we felt so happy and satisfied.
heh. i cannot forget the look on iqbal's face.
so anyways, vin came with ben, manda and shu yuan and iqbal's ''girlfriend''.
and that was it. we got high on air.
we had alot of fun.
and then of course i got tired and came home.
and here am i typing this out.
i love my friends. =)

the woodcreft thing which took hours to make.

oh, and teacher ram invited me to her house today.
i wanted to go but i could not cause i had stuff to do.
hope the rest of the teachers have fun tho.

disaster week

2007-10-24T20:45:00.000+08:00

last week was very tiring. aunt was admitted in hospital. she had brain cancer. so since doctors had already given her 3 months to live, she went with her daughter and nephew to china i think. and when she came back, she had a fall and got admitted into the hospital. visited her on sunday. i just hate to go into the icu rooms. i hate to see people fighting to live. i hate to feel death lingering in every corner. and so i did see her. she was on the life support thing. which means that without the machine thing, she was dead. so it was a matter of time she passed away. i felt to bad for her children. then of course we did a little prayer in the icu room. then i went off to church to many questions on my mind. i know that i have no idea to ask why things happen this way but i am only human and i was really confused and began to ask questions. so church was like all so bad for me that day. i was like crying non-stop asking stupid questions and demanding answers from God.

monday was like no better. wanted to visit aunt but mum said it was really way too crowded there and thus i did not go to the hospital. i had a restless heart. i felt like i had lost something. tuesday, grandma had to go to hospital for checkup. again had to go to the hospital. and my aunt passed away.
wednesday was all about preparing for hids birthday. went to the bottle tree park to check out the place and then went to school and headed back home for a proper rest. but again, i was not allowed to rest as i had to plan many things.
thursday was hid's birthday. had a few quarrels with friends cause i hated it when i had to clean up the mess when things go wrong. and i really lost my temper. but it was good fun when cara and elaine and the rest of BR with Pam. and thursday was also my granny's major operation. i could not go because of the bd celebration. and after the bd celebration, when i wanted to go to the hospital, mummy called me and asked me to go home instead.
friday, funeral for aunt. i refused to go. many said i was stubborn not to go and pay my respects. but i knew myself and i knew i could not go. i was not at peace. if i were to go there, know i will make a mess up. i will begin to ask questions and i will lose faith. so i did not go there. and i went home with a unsettled mind and i tried to keep my mind on happy things but failed miserably. i was almost torn apart by friday cause i had so many things going on around me and i had no one to tell it to. so i told it to the one who always listens. i poured my heart inside out and i felt better. like so much better.

thank God saturday and sunday were like much better.

u who knows best.

2007-10-16T22:42:00.000+08:00

its not for me to question.
but i cant help it.
why things happen in a certain way?
i shall just leave it to you who knows best.

thanks to iqbal who knew something
was wrong with me the moment i picked up the phone.
gotta be telepathy man.
thanks for the small yet really
uplifting chat.

first day of last sem

2007-10-15T22:46:00.001+08:00

first day of second semester, the final semester. was good. sukuna is now back to her normal cheerful self. so good to see that. so glad to see my besties. and of course, there are the classmates.

and oh, fazzie is so pretty with her permed hair. so so gorgeous. totally suits her. she looks like a princess in some fairyland. and pam is like a rockstar with red highlights. cool stuff eh. Pink, Allyssa, Hid and i have not much changes tho.We are so the same-old-brand-new-us.

and and and i called India today! yes ah. okay. actually i only called someone in India. and that person is nithya. heh. so exciting siah. i love to talk.had a really good chat with her. loves.

and oh, i found my old diary. i was reading thru it and it found it to be so interesting. it was mostly written during upper sec. when i was like so stressed and feeling so stupid. and as always, i never say my problems to anyone. it was all like written in the diary.

so nice to read man. i jotted down stuff like when nithya/ naz/ vanessa/ sockpeng/ fattanah and basically anyone helped me. because i had this thing since young that i must never forget those who helped me. even if it was a small help, it meant the world to me.

and i realised that after secondary school, i had this diary but i rarely wrote on it.and there were like so many empty pages.and i really cant recollect what had happened from the time of graduation from bvss to now.

so, i have decided to have another diary. gonna write all my stuff in there. all my problems, my happiness will be like written down. and in a few years time, i can read back at it and have a good time looking back.

gotta sleep now. really tired.
goodnite mates! =)

hidayah heal fast

2007-10-10T23:59:00.000+08:00

hidayah and her adventures gone bad once again.
she hurt her foot and i saw those pics in her blog.
bad stuff i tell u.
and to think she still sounded so cheerful on the phone.
gosh, she is like strawberry la.
i have no idea why i said that.

and so, i really hope her toe heals.
and after all these accidents that are taking place,
i think BR should just rename ourselves as
WD or something. and oh, WD is for walking Disasters just in case u dint know.

i want school to start. i want to meet all my friends.
i also want to meet my schoolmates,
random people whom u dont know but have seen ard in school
and of course the lecturers.

the last semester is here. so i should really enjoy my time in NP.
i meant work hard for the final sem. heh.

to my babe!

another day another experience

2007-10-02T23:14:00.000+08:00

i saw my darling germaine and her sister and of course the hot dad. heh.
i miss them so much la.
they were like screaming ' teacher meena teacher meena!!'

we chatted in the playground for around 10 minutes and it was so much fun.
the girls had ALOT to tell me and i was more then happy to listen.
and the dad was very nice to join us in the small talk we were having.
then of course i had to leave.

went to woodlands mac to teach rachel maths.
and maths is so nice to do i realised.
like sec 2 work is much fun.

headed home soon after the tuition. was tired.
and tmr going out with the allyssa and hidayah.
hope its fun. neh. it will be fun!

goodnite mates! much loves! =)

Get well soon syahira!

2007-09-27T21:10:00.000+08:00

Thank God syahira is okay.
she got into this minor accident and her knee is like swollen.
and not forgetting the arm which is like numb.
Thank God she is alright.

so that means that all my close friends who have bikes have gotten into accidents.
scary man.
it reminded me of the time when i and my aunt got into an accident.
scary stuff.

i hope syahira will get well like real soon. =)

happy!

2007-09-23T21:07:00.000+08:00

i am so happy.